Stress relief anyone?

I woke from a severe drug induced sleep after what felt like was 8 weeks but I looked at my crono on the wall and saw it was only three hours. The force told me something was not right. Looking around my room I found out what it was. Lisette was missing.I went from room to room looking for her, calling her name and waving a can of cat food in my hand. Gar Gar tried to snatch it off of me but he was very promptly deposited in a bundle of robes which he blew his nose on. They were Mace's... Suddenly I have a newfound respect for him. (Gar Gar I mean)

I kept on looking until I got to the roof. Whenever I got up there.. I let out such a bloodcurdling scream I think my own eardrums burst. Now much doesn't shake me, I will be the first to tell you that . Not even the sight of a Sith lord shakes me one iota. But how I found Lisette I was ready to kill the first thing I saw.Ignoring the note I ran as fast as I could with Lisette in my arms to the healers. She had two broekn back legs , and someone had tried to poison her with Belladona.

My arms were shaking as Dolie told me that I had gottne her here just in time. She would recover, which was the good thing. After several hours, the healers told me I would do Lisette no good hovering like a worried mother hen and they sent me away to my room. I AM NOT some thing they can send away on a whim!.. I went to the arena to try and burn off some of my anger. As i worked at the bags that hung in the room a voice entered my head..


" Why didn't you tell them?"

I shrugged while continuing to pummel the bag,imagining it was Dooku " I don't know what you're talking about"

" Yes you do"
the voice replied " you care for him, deeply"

My face turned beet red "Do not!" I exclaimed .I looked around.. It wasa good thing I was alone in here"do so"

"Do not!"

" You do so, and don't try to lie to me, I am inside your head, I know all you know and all you feel.. it's okay to care for someone. Even though you are a jedi you are only human.."I sighed and let my hands fall onto my head " Jedi aren't supposed to have attachments. And that includes atachments to people! I was lucky to be allowed to keep Lisette!"I heard the voice sigh " you sitll don't get it? The code can be intrepreted in many diffrent ways. No one way is right and no one way is wrong.. This is why I never was a jedi."

This intrugued me" then what are you? Or should I say who are you?"The voice chuckled " You don't remember? The red book? I am Sith emperess Ravenstone. though I am not evil acutally but I do like t pull pranks now and again. I have sith and jedi powers alike. I will help you get rid of Dooku and Sidious fair? I have a title to reclaim after all you know.."I have to say I was suprised. She , a sith emperess would help me? The book she spoke of was locked in a trunk in my room. People wonder why I keep such old things. Well one of those advantages was no one would look for a magic book in a locked trunk.

I let my memories take me back to that day as I kept pummelling, my fist puncing a hole through the bag

The day I had found the red book was a strange one indeed. It was just a few days after I had been brought into the temple. I had been brought before the council and tested to see if I would become a padawan or if I would be sent to Agri Corps. After I had been tested I was told I would be infromed of the council's decision late that afternoon. So I wandred out onto the grounds and into the woods. I found an old wooden box covered in runes. I opened it carefully to find a red book engraved with golden runes which I recgonized later as Sith runic.

Common sense told me that I should put this back and leave, but my curiousity got the better of me. I opened the book and began reading.First slower as I tried to pronounce the runes and then faster and faster until I was reading like an occult crazed lunatic. I remember my feet left the ground and I kept reading page after page, faster and faster.

Once I got to the last page I remember something like a lightning bolt hitting me and I screamed which must've echoed all the way back to the temple. I felt some sort of spirit enter me and then I felt normal except I could barely stand. The last thing I remember before passing out was seeing Obi Wan....Later when I woke in the infirmiry I was told that Obi wan had brought Anakin out into the woods to hunt for some herbs for the healer whenever they heard my scream and had found me.

Once I had been released from the healer's care I went back, in the middle of the night and retirved the book and hid it in my room. the next day I was told I had been accepted as a padawan by Master Paradox. I have always considered that book my good luck charm, but is it really? Now I do begin to wonder, but all I know for sure is that the day I got that book and the accident happened, something in me changed. For the better.


" So why do you want to go after Sidious and Dooku so much?" I asked after destroying one bag and moving to a second one.. Oh I'd make them pay.. and pay dearly... " Mainly because they shame the name of Sith, and in general they are Sith wannabes. "

"Okay, next question....." Why do you want me to tell my secret so badly?" I looked around.. Even a jedi woudd think you were crazy if you heard the voice of some dead emperess in your head.

" This might sound strange for a Sith Phobia, But I want you to be happy. You've lost a lot. But I can tell now, that yours isn't a secret that shouldn't be told. He would not accept you, for he already has turned away another"I was shocked into silence and then a tear or two fell down my cheek but I wiped them away." Why do you want me to be happy Ravenstone? I'd think you'd want to get back on your throne as Sith emperess.. Not hang around a jedi!"

" I don't honestly know Phobia. Ever since you found the book I was trapped in, I felt a kinship to you.. You are like a daughter, sister and best freind to me."She does have a habbit of shocking me into silence doesn't she?It was then I remembered the wise words of a Shaman on Quellor " Watching over someone from afar is a kind of love too" and I was able to feel a sort of calm peace .. for the moment.. but I couldn't take inactivity much longer.finally pummelling the last of the bags, my strength went with it and I sank to the floor.. I lashed out at anything that was not nailed down.. " Damm I can't take sitting here doing nothing!" I said pulling my hair with my hands.. Then I felt a pressure at the back of my head.. " then let me take over for a while" she said.. I nodded and she rose in my body. together we left the gym after a quick shower and headed to my room to dig out some old things.

More later( If I don't rip someone's head off first) Phobia