(Ctd from last post. Sorry for the lack of updates, school is hetic)
" I don't know for certain. But the only person we could ask is Lady Death herself. And I prefer if you didn't get that close. Once one passes through the gate they can never return" he mumbled lowly, dropping onto the couch next to me.
I nodded" but still, even though I might hate her and wish her dead. I have to try and save her. It is my duty as a Jedi. We forgive. Even if the person or thing has caused us multitiudes of pain and suffering, somehow I must find it in my heart to forgive her.She was only using what she knows to survive. She has only been taught hate and loathing. She was jealous of the good fortune the force gifted me with.She sought to take it for her own"
He stared at me like I was out of my mind" Pho have you lost it? Look at what she's put you through! Years of agony! She almost pushed you to the brink of insanity! She would've wrecked your reputation in the order not to mention possibly Obi Wan and several others!"
I smiled calmly" It was because of my resistance to her attempts I found you"
He stopped, stuttering for a moment " Well yeah, there's that.. But but.. what about the time she tried to kill you? And the twins?"
" She made our trust stronger than ever. I know that if anything happens to me you would move heaven and hell to save me and I would do the same, pregnant, sick or not"
He stopped thinking " What about her causing you to withdraw into yourself? So that you pratically speak to no one? And this running around after her and Marasha? Don't tell me you have a reason for that too?"
I nodded" I do . Withdrawing into myself gives me time to watch and observe without effecting the ripple. I interact when I must. I do not disturb the ripple with inaction nor action. Marasha was a lost soul who called for my aid. When someone asks for me I cannot deny them help.Even if they do not vocalize it. Take Vader for example.by simply being in that suit of his he hides from the world. He hides from the many many mistakes he made and feels he cannot attone for. One day he will realize this and ask for help. I can only hope DJK can find it in her heart to help him banadge his spirit"
He sighed and wrapped his arm around my shoulders, batting away a strand of hair. " Phobia.. darling.. If more people in the galaxy were like you the world would be a much better place and there would be no war. "
I let my head rest on his shoulder. Perhaps, and perhaps not. The world would never know.
Just then the com rang. I answered it my voice a bit hoarse. " yes?"
I was told we were needed back at the Jedi temple immeditly. The council had called in reinforcements to help track her down. Apparently someone had mentioned to them I had been looking ill and needed rest. Damnit if it was anyone I know...
I told them we would be there by late tomorrow afternoon. I explained it all to Godfrey. So looks like our vacation would be cut short. No matter. If this was where I was supposed to be, out trying to save her , I would do so.Rest wasn't all that important, just so long as I did sleep when I absouletly needed to I'd be fine. I'd functioned some 5 odd months this way. a few more wouldn't hurt. I just had to be careful.
That night as I slipped into bed I gazed up at the stars and the small blinking planets in the distance. Perhaps we'd go to Geonosis and Naboo yet. I didn't know. All we could do was take one day at a time