Thursday, December 28, 2006

More nightmares.. Revelations and Pain

As she escorted me down the halls of the ancient ruin; which is the only way I can think of to describe it, I thought for sure I was living a bad dream. Mere ripples of the temple's former glory whispered through the dark halls, calling out to me like a siren's song .I could see the tapestries, which were full of color and life in my time, now dark with decay, and coated in dust hanging from the walls. We passed the hall of the lost 20 and she stopped.

" Come in here first, there is something you MUST know. " I followed albeit hesitantly. She pressed the button which activated the holo pictures of the faces of the lost 20, the 20 jedi who had been knights, some revered and then turned to the darkside, like Count Dooku. " you do know what this is don't you?" she asked me, her eyes fixed on mine.

I could feel there was some terrible truth she was about to reveal.Something I didn't want to hear but must hear for the greater good.

" Yes this is the hall of the lost 20, or now the lost 21"

" Wrong, it's now the hall of the lost 23"

" WHAT?"

She smiled and shushed me" Catia counts for 22.. the 23rd was her apprentice.. Lord Vader"
I nodded, the bile rising in my throat.. Why wouldn't she tell me who it was? I could goback and kill the person before this acrocity ever happened!

"why I brought you here is not because of Vader or Catia, but because of your father. He is one of the lost 23"

My eyes widened with shock. No! it simply couldn't be! My father one of the lost 23? No!

" It can't be!"

" Oh but it is.. you get your force sensatitivy from him. he died about 20 years ago give or take.. just before you were born.. Phobia.. Our father.. he was apprenticed to Qui Gon Jinn"

The world suddenly spun and I fell flat on my butt in the hall.. There was no utter way.. but somehwere in my heart I have always known it was true.. Every tiem I saw his holo I felt a special connection to him. I didn't know why.. I rose and slowly made my way over to the holo picture of my father.. The apprentice of Qui Gon Jinn.. fallen to the darkside, and his death watched by the man I care most about in this world: it was Xanatos.
My hand rose to the holo and it flickerd before comming back into place." Who.. who was my mother?"

" Your mother was a call girl in the Blue Rose bar.. When you were born, she wanted nothing to do with you.. she dumped you as soon as she could. Xanatos wanted to take responsibility for his mistake, by finding you and bringing you to the temple if nothing else; but Qui Gon would not let him search for you. In his diary Xanatos thought that Qui Gon was jealous of you and was afraid you would distract him from training."

"The council agreed and forbade Xanatos to search for you. Your own story you know from then on. it was because of the council's denial that caused Xanatos to turn to the darkside. He felt they had betrayed him. when the council teaches patience and tolerance but whenever Xanatos tried to excerise those same virtues he was brought up to being a golden calf of sorts. It would make anyone angry.. some could survive it , others could not. Your father was one of the unfortunates . I believe if he had found you, he might not have turned at all."

Tears were falling from my eyes as she finished the story. Pressing a small button on the bottom of the drawer, she removed a small mahogany chest with the symbol of a raven etched into it via wood burning. She pressed it into my hands. " He was quite good with wood projects. He left a note asking that if you would ever come to the temple that this box finds it 's way into your hands. You can take it back with you to the past"

She pulled me to my feet and we exited the room and kept going down the hall to another door which she knocked and I heard a male voice answer" Come on in dear.. I'm almost done with these old records!" Smiling she tugged me into the room and I nearly dropped the box as the man seated at the computer nearly dropped his glasses.

He was the spitting image of Obi Wan in his younger days, a pair of thick geek glasses perched on his nose, clad in a red sweater and black jeans with black boots. Giggling my future self pinched me and laughed " no your not dreaming. I thought so too the first time I met him.. so to speak.. come on in and sit down.. there's more we need to talk about.. "

The man rose from the computer and extended his hand to me" I'm glad you got that message, you did turn it over to the council though didn't you?" he asked with a look that reminded me of an evening I would love to forget. Embarassment flashed through me and he lifted my hand to his lips and kissed it" There was no need to be embarassed about that night.. but you might want to know that it was Gar Gar who spiked the punch not Anakin. Blasted cat framed him for it. Needless to say, Anakin took his revenge in a very just way."

giggled, butterflies fluttering around in my stomach." um okay.. is there anything I shouldn't be asking?"

He nodded gravely" Two things, one who Catia's apprentice was and secondly, about my past.. You know much but you know nothing.. all I will say is I am a Jedi..." A kiss to my forehead.. Hmm maybe I should stay in the future..

The void that had made me felt so restless and alone was filling under his tender care and I sighed relaxing into the couch. He chuckled and ruffled my hair" You can't stay here as much as I would like to let you.. You have to go back before Vader knows your here .. oh and when you see Obi Wan again, tell him in the matter of DJK.. things are not always what they appear to be, look to a gypsy."

My future self sat bolt upright her eyes wide" He's here. Ivan get her to the portal, I will distact him" she raced out of the room headed in one direction, Ivan grabbed me by the arm and took off running for the oppisite end of the hall. I could see the portal shining in the gardens. All of a sudden he doubled over in pain" Keep running, don't stop for anyone or anything. Remember we're always with you GO!"

He ran back down the hall to help his wife.

My feet beat across the stones as I ran for the portal . I was almost to it when a chilling darkside energy made me turn, my hand on my saber there stood the one man who everyone feared.. Darth Vader.

He looked right at me and his eyes seemed to widen in shock.. Well I wouldn't know because they were hidden behind that ugly helmet. He raised my future self from the stones and began to choke her. To my horror I felt my trachea begin to give way under the intense pressure. I unclipped my saber intent on helping them even if I could barely breathe.

Ivan screamed at me to run but I refused and instead went after Vader , using every ounce of strength I possessed.

He had me beaten in 5 moves. As he raised his saber to strike the final blow, a surge of energy whipped through my body, elecricity crackled through my fingertips and I slammed Vader in the chest with force lightning. He was thrown back and I picked up my saber which had fallen to the floor" now tell me who you really were before you became Darth Vader"
He scoffed" you would not believe me if I told you"
My saber inched closer, wanting to stirke the final blow but I could not, my training would not let me, not til I knew the truth.

" Try me"

He remained silent, as though considering my challange and said" Alright, a riddle for you then , the kyrat dragon flies,the mynock sings.Two twists of blue one soon to be red. Disturbed and confused, angry and resentful, one pines for an unrequuited love. Fires of passion burn bright when these two duel. Who are they?"

He chuckled" If and when you figure the answer out, I will tell you my true identity, even let you kill me. For I am sure you will wish to. When you figure it out, type the answer on a blank datapad and leave it on the windowsill of your room. I will find you."

Then he force shoved me through the portal.

I fell on my head in my room , trying to draw air but I found I couldn't. He had crushed my trachea. I stumbled out the hall and to the helaer's ward, praying to the force Obi Wan and Anakin wern't there trying to find me.. I slipped in and saw one of the healers quickly before I passed out and she healed my throat in a matter of seconds.. She warned me not to try to talk til sunriset least, and told me she would keep me hidden from Anakin and Obi Wan for them moment. So now I can sit and think.. and maybe open this box..
More later

Sunday, December 24, 2006

The future.. secrets, and more headaches

When I woke my head felt like it wanted to split in half the pain was so bad. Stumbling to my feet I made my way to what appeared to be the temple and pushed open the heavy doors. The place was too earily silent.. Somethign was wrong, very wrong... There were limited force presences here and I had no idea why.. for one of the few times in my life, I will admit, I was scared to death. What had happened? Normally the temple was buzzing from day to day and now it was as quiet as a graveyard..

The pain abated as I glimpsed a magazine lying on the floor, Empire Monthly? What in all stars was going on? I picke it up and read it.. then it dropped from my hands like I had touched aheated hyperdrive core.. Oh gods.. no.. no.. it couldn't be! A set of hands landed on my shoulders and spun me around.. It was.. me.. but older.. a lot older.. beyond my years even.. " You came through the chest didn't you?" she asked me.

I could only nod.

She quickly pulled me down familiar yet strange hallways til we reached what was and is my quaters " Take a seat.. We have much to discuss" She siad, her eyes somber as she poured some jawa juice. I took the cup she handed me and began to sip slowly " How far in the past are you from?"

I looked up at her.. over the rim of my glass " Well I can tell you that it's Christmas Eve there.. The party.. "

She gave me a curt nod, " whati s going on in your time?"

I gave her a quick recount, about Barriss, Erfia and what had been happening at the temple.. " .. it might not be too late to reverse what happened.." she muttered thinking aloud.. a bad habbit which I swear I will curb if it kills me

I had enough" Explain to me what happened or I will find my own way back! I'm getting sick and tired of you not telling me things! I am you damnit!" my frustration was building like a pressure cooker and pretty soon I was gonna snap if I didn't get some answers.

She sighed" alright, sit still and I will explain, but listen carefully because I don't repeat myself"

I curled up in the armchair as she went into her tale

" Three months after your fight with Harusame, the council offered a potion to seperate Catia from you and give her a body of her own. you took it.. well at least I did. it split us and fora while things were fine.. but then.. soemthing happened. While on a mission to Endor to bring food and medical supplies to the batallion stationed there a hail came out to all of the Jedi telling them to return to the temple. I went back as comanded , but my sneses were on alert. When I entered the temple the warning of danger screamed through the air and I ran for the council room. There stood Catia, saber in hand , her new apprentice next to her."

"Her apprentice lifted his saber to begin striking down the younglings around him, but I threw myself at their feet, pleading for the children to be spared " sheshivered and looked even more dead than alive as she continued " they agreed on one condition, I had to choose who lived and died on the council and through out the whole temple.. The remaining council membersare Master Yoda, Master Kenobi, Ki Adi Mundi and Adi Gallia. and the others who were killed.. I was forced to watch their excutions.. Later her apprentice became Lord Vader and I the emmisary between the Jedi and the Empire.. We are basically Vader's personal assisians now not much more.. Life continues here, but not without constant reminders of what happened, Espically for me..

"Catia dissapeared into the center of the galaxy and has not been herd from since.. I assume she is still alive and biding her time in case her apprentice should fail. She gave Sidious the title of Emperor and made him Vader's handelr in another words" the last part was spat out hatefully.

My mind was having trouble wrapping itself around all of this, but I knew therewas one thing she kept from me" who was her apprentice ?"

Her eyes flashed and she looked at me strenly" I will not answer that, needless to say his betrayl affected us all ." she sighed and stood" C'mon I think it's time you met theman who sent that chip to you.. "

I followed her out the door " who?"

"My husband , Ivan"

More Later
(from Pho's author: Merry Christmas everyone!)

Monday, December 18, 2006

Christmas party woes

Well believe it or not I made it whole to the night of the party.. how? That part I don't know.. Point was I was at the party and there where whispers and various people pointing to me and whispering .. I shook it off and headed to the punch table..

I saw some sort of row between Padme and Anakin but wansn't paying much attention as my eyes locked on a certain someone across the room. I don't know what it was but the next thing I knew I was being whirled across the floor and a whisper in my ear of " spiked punch"

A very agreeable shiver went up my spine.. I didn't know what I was doing.. It was like I was watching myself . Everything else i knew that told me this was wrong went out the window and it was like as though I was moving on a programmed set of movements.

Just as I was about to betray the one secret I fought so long to keep, lights blared and the song " Rage Against the machiene " . Suddenly I was out on the dance floor alone.

" Catia what is going on with me?" I asked, my body feeling like it was on fire
I got no answer, which scared me.

I headed over for a second drink and it only took about 2 minutes and the same warm feeling returned through my limbs.. i had pratically no control over my body and as I moved closer and closer.

The feeling grew more and more intense until I was sure I would burn up like a piece of paper in the fire.
Whenever I found myself next to him again there were tears squcking from the corners of my eyes and I swore I would kill whoever had spiked that punch.. espically if it was Anakin. all I could manage to make myself say was" Spiked punch.. forgive me.. please" before I had pinned him against the wall ,kissing him like a woman starved for food.

Oh force.. if I must die.. let me die now while I was happy.. The feeling grew and grew until I swas sure I would die from it.. then mercifully.. Oh force mercifully I only saw blackness.. The last thing I remember seeing was a pair of sea green eyes.

When I woke .. I was in the hospital wing, still in my dress, thank god. Voices were comming from behind the closed door next to me. I distinctly heard anakin among them. and did I hear... Gar Gar? Stars I was going to kill someone at any moment...

As the door opened and Obi Wan looked over at me, I buried my head in the pillow and cried my eyes out.. Everything had come back in one, very painful bright rush and I could not bear to look at him .
I heard Anakin as well and one look told me all I needed to know.. He had done it. He had to have.... .

" Don't you even come near me Anakin!" I screamed at him. I'm sure if I could've seen a miror I looked horrible. For a small moment I was caught between lunging for his throat and choking thevery life out of him and jusr running out of there as fast as I could.

I chose the latter.

I force ran out of the hospital ward,clear back to my room . I wanted to die.. to let myself be swallowed up and die utterly.. If Anakin had not spiked the punch, my secret.. the one thing I fought above all to protect.. would not be in such danger. My heart felt like it wanted to be ripped out and stomped on..

I briefly wondered what he must think of me.. Probably thought I was nuts, overreacting or having some allergic reaction to whatever that weasel spiked it with. .. I glanced around my room ,my eyes falling on each of my things in turn..
I considered running from the temple, but that wouldn't do either.. it would just make things worse..

Then my gaze fell on Catia's trunk..
"yes Phobia.. an escape.. that chest can make it so this never happened.. and do a good deed too .. "

I lifted the chest lid open and in it. .was a portal.. A swirling white portal.. all I would have to dowas step through and.. poof.. I knew how portals worked.. but then again I could always go back to the Rekai for a year..

Then I would be free. .but then again.. Kurama and Yusuke would have my head for running then expecting them to protect me.. no this was best..
A quick change of clothes and I headed back looking into the chest.. I would only stay for a few hours.. somehwere where I could think.. unimpeeded and without distraction..

Somehwere I wouldn't have a chur'ell freind trying to wreck my life or a dissapointed Jedi Master.. I briefly wondered what MY master would think of this. She'd probably be ashamed of me too I figure.. .

"Catia.. where does the portal end up?"
"nowhere and everywhere whereever it deems you need to go the most"
Nodding I scribbled a note so no one would worry
Went portal hopping, I'll be back as soon as I can

I made sure ot leave the door unlocked.. in case someone would be looking for me.. Which I doubted highly

I stepped into the milky whiteness and all of a sudden it felt like I was on a water slide.. I was going down.. down down.. the next thing I knew I was looking at the outside of the temple before I blacked out

Chow for the moment..

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Stuck in a conundrum

Well after my visit with the publisher this morning I have super fablous news.. Cycle of Time is the most anticipated book for the Christmas season . Reclamation has hit the top 10 Coruscant list! Whoohoo! After I cahsed the check from the newest bunch of sales made from the first book
I headed downtown for shopping. I had nothing to wear for the Christmas party and I was in desprete need of a dress and yes.. more shoes.. Believe it or not.. I have quite the extensive shoe colection.

I took my speeder into the downtown shopping district dressed in my civvie clothes thankyou muchly.. . I doubtd even Anakin could've found me if he tried for a week I blended in that well . So here I was wandering through the shpping district looking for a dress when I stopped dead at the GryphorMoon shop. Holy Sith! The dress that was in the window.. It was beautiful! I headed inside and about 10 minutes later I exited with a box under one arm .. The dress was a perfect fit. Now for my accessories.. Namely shoes..

Soemthing like maybe four hours later and much hunting( hey I'm picky) I loaded up my speeder and headed back to the temple.. I made sure to pull the speeder right up underneath my window and dump everythign through there.. I didn't want Anakin or anyone asking how I had gotten the money for this expidition. Once I got back to my room I laid the dress out on the bed and smothered out any wrinkles. Lisette purred her approval and proceded to mark the dress as " her's"
I was about halfway into a laughing fit when my holomail went off. It was from the pulbisher saying they had scheduled an appearence for me a week from today.. I checked the calander SITH ! that was the night of the party! I emailed Dortherita back saying it couldn't be that night because I had a party to attend and it was unavoidable , I had to be there. Up til this point I have only done holoraido interviews and even then my voice was changed..Because I know for a fact Mace listens to the holo raido like a religion . I wanted to avoid any " parties " like the plague because once word got out I was a jedi knight.. my carrer as a writer would be tanked for sure. That was problem A. Problem B was that once it got out at the temple.. I would either have a train of fanboys following me everywhere, or worse.. I could be forbidden to continue my wirting.

I know and full well realize that keeping things hidden to oneself emotions speaking can lead to the darkside,but I found an outlet to let that go and actually confess it, through my charcters. it might seem childish and or foolish, but it works for me and that's the only thing I careabout. And besides , it's fun. Like when I am passing someone on a street corner and they are talking about one of the books. That's what I live for.. , that's my true reward to make people happy with my writing.. If I stopped having fun writing, I would stop writing alltogether... Close off the series and be done with it..

Though, even writing helps me let some things go, there are some times when it can make them worse.. I will not lie in that aspect. Some nights I cry myself to sleep because it pains me so much. As much as I give myself to the stories, they give back to me, wether it be in comfort , happiness , or pain; I can't say. it comes with the territory.

Well anyway I kind of got way off subject there, back to the shopping expidition.

I slipped the dress on and laced up the back before fiddling wiht my hair just a little til I found the perfect style for it, a slight french twist leaving some ogf my hair hanging at the back of my neck like a fan almost.. Next came the shoes which were all black with silver ribbinns threaded through them. Finally I slipped on the bracelet and looked at myself in the mirior. I didn't recgonize who that woman was that was standing there. It couldn't have been me.. this woman looked, dare I say it pretty? And that term I use loosely. She.. I mean I looked like a cross between a royal lady and a night creature.. The line between extreamly grey and blurry.

I made some notes as to what makeup I should use and then took everything back off and changed into my black pants and tanktop I needed to go to the training room to pratice , no saber or whip this time, the old fashioned weapons.

I was running through my bo staff kata, Shokon Nidan whenever Anakin made the mistake of comming up behind me and I accidently twacked him in the head.. " Oh Anakin I'm sorry!" I said running over to check on him. After him assuring me he was okay , I set my bo down and asked" Okay I know you wouldn't come down here without a sparring partner without a reason.. So spill what's up?"

" well.. " he looked around to make sure no one was listening and then asked me" You know I 've been kinda reading the Neatherrealm series and I was wondering if you knew when the next book was comming out?"

Folks let me tell you I nearly died of a heartattack right then and there.

Anakin actually read the book? Anakin reading period? Pinch me someone I'm dreaming.. but anywho

" Should be out in another week or so I heard the author met with the publisher a few days ago" okay so I was lying my face off here, it was to protect my own reputation what can I say?
He smiled " Good.. I wanted to get the next one the day it comes out and I was thinking of maybe getting Obi Wan the first one.. He seems to have read through the enitre library in his quaters.. Most of those books are falling apart he's read them so much. "

My eyes were as big as saucers and Catia snickered " Well seems like Anakin has you caught between a rock .. and a Jedi?" She's lucky she's already dead.. I could hear her laughter echoing in my head..

" um , yah sure, try the local B&N I hear they are having a midnight premire.. " I said while trying to regain some sense of bearing.. Thankfully, I NEVER went to midnight premires..general rule type deal.. good lord help me if those two become fans of the series.. This was not the kind of afternoon I was envisioning, not at all. Anakin left a minute or two later and I picked up my kamas spining them in my hands and went into one of the lower belt katas.

How is it my seemingly perfect afternoon comes down around my ears?

Oh before I forget, the above pictures are of the dress, and bracelet as well as my hair comb..
I think I need an asprin, extra strength

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

An afternoon demonstration and preparations for Christmas..

It started snowing after lunch , which is a rare occurnce in itself here on Coruscant. So after a com message from Master Draling, I headed out into the snow covered yard for today's lesson. Yusuke waited for me as did Hiei and Kurama. I looked to Master Draling as he began to speak to the class.

" Today's lesson will be about combat in the elements. Many of you will be sent to inhospitable planets and might be forced to resort to battle to get yourselves out of any number of situations . Against any number of opponents. Now Knight Deimos and her freinds have kindly agreed to help me in my demonstration. She will have her lightsaber, vibroblade, and her lightsaber whip to defend against three opponents. It is higly doubtful you will be so fortuante, but after all this is only a demonstration."

Turning to us he said " I ask you keep in mind this fight is not for real, and exibit some control.You may begin"

No sooner than the words had left his lips, we were all four in motion.Hiei had drawn his katana and was attacking from one side, Yusuke had powered up the spirit punch, and Kurama had his rosewhip out. I took out Yusuke first with a kick to the gut as I raised my own whip to rip through Kurama's. then finally with my other hand I reached for my lightsaber and brought it up, tangeling with Hiei's attack, Sword of the darkness flame.

Kurama stepped back from the fight for a moment, his eyes were flickering.. Oh force if that meant what I thought it did.. I saw Yusuke comming back for me and I ducked and twisted his arm around and pushed him away before turning to face Hiei.he had ripped off his bandana that covered the Jagan eye and I could see.. he was starting to change.
I backed up.. only to have a pair of strong arms wrap around my middle and lift me off the ground.. " Yoko let me down!" I yelled, seeing that indeed , it was Yoko now.. Not Suichi.. " Sith.. "
Muttering under my breath I began to form a quick plan of escape.. If Anakin saw this humilating turn of events.. good giref he'd never let me live it down.. Smiling Ireached up and rubbed the tip of Yoko's ear.. As I expected, he purred and his eyes fell shut before his arms slackened and I kicked him in the chest sending him flying across the lawn.
I brought my saber up to face a fully transformed Hiei. Out of the corner of my one eye I could see Yusuke getting up . his hair was getting longer and tatoos were comming over his face.. Uh oh.. his first form as a battle demon.. I hoped Master Draling would call it here soon because if Yusuke got really mad, there could be some serious collaterial damage.

The next thing I knew I had made a serious mistake.. I had taken my eyes off of Hiei. I was flying through the air and hit the snow with a rather loud thud and there was a small crater sized hole where I had landed .I got up , though a tad stiffly . I climbed out of the hole and in a double attack, I snagged Hiei with the first of the whip tendrils and grabbed Yusuke with the other. I gave a hard yank and both landed on their backsides in the snow.
" Enough!" Master Draling boomed. I stopped and after returning my weapons to their proper places I bowed respectfully motioning for those of them who could still walk to do the same.

" That was quite the demonstration Phobia.. You may go.. Will your freinds be around? I would like to have them demonstrate for some of my more advanced classes, and possibly for the Christmas party.. that was quite the show."
As Hiei walked past he turned to Master Draling and said" hn, that was no show.. anyone else would've been beaten soundly. "

I wanted to smack him so badly for his lack of manners, but .. that was Hiei.. I could hear Yusuke's com going off . " Excuse me Master.. I do not know if that will be possible.. They might be departing . Koenma needs them back there soon"
He nodded understandlingly and turned to address his class as I listened to the todler whining and screaming about something..

After calling Yusuke an incompitent and dundering fool, I snapped and grabbed the com off of him . For the next three minutes I proceeded ot tell that brat what excactly I thought of him in huttenese, using quite a few choice words that would've gotten me into trouble with the council and made Yusuke sit back on his heels laughing his rear end off. . I snorted and finished with" And if you EVER come up with any of that crap again, I WILL come to the Rekai and knock your sorry pathetic babfied rear end from this dimenshion to several others, Makai NOT included!" I threw the com up in the air and sliced in half with my saber. " Shut off the other one Kurama.. the baby can stew in his own bed for a while as far as I care"

Hiei out and out laughed at that and Kurama smirked . I turned and headed back indoors out of the freezing cold that was starting to take a toll on my body. The second I was back in the temple I hunted down a cup of coffee with plenty of sugar and creamer.. Anakin can't figure out how I can drink the stuff, but I love it for some odd reason.
I was soundly bundled up in my robe by Kurama who when I asked why he was being so nice all of a sudden said" anyonewho can make Koenma shut up in the middle of a tirade by calling him no less than 26 diffrent names in huttenese, and some demonic.. deserves to carted to somewhat. "

Had I used some demonic? I had lost track .. I don't get that mad often.. When I do I tend to use demonic.. It's a cross of old Galeic and Drow, the language of the dark elves.. Sighing I took my coffee and headed to thearchives to see if the book I was after was back in.. Yess! The Statship flight chronicles were in! I checked out the whole set and headed back to my room and set them on my desk before I pulled out a datapad I had specifically labeled.

You see.. At one point I had written a book called " Reclmation" it was a fairytale about a princess with a lost kingdom and her fight to reclaim it and the losses she suffers .. It never really sold big but it was enough to give me some substantial pocket change, enough to redo my room and keep Lisette fed and give her toys etc..
It's fun really and now I was currently working on the second one of the series.. "Cycle of Time."
I have to admit I wonder if anyone in the temple reads these..

The younglings aren't allowed to read them for many reasons which I won't go into to not spoil the plotline.needless to say only older padawans and the knights and or masters were allowed in the section my book was in.. Let me say for lack of any social experience I make up for in imagnation.. I have not told a soul I write, not even Anakin.. The monogram I use is P.A .D which meant ;Phobia Auruora Deimos Heck I 'm willing to bet half the world thinks it's Senetor Amidala.... Which I find funny really.
I have a sneaking suspicion Yoda might have an idea though .. He seems to be giving me more and more time off lately and alos encourages me to write.. I swear if he does know and tells ANYONE I will die..

I read through the last scene I had written , and then got up and turned on my saber. The best way to know if you are writing a good fight scene is if you act it out yourself. I made a couple of passes and then sat down and turned off my saber reaching for my data pad. I continued my writing. So far I had written about 290 pages. That was maybe about half of the new book. Something like an hour later I set down the pad, having written about 100 or so more pages. I write fast what can I say?

I got up and after feeding Lisette I headed out the door to the dining hall for some much needed food. I happen to glance at a calander on the way down.. The temple christmas party was less than a week or so away.. I needed a new dress! Which meant heading into the Coruscant shopping district to find one, but even before that I had to finish the book and drop the manuscript at the publisher's place..

Right after dinner I was back at work, writing feversihly into the night. I couldn't stop writing once I sat down.. When I finally ended the book. It was 5 am.. The publisher opened at 8 .. I think I pretty darn near fell onto the bed and was out cold.. I could worry about the manuscript later.. I probably wouldn't have heard my com if it would have went off..

Sunday, December 03, 2006

Good Karma.. I love it..

So the next afternoon after my knighting and where do I find myself? Down in the tech area tinkering with god knew only what.. I tend to do this from time to time. I end up creating something highly irregular without even thinking about it. usually it's soemthing like a new driod for the younglings or whatever. but today, it was something new, exciting, diffrent..I could pratically feel the energy crackling through my fingers as I worked..

I don't know if I am the only one who feels this way when I work with tools. Maybe Anakin does too, I have never asked to be honest. When I work my focus narrows to what I am working on nothing more. So it's no suprise one of the younglings had managed to sneak into the tech lab and when I looked up , she was sitting on a stool watching me work.

I blinked once, then twice.. The girl was pratically a spitting image of me when I was small . I set down the hilt of .. something. I could tell it was no ordinary lightsaber. I went over and knelt down by the stool " What's your name sweetie?" I asked her.. She didn't have a padawan braid, so my guess was she wasn't more than 5 or so.. " I'm Mara.. Whats you dowin?" she asked pointing to the hilt I had left sitting on the table. I tilted my head to one side to look at her then replied" Really .. I don't know.. I build things like this here.. I don't know what this is going to become yet"

She crawled down off of the stool and went to the table and picked up the hilt before I could stop her. I was about to yank it out of her hand with the force whenever she said " It's gonnwa be a whip" My jaw dropped and I was about to say something whenever Master Draling came into the lab and shook his head seeing Mara" There you are!' he exclaimed scooping Mara up . " You've worried Master Caspian sick! You know not to wander off "

Once they had left I went back to my work. About maybe an hour later it was finished. Just like Mara said it was a whip . A lightsaber whip.. Huh who'da thought humm? I did some cleaning up and then headed to the training room. Thankfully no one was around . Once the whip was activated,I had to admit it was a thing of beauty. It didn't have just one tendril, it had 3. 2 blue and one green. It pratically hummed in my hands. I made a few expermintal passes with it and found out it fit me perfectly.

I was so absorbed with what I was doing I didn't hear the training door open. I turned just as Yusuke came in , a training saber in his hands. Without speaking we were moving in a mock battle. The snap and hiss ofthe tendrils of the whip longside the green saber blade was all I heard as we moved about the training room. The grin on Yusuke's face told me we were being watched. I didn't care much . We kept moving seemlessly, each of us reading the other's moves. Seemless.. We were moving positively seemlessly all over the training room. I guess you could call it battle poetry.

I didn't even need my saber whenever I disarmed Yusuke with a flick of my wrist and had the training saber at his throat and kicked his feet from under him. He nodded in surrender and grinned up at me with a laugh" you're stronger than I remember sis" he said as I helped him to his feet . " By the way.. congratulations on your knighthood. We wanted to be there, but Obi Wan was insistent we wern't present. He wanted it to be a suprise. "
I had to say I was plesently suprised.

I turned to find out we were surrounded by a crowd of younglings and the temple swordmaster Cin Draling. He was beaming from ear to ear . He pulled Yusuke and I aside and asked us if we could do a demonstration later that afternon for his sparring class. I agreed immeditly giving Yusuke a look that spelled death with sharp pointy fangs if he didn't agree.

He did and at the moment I am walking on clouds. It is an honor to be asked to put on a demonstration for Master Draling and I told Yusuke as such. He said he was going to go talk to Hiei and see if he will sit in on the class as well. This should prove to be an intresting afternoon. I can see it a 4 way fight between us.. Something the temple will never forget . I just have to remind them that no spirit energy allowed unless it is to form weapons.

I'm pratically bouncing on my heels as I am going to get prepared for this afternoon then lunch. I can't believe it.. First I get knighted then this??? So far I am on a up spiral , and I want to keep it that way.

Oh I found a note under my door and a flyer thing for a photoshoot.. I will take a better look at that later.