Through the Looking Glass, A knight's story

A music viedo

2008-03-28T13:08:00.003-04:00

Note from the author

2007-12-28T03:41:00.000-05:00

Hey, The author here... Listen , no I am not abandoning any of my blogs... School has been a nightmare and I have been very busy. Phobia has been very patient for me to continue her story, but some more of Catia's story must come first before her's can continue. there is a reason for this I can assure you I ust beg you all to bear with me and be patient. Between school and all I will ty to at least eek out one post before the end of winter break which is the 4th for me.. then until school ends sometime in june I wil post when I can but I cannot see that being too often.. jsut to let you all know what has been going on... and for those of you who read I love you all and those of you who don't , well go back to 05 and start reading... you need to..

*HUGS TO ALL*

Pho's author

WHATTT???????

2007-11-16T16:08:00.000-05:00

I finally arrived at the temple, black robe hiding my face, eyes peering out at the world before me. I went to the garden and sat, trying to meditate. I looked up as I heard footsteps draw nearer. It was Peter
He whispered my name and that did it.. my resolve cracked that I wasn't going to cry.

I jumped looking at him" Pete.. I .. I just found out.. I'm so sorry..I came to tell you straight away" I held my breath, scared to death

"Cat, you have to tell me what's wrong... I can't help if I don't know what the problem is" You have no idea I thought, feeling green allready and my stomach was wrapping itself in knots.

My hands shook as I cupped his face, finding his eyes" Peter..I'm .. I'm pregnant" I whispered eyes wide with fear

I broke down crying in his arms" Oh god Pete I'm so scared! I don't know what to do!" and I didn't. I was the most hunted woman in the galaxy right now. I shook hard" You, you're not angry?" I asked in a tiny voice.I had never cried, not since.. well. him
I nodded listening to him, being comforted by him " I believe you" I kissed him softly, only finding peace in his arms." We need to leave Coruscant, and quickly, but I'm not sure where to go. The Avengers will kill me if they find out, so will the Jedi council. They will believe our child will be the next sith lord or lady, depending on if it's a boy or girl"

When he asked me where would we could go my mind started to work thhough it was like a turning of wheels in an empty shoebox.

My voice was cracking, I was loosing it" We could go to Ryloth, Tatooine, Danthomir, Endor, Corellia..We'd have to be on the run always. They always find me" I whispered eyes full of fear

"They won't stop until I am dead, they will hunt me forever" I whispered" There is always changing sides..." I whispered mind frantic
He pulled me up and led me back to the quarters the temple had given him. I was starting to shake I was so cold I never felt the cold or the heat, ever.

I could only nod, feeling slightly calmed" Ok" I wrapped his coat tight around me, shivering

" Things will all work out" he whispered " I promise"
What had I done to deserve someone as caring as he was?

I nodded" I believe you.. Your the only thing I believe in right now"
"No one will harm you, or," he rested his hand on my stomach " our child" man that had a nice ring to it, maybe after 6,000 years I was ready to be a mom?Well ready or not in 9 months I was going to be one.

I smiled, truly smiled" I don't know if it's just one Pete" I said giggling
He grinned mischievoulsy.. God If I had any doubt I was in love with him then it went out the window, I love that smile. "We'll be certain to have our hands full, then, won't we?,Not that we don't allready"

I grinned" got that right" When we got to his room I sat down feeling a bit dizzy. My head snapped up when there was a knock on the door
He said he would get it and the second he was out of the room I hid myself under the bed shaking like a dog in a thunderstorm none the less.

I heard whipsered voices and I could hear the woman, that twit who I tried to kil comming closer, why didn't I finish her off when I had the chance? She'd be my death. Just like Bane had been....Who was still out there, I had to stop him before it had become aparent what I had done.
"Hiya, Spidey... I haven't seen you without your mask before," she giggled. "Uhh, hi... Listen, right now's not a good time for an Avenger's meeting, can we talk tomorrow?"

" Dr Strange was insistant you come now. Catia is in the temple, it seems Dr Strange has this crazy idea she's after you" she snickered" Crazy old crackpot"
I heard every word , letting out a tiny whimper shaking covering my head

" What was that?" she asked hearing the small whimper in his room.
My hand snaped for my saber. I would kill her to defend my child
She nodded" ok, I'll tell him, just be careful Spidey" she walked away
I was shaking as I crawled out, saber handle in a deathgrip" I always hid under the bed as a padawan"

I grinned" yah.." I leaned my head on his shoulder, sniffling softly. I was petrified
I nodded. Suddenly I felt sick. Running to the bathroom my lunch and breakfast came back up on me my whole body shaking
I looked up at him wiping the back of my mouth" Thank you.. thank you for everything... " I threw my arms around him huggung him tightly

I couldn't help but cry, falling into his arms" ergh I feel so bloated in this outfit" I muttered waving a hand at my body. I did and I saw the room spin before my eyes
I rose, just stripping off my outfit as I went, pratically falling onto his bed" Got a spare shirt I could borrow? " I asmed, underneath I only had on just some skimpy underwear

I moaned in protest at having to get up but I did and rummaged through the dresser On finding one I muttered" Yano what would be good? Chicken Alfredo with Escargot and chocolate" I mutered absently

I smiled" mmh thanks" I snuggled into the covers, beckoning him to join me. I was so tird right now.. so sleepy.. and these sheets were so comfy....

I nodded, eyes sleepy" Yeah, your going to be a daddy pete. " I kissed him softly, one hand cupping his cheek
My eyes were closing fast, but I wanted to share this with him, this perfect moment

" We will find peace Pete... We can go back to your world... I know you have a city to protect..I could hide there...mmh send Goblin after the Avengers.."
My arms wraped around him holding him close against me. I could live as a normal woman.. all I needed was him..
TBC

Relief?

2007-10-20T20:49:00.000-04:00

It took an age it felt like to get back to the temple. I was greeted by Belda who was almost etatic to see us.

" Master you're home!" she cried, beaming from ear to ear. I scooped her up into a big hug tiwrling her around the hall. My back objected but I didn't care I was glad to be home . Godfrey had my bag so I didn't have as much to carry. I was getting so big it was a chore just to go to my morning classes.

" I'm really hoping you get to stay here for a while now master. I missed you"

I smiled huging her again" And I missed you too Belda. I should be able to stay for quite a while, but I have a meeting. And I think you ought to come along.There are some visitors here who might be able to help us catch Catia. I expect you to be on your best behaviour. Ok?"
Sh nodded and together the three of us made our way to the council room. I knocked and we were admitted by Master Windu.

" Phobia these are the new Avengers. Spider Man, Ronin, Ironfist, Wolveriene, Spider Woman and Dr Strange.."

The man called Dr Strange came forward and I bowed. " I am Jedi Master Phobia Auora Deimos. This is Jedi Master Godfrey Zebulon and to my right is my apprentice Belda Pinik." Belda bowed to Dr strange. I smiled. She was learning fast.

" What can you tell us about the sith Emperess? The more we know the closer we can come to catching her"

I sat down on one of the benches, smoothing out my robes. Belda sat on one side and Godfrey on another. Calmly I began to speak of the past 12 years in detail. What she had done, of her power and knoweledge, all of it

Every kill she had made using me as a vessel, I recited names, dates and places.I could see some of the Avengers were unnerved by my calmness of the whole affiar Espically Spider Woman .
When I finished I felt as though a great weight had been lifted from my chest.I would have leaned on Godfrey's shoulder but we were in public, so I just leaned my back against the wall.

" You're sick" Spider Woman muttered
My eyebrow rose" excuse me?"
" You're sick How can you sit and talk of death like you're discussing tomororw's stock prices? It's psychotic!"

Master Windu jumped to his feet but I shook my head " Tell m somthing Spider woman. How many buildings have been destroyed becuase of a villan you failed to stop?
She stared at me blankly.

" My point excactly. Death is commonplace for me as destruction of cities is cmmonplace for you. I do not question you so please do not question me." I could see Spider Man looking at me , eyes meeting, knowng mine.

Dr Strange bowed to me" You truly posess the wisdom of ages. But for now I think you ought to rest. Perhaps your apprentice can asist us in finding our way around the temple"
Belda nodded and we were excused by the council As soon as all of us were outside I leaned heavily on Godfrey's shoulder. He wrapped an arm around me, a light smile on his face. Footsteps behind us caused us to jump apat. It was Dr Strange.

" I .. uh.. I ws just tired.." I said trying to make up an excuse.
Dr Strange smiled " It's allright, the Jedi Council wil not hear a word from me .But you should truly rest, your little ones are tired as well"

I looked at him for a long moment, before I nodded" Thank you"

Spider Man smiled behind his mask I could tell " Leave the grunt work to us, you've done too much as it is"

My eyes drifted closed, and when I woke again I was tucked in bed, out in the living room I could hear the dull thud of computer keys as Godfrey worked on another Senate report. He had dressed me for bed in my favroite pair of pj's. I couldnt stay awake for long , so I snuggled down into the warm blankets and in a few minutes I was asleep again..

TBC( I promise!!)

Black Heart's twilight

2007-10-20T03:23:00.000-04:00

Mustafar, 2 days later

I had made my escape from Coruscant , but I knew I would go back. For many reasons .

Firstly I wasn't going to allow the Avengers to thwart my plans. Second there was something I needed there.

And third, this was the most ludicrous of all.

I found myself obsessed with Spider Man.

I don't know why this was but every moment I was thinking of him. Even as I dialed in some numbers of freinds who owed me favors. They wanted to send the Avengers after me ? Fine! I would bring those of equal power against them. I dusted my hands and began the transfusion. Slumping against the wall my newest project rose from his place on the table" I brought you back out of my good graces. you will obey every command I give you. If you do not I will not hesitate to strike you down where you stand. " I snarled comming closer to the 7 foot tall man.

" Yes Master. What would you have me do for now?"

I glanced halfheartedly at his current state" For now get dressed. though it's not like I haven't seen it before"

As I left Bane to his devices I walked into the holo projection room to speak with my " asscoiates" I might be crazy but not crazy enough to try and take on the whole Avengers squad by myself. I needed help. And I knew who to call.

" It is good to see you again" I said softly" I call on you now to cash in my one favor with each of you. Help me destroy the Avengers and you will have what you desire. Taskmaster. Fame beyond your wildest imagining. Each of you a planet of your own to rule..they are here on Coruscant after me. I need your help"

I cringed just saying it. I hated asking for help.

" What do we have to do?" Moonstone asked , clearly skeptical.

" Just come here to Coruscant. I will provide transport. Then follow my lead, but do what you do best. in short. Arrive, Raise Hell .Leave"

Deathstrike smiled" And you say I will get my hands on Wolveriene?"

" All that my dear and more."

" that's all we have to do?" Diamondback questioned.

" that is all. And I will provide it all, including gold and a safe place to hide." I stepped aside to show them the mountain of Telosnosian gold behind me" All of this I have much more.. One roomful of gold to each of you. "

They all nodded and the holos blinked out. I grinned rubbbing my hands together. Good.. The wheels were begining to turn at long last.

Bane came back out now dressed again. I smacked his old lightsaber into his hands" Make sure everything is prepared. We're having company. "

I stalked over to the end table and picked up a black glass looking ball and it's twin, , pure white. I placed each onto it's respective box. I did not dare clash the orbs together without Dr Strange being present. I could rip the galaxy to pieces.I locked both boxes the keys dangeling down into my suit. If anyone dared get that close to me they would be dead.

With the arrival of my new" apprentices" the end was comming for the Avengers. This thought made me giddy as a drunk.

But why then did my stomach clench in knots and my vision want to blink out at the thought of any harm comming to Spider Man? What the hell was wrong with me?

" Damnit! I don't need these kind of distractions!" A glass vase late 6th centuary hit the wall smashing into a million pieces So ? there was more than that one came from. I needed a nap but in this heat that was as likely as it starting to snow.

Sure enough I look out the window and Mustafar has iced over. The volcanic planet is one of a frozen wasteland.. And .. it was snowing WHAT IN ALL THE SEVEN MONKS?

Bane returned and knelt before me" Master they have arrived"

Finally something going right.

I petted the parts stacked carefully in the corner. I was only missing two more things until the cannon was complete. I had the main pieces and the couplers now. one the charging generator for the startup boost and the second was the power crystal. Without it the cannon would not operate. A cursed gem, now residing on a planet called Earth. It had changed many hands ofver the millenia.

The Hope Diamond.

Black heart's dawning

2007-10-20T03:14:00.000-04:00

So I figured, they'd send a strike team after me. Is the best they can do? pfftt I've decimiated entire armies with out breaking a sweat and they send a strike team? What am I a child?

Anyway I guess I should go back a bit. After I had made my escape from the eyes of the temple I knew I had to lay low on the lower levels for a while. It was too dangerous to try and leave the planet with their forces out looking for me. So I rented a room at one of the more shabby hotels and kicked back , one foot lying on the bed, counting the cracks in the ceiling.

The Black Hawk had been seized instantly by the Jedi, so my old baby was going to have to bite the dust taking a few with her. The remote in my pocket ensured that she would reveal none of my secrets. The screams of the dying were music to my ears. It was then I decided I would make my way to the Orange district and wait there til nightfall then steal a transport and slip away.

But I didn't count on him.

Apparently I had gotten too careless. He sniffed me out like the dog he was. though he wouldn't have remembered me. He was just a boy back then. Right after he had been gifted with his adamantium skelton. Wolverine.

" The Jedi Council wants ta see you lady. Yer commin with me" He said stepping into my room, blocking off my only means of escape. Well time to play the charm card.

" I would gladly go with you but I'm afraid we haven't been properly introduced. I'm Catia.. but some others call me Kit.. a select few.. And you're the great Wolveriene right? Part of the X men?" Hey I do my research.

" Part of the New Avengers now. But it doesn't make a diffrence yer still commin with me!" He snarled stepping closer to me, claws comming out.

I smiled" I'll go quietly.. but first.. a beer? I have Canadian.. Rare import these days"

He nodded" Yah thanks.. chasing after you is thirsty work"

I sauntered over to the fridge. I knew he was watching my hips moving against the leather. " I'm sure it is " I mumured popping the top on the beer can. An old slight of hand trick sent a sleeping pill strong enough to take out a heard of thirty bantha into his drink and I handed it to him taking a beer for myself. I never really drink the stuff but this time I needed to play the part.

" To a good hunt, and an even more successful capture" I said raising the can in my hands.

He nodded and chugged the thing down without even a thought. Odorless , colorless , and tasteless. The only way verilium would be dectected is by a talented force user.To my known knoweledge only Mace , Yoda, anakin and Obi Wan could pick it up. Possibly Godfrey and Pho too, but other than that no..

" So tell me.. which bike do you prefer.. A chopper or a Harley?"

He raised his hand " Harrleeyy" he slurred before he slumped to the ground.

I got up quickly and knelt over his head extracting information from his mind. I found out about the Avengers . Dr Strange, Spider Woman,Iron Fist,Spider Man and Ronin. My greatest possible threat would be Doctor Strange. His powers nearly rival mine. And I could not afford to throw it all on the line again. The others would not be a problem.

Rising I raced from the room. I needed to put as much distance between Wolverine and myself as possible before he woke. I doubled back and put my scent everywhere. One of the upper level hotels near the 500 Repbulica. I needed a change.. and a plan.. I knew where I could get the materials I needed to defeat Doctor Strange. and I would need to return to the kilms on Mustafar.

I needed my old apprentice back. Together with the power orbs of creation Doctor Strange would be neautralizied . Iron Fist and the others were no problem. Merely child's play. I had to be careful that Iron fist didn't stick with Godfrey, then I might actually have some trouble.

I saw their diffrences, their weaknesses.. So why was it as I sank lower into the rose and hycanith scented bubble bath that my thoughts were on Spider Man?

TBC

Stepping back through the ages part 2

2007-09-18T04:13:00.000-04:00

(Ctd from last post. Sorry for the lack of updates, school is hetic)

" I don't know for certain. But the only person we could ask is Lady Death herself. And I prefer if you didn't get that close. Once one passes through the gate they can never return" he mumbled lowly, dropping onto the couch next to me.

I nodded" but still, even though I might hate her and wish her dead. I have to try and save her. It is my duty as a Jedi. We forgive. Even if the person or thing has caused us multitiudes of pain and suffering, somehow I must find it in my heart to forgive her.She was only using what she knows to survive. She has only been taught hate and loathing. She was jealous of the good fortune the force gifted me with.She sought to take it for her own"

He stared at me like I was out of my mind" Pho have you lost it? Look at what she's put you through! Years of agony! She almost pushed you to the brink of insanity! She would've wrecked your reputation in the order not to mention possibly Obi Wan and several others!"
I smiled calmly" It was because of my resistance to her attempts I found you"
He stopped, stuttering for a moment " Well yeah, there's that.. But but.. what about the time she tried to kill you? And the twins?"

" She made our trust stronger than ever. I know that if anything happens to me you would move heaven and hell to save me and I would do the same, pregnant, sick or not"
He stopped thinking " What about her causing you to withdraw into yourself? So that you pratically speak to no one? And this running around after her and Marasha? Don't tell me you have a reason for that too?"

I nodded" I do . Withdrawing into myself gives me time to watch and observe without effecting the ripple. I interact when I must. I do not disturb the ripple with inaction nor action. Marasha was a lost soul who called for my aid. When someone asks for me I cannot deny them help.Even if they do not vocalize it. Take Vader for example.by simply being in that suit of his he hides from the world. He hides from the many many mistakes he made and feels he cannot attone for. One day he will realize this and ask for help. I can only hope DJK can find it in her heart to help him banadge his spirit"

He sighed and wrapped his arm around my shoulders, batting away a strand of hair. " Phobia.. darling.. If more people in the galaxy were like you the world would be a much better place and there would be no war. "

I let my head rest on his shoulder. Perhaps, and perhaps not. The world would never know.
Just then the com rang. I answered it my voice a bit hoarse. " yes?"

I was told we were needed back at the Jedi temple immeditly. The council had called in reinforcements to help track her down. Apparently someone had mentioned to them I had been looking ill and needed rest. Damnit if it was anyone I know...

I told them we would be there by late tomorrow afternoon. I explained it all to Godfrey. So looks like our vacation would be cut short. No matter. If this was where I was supposed to be, out trying to save her , I would do so.Rest wasn't all that important, just so long as I did sleep when I absouletly needed to I'd be fine. I'd functioned some 5 odd months this way. a few more wouldn't hurt. I just had to be careful.

That night as I slipped into bed I gazed up at the stars and the small blinking planets in the distance. Perhaps we'd go to Geonosis and Naboo yet. I didn't know. All we could do was take one day at a time
TBC
Pho

The gears begin to turn

2007-09-09T21:21:00.000-04:00

So I figured, they'd send a strike team after me. Is the best they can do? pfftt I've decimiated entire armies with out breaking a sweat and they send a strike team? What am I a child?

Anyway I guess I should go back a bit. After I had made my escape from the eyes of the temple I knew I had to lay low on the lower levels for a while. It was too dangerous to try and leave the planet with their forces out looking for me. So I rented a room at one of the more shabby hotels and kicked back , one foot lying on the bed, counting the cracks in the ceiling.

The Black Hawk had been seized instantly by the Jedi, so my old baby was going to have to bite the dust taking a few with her. The remote in my pocket ensured that she would reveal none of my secrets. The screams of the dying were music to my ears. It was then I decided I would make my way to the Orange district and wait there til nightfall then steal a transport and slip away.

But I didn't count on him.

Apparently I had gotten too careless. He sniffed me out like the dog he was. though he wouldn't have remembered me. He was just a boy back then. Right after he had been gifted with his adamantium skelton. Wolverine.

" The Jedi Council wants ta see you lady. Yer commin with me" He said stepping into my room, blocking off my only means of escape. Well time to play the charm card.

" I would gladly go with you but I'm afraid we haven't been properly introduced. I'm Catia.. but some others call me Kit.. a select few.. And you're the great Wolveriene right? Part of the X men?" Hey I do my research.

" Part of the New Avengers now. But it doesn't make a diffrence yer still commin with me!" He snarled stepping closer to me, claws comming out.

I smiled" I'll go quietly.. but first.. a beer? I have Canadian.. Rare import these days"

He nodded" Yah thanks.. chasing after you is thirsty work"

I sauntered over to the fridge. I knew he was watching my hips moving against the leather. " I'm sure it is " I mumured popping the top on the beer can. An old slight of hand trick sent a sleeping pill strong enough to take out a heard of thirty bantha into his drink and I handed it to him taking a beer for myself. I never really drink the stuff but this time I needed to play the part.

" To a good hunt, and an even more successful capture" I said raising the can in my hands.

He nodded and chugged the thing down without even a thought. Odorless , colorless , and tasteless. The only way verilium would be dectected is by a talented force user.To my known knoweledge only Mace , Yoda, anakin and Obi Wan could pick it up. Possibly Godfrey and Pho too, but other than that no..

" So tell me.. which bike do you prefer.. A chopper or a Harley?"

He raised his hand " Harrleeyy" he slurred before he slumped to the ground.

I got up quickly and knelt over his head extracting information from his mind. I found out about the Avengers . Dr Strange, Spider Woman,Iron Fist,Spider Man and Ronin. My greatest possible threat would be Doctor Strange. His powers nearly rival mine. And I could not afford to throw it all on the line again. The others would not be a problem.

Rising I raced from the room. I needed to put as much distance between Wolverine and myself as possible before he woke. I doubled back and put my scent everywhere. One of the upper level hotels near the 500 Repbulica. I needed a change.. and a plan.. I knew where I could get the materials I needed to defeat Doctor Strange. and I would need to return to the kilms on Mustafar.

I needed my old apprentice back. Together with the power orbs of creation Doctor Strange would be neautralizied . Iron Fist and the others were no problem. Merely child's play. I had to be careful that Iron fist didn't stick with Godfrey, then I might actually have some trouble.

I saw their diffrences, their weaknesses.. So why was it as I sank lower into the rose and hycanith scented bubble bath that my thoughts were on Spider Man?

TBC

Steping back through the ages part 1

2007-08-30T17:31:00.000-04:00

Later that same evening I found myself in the Alderanian library Doing more reasearch I looked through anything and everything. Myths I would've normally set aside I read through vorraciously time and again. there was one I found that excited me particularly "The Universal Keystones"

Godfrey entered the library wearing a loose shirt and a pair of thin sleep pants. The tempetures on Alderian were hellish for this time of the year hence our light state of dress. I balanced the book on my knees and turned to give him a kiss. Needless to say I almost ended up letting the book get knocked off my lap as he tried to pull me over the couch to him. After I finally managed to break away I pointed to the book" Godfrey listen to this. I might have something here. ;"

There were three sisters. One with hair of spun gold, one with hair of onyx and one with hair of fire. They were close, but they were also ambitious. One day while walking on a bridge they met Lady Death. Death said to them " I have come for you three. It is time to cross the gate" The flaxen haired one broke down weeping begging to be allowed to stay. the flame haired one stomped her foot in anger demanding" What right do you have to say when we must die?" But the onyx haired one said nothing but regarded death with a kind stare before she stepped past her sisters.

" I will make you a deal lady death. if I can answer three riddles you let us go free. " Death agreed then her first riddle was spoken.

"Time stands still but yet it runs on.Keepers of time reaching from dusk to dawn. "

The woman smiled" Simple. It is an hourglass"

Death looked a little suprised but then smiled" One riddle you have won but 2 more to come"
" Hidden both beauty and horror, a mask of many colors"

She titled her head and looked at death puzzledly then she grinned" Makeup"
Death was flabbergasted! No one had ever answered those riddles before ever! But her smile grew wicked. This one would not answer her last riddle.

"Wise beyond their years,these guardians possess no fears"
The ebony haired one stared at her"Jedi Knights"

Death let out a terrible shirek. Bested at her own game! But she sighed. " A deal is a deal" As the sisters made to cross the bridge she stopped them again" but I have a gift for the each of you, though your sister is the only one who deserves it."

She raised two glass balls from her hand" For you two. Theese are the power orbs of creation .Born from the stars at the creation of the galaxy.These orbs can strip powers from anyone, cause great pain. But they will only respond in need of justice and mercy. "

The sisters took them, greedy looks in their eyes.

The ebony haired one turned to death." I need no gift, the lives of my sisters are gift enough "
Death shook her head " You alone deserve a gift and a powerful one I bestow"
She took her aside " This key is the key to the library of knoweledge. Here you can find many many things. You are wise enough to use them when need arises. "

She waved to the three women" Farewell I take my leave of you"

The sisters took their leave of the bridge and went their seprate ways. The fire haired one went to a tavern . She got into a bar brawl and was killed for her orb.

The flaxen haired one went into town and met up with her lover. During the night he killed her as well and took her orb.

The ebony haired one upon hearing of the deaths of her sisters was sad but tracked down the orbs and locked them away in the library. Years passed and when lady death came for her again she was surrounded by her children, husband and her grandchildren. She embraced Lady Death as an equal and went unto her embrace.

They were reincarnated years later, their roles reversed. The flaxen haired and flame haired ones led good lives but the ebony haired one led a life of woe and misery. But when she died once before Death sent her back . This time with a promise of a good life but she must be patient and wait. She heard none and to this day death watches and waits to give the wise one what she deserves.

I turned to Godfrey" you don't think? Could this myth.. The ebony haired woman.... " I looked at the picture and I almost dropped the book.Staring back at me were shining blue eyes and a face with short black hair.

A shiver passed up my body. the woman in the picture bore the most striking resemblence to Catia it was scary. All except the eyes. The eyes were happy, full of love, joy and wisdom. Hers were always filled with saddness, hate , loathing and darkness..

TBC

A little something for the avengers to consider...

2007-08-26T23:14:00.000-04:00

If only if only.. then maybe I wouldn't be so evil.. He looks simply delicious here wouldn't you agree? *smirks*

Salvation and a vacation

2007-08-20T14:32:00.000-04:00

Hours had passed dizzingly. I found myself walking down the gangplank of our ship to be welcomed quite warmly by Bail and Breha. The woman looked shaken and scared" She's here? Is it true?" she asked me, fear in her eyes.

" We would not have come it it wern't. I am sorry to frighten you like this Breha. We will either finish this here or chase her from this world. " I started forward but there was a sharp pain in my back and my knees buckled. Bail and Godfrey both rushed forward supporting me as I steadied myself on my feet" It's Catia, she's close.. "

Breha looked at me a determined look in her eye. " Scared though I may be you will not overexert yourself. At least not on Alderann. Come you need rest "

I was about to follow the woman's adivce when a lightsaber hissed to life just behind me. " Yes.. rest.. it will be your last!" I shoved Breha down and turned snapping my own saber to life as Godfrey rushed Bail and Breha into the palace. " Marasha don't you see she is misleading you? Listen to me!"

Marasha leapt at me and I swatted her saber aside easily." You're letting her mislead you!" Blue fire licked at my palms. There was something about her that made me want to cry. To scream that I couldn't do this. But duty came first and she was an innocent in evil's sway and it had to be done.

"Marasha please, take my hand! I can save you!"

" I'll need your help when hell freezes over you----------"

I sighed ,letting the flame blossom upwards and outwards.She had made her choice. I was sad it had to be this way but there was no choice.

"What're you doing ? stop! stop!" she screamed as she was pulled to me. Blue fire was clensing fire. In a person it burnt away any trace of evil like paper. since her core was evil.. I squeezed my eyes shut and prepared for that final moment. When the hate was burned away and she was the sweet innocent girl she had once been.That moement I didn't know if I could stand.

The flames engloved her I held onto her frail body as the saber rolled to the ground. I could feel the sweet girl struggling in my arms , then she burst like a ballon. Ashes caked my hands. Then for a moment the puff of ash spoke with a gentle voice.

" It was her.. she ruined you from the begining.. Catia"

She split my parents apart. She's been the cause of my nightmares since the begining. I didn't know weather to curse her or thank her. Godfrey ran out and pratically pulled me to the bench.

" Are you okay? What happened? Where's Marasha?" His face was a mask of worry.

"Marasha.. gone.. saved.. soul.. Catia.. still.. near.. " My back was in blinding pain . It was because she had saved me on Utapau that I could feel her presence now.I had to be above hate, above anger, above these petty things.. But I could feel it building.. I didn't want it.. The only thing I guess you could say I feared now is fear itself..

Godfrey lifted me clean off my feet. I'm still amazed he can make me feel light as a feather whenever I feel like a bloated beached wale.. pregnancy issues aisde I was never really comfortable with my body until we met.. Long story short he was the only one who could actually make me like myself for who I was no better or less.

"You're going to rest. I will deal with Catia. No arguments you hear me?" The hallway flew past as he strode into the room Bail had been gracious enough to give us apparently and dropped me carefully on the bed.

" But!- I wasn't letting him go this alone!

The next thing I knew I was sleeping.. again.

When I woke Bail was shaking me . " I'm sorry to wake you Phobia but Godfrey is back.. you.. you need to see this"

I lurched to my feet and ran to the entrance hall" where is he Bail?" I asked tensely.
He reappeared suddenly covered in wounds. Blood ran from a cut on his head, his shoulders were slashed up.. My fists shook in rage but as I came closer to him I found myself crying

" Don't you EVER EVER EVER do that to me again!" I threw my arms around him carefully due to his scrapes. He returned my hug without effort. Damn him he scares me more than I'll ever admit sometimes.

" she's gone.. "

" Dead?"

" No I chased her off planet.I think we're taking a small vacation Pho..I'm tired and I know so are you. Just a day or two.. Like it was before.. "He leaned very close" Just us"

My eyes probably popped out of the sockets at this. Though our wedding had only been six months ago give or take I felt like we hadn't gotten any time to ourselves in a while. We were always busy. If it wasn't a mission it was my training Belda. And with the twins draining what energy I had as it was ... Well needless to say Godfrey had been more than patient with me.. bless him.

I leaned against his shoulder" Yeah.. just us.. no council, no Belda.. just you.. and me"
He grinned pulling me to the other room. Bail nodded smiling" I'll see to it you're not disturbed . Dinner is at 7"

How lucky am I to have a man like Godfrey? I quit questioning a long time ago.. I just.. Live in the moment.

TBC

Lines on my face, blood on my hands

2007-08-13T19:58:00.000-04:00

I love my ships and speeders. The faster the better.

Currently I was in my refurbished ship from the old days. The Black Hawk hovering over Coruscant.

My plan was clear in my mind. The first killing would be close, very close.

I pulled up the cloaking device and slipped past air traffic control around the upper atmosphere. I landed close to the temple and pushed open the hatch. I saw her in the gardens. She was nursing a sore head after Phobia had slammed her into the wall. I knew those bruises all too well.

I walked up to her, a smile on my lips but not in my eyes. " Hello Samantha"
Her head snapped up" How do you know me?"

" Oh I saw the little fight in the hallway. I want to help you teach that whelp a lesson. Your jealous of her aren't you?"

I saw the light in her eyes. Corrupt greedy woman. It would be her downfall. She nodded" Good follow me"

I began to walk away, towards a nearby back alley. It would suffice. If she resisted I could always place her under mind control. One of my specalties. She followed at a quick pace, zealous for knoweledge.

I stopped and my hand reached for my blade. " So you want to know how to teach little Phobia a lesson?"

" Yes, I want what she has. The blood scum. She doesn't deserve what she has!"

" You failed"

"what?"

"Allready you have proven you are more stupid than she is. Lesson number one"

The red blade shot up, taking her head . It rolled to the ground, her eyes open in shock.

" Never trust a stranger"

I flipped off the blade and tucked it back on my belt. I retrieved her lightsaber from her body. Then I took her outer robes and tunics, leaving her in a pair of shorts and a shirt. For the next part of my plan to work I needed her Jedi robes.

I found a box and placed my suprise in it. After charming it to say what I wished, I hurried to the temple keeping my force signature down. If I wasn't careful Phobia or Godfrey could spot me from a mile off.

I knocked on her door and then dropped from the window across from her door into the gardens. From there I crept around the outer edges, avoiding the stupid politicians though my blade itched to cut down Godfrey who was sitting with them, talking to Bail Organa. Not now. I would have time enough for that later. For now I needed to get off planet and quickly. I had buisnesson Yavin.

I needed the power crystal and the couplers. Then I had to return to Rattak and do away with that fool Kipling, the so called Jedi assisian. there I could begin work on the greatest creation of the sith, and the bane of the Jedi.

The Gryphon Cannon. Then I would do away with these foolhardy " apostles" and plunge the galaxy into eternal night.

TBC

Fading into grey

2007-08-11T00:03:00.000-04:00

I wanted to rest so badly but there was work to be done. And I'm of the type I won't take a moment off if there are pressing issues. Right now there were two matters that demanded my immediate attention.

Catia and Marasha.

So the next morning I was up early before Godfrey even was and I was down in the archives. I had a holo map of the planets in front of me little red dots glowing where Catia had been that I knew of and blue dots where Marasha had struck as well.I sat there for hours staring at the map, pacing, trying to find a pattern. I pulled books on old sith symbols, even dating back so far to the founding of Coruscant. There HAD to be something here!

My eyes zoned in and out while I started getting frustrated . Why couldn't I see it?? Time was running out and it would be my fault if Catia or Marasha killed again. There was no hope for Catia this I knew from 10 odd years of experience. Marasha though...

I could save.

I sensed it in her, the only reason why she turned to Catia is she had no one, much like at one time Belda had no one. But because when she was ressurected she wa imbued with evil .. If I saved her I would kill her mortal body but I would set her soul free, beyond Catia's reach.I heard my spirit whispering while I was in meditation.. She told me how to do it, she showed me how to save her, with soul fire.
Now I just had to find her. The longer Marasha was out there the more and more she was falling beyond my reach.

I heard Godfrey behind me, a low growl meeting my ears. " I can't rest, not now.. She's shown me the path.. I can save Marasha. You know I would show the same devotion if it were Belda or one of my own children"
He caught my wrist, eyes flashing dangerously" You won't HAVE any children if you keep this pace up! Phobia you're wearing yourself thin! You've got to slow down, you're scaring me.. " I tried to slip away from him, to not look anywhere but in his eyes. I could see the hurt and the pain, and it made me hate myself for what I was all the more.
He caught my chin in his hand, forcing me to look at him " I will help you Phobia, just ask me, you know I 'd do anything for you. But I'm begging you, slow down before you kill yourself, before you kill our children"

That did it, I couldn't take anymore. I broke down crying in his arms.

I didn't care who saw me, who'd ask questions and who wouldn't.He let me rest against him while we headed back to the couch in the archives. " I don't hate you for wanting to help. I couldn't. That's one of the many things that made me fall in love with you in th e first place. But listen, I can take your burden as well if I need to. I'll just find someone to teach my classes for a few days. We can do this, together. Don't shut me out Pho.. please.. Force I want to be here for you.. for them"

He stared up at the map while one hand rested on my stomach. Today I was four months along. Pretty soon I was going to have to go into hiding as it were,only leaving my apartment at night and then only if nesscary. He was right, I needed to slow down.

He stood for a moment and walked to the map" I know this symbol, its of the Royal House of Corellia.. The old Sith Repbulic, you know what it looks like today.. "
I nodded eyes wide" Of course! I don't know why I didn't see it before! " I turned and threw my arms around him" Now this means if there's three points left in the symbol, then.. "

I traced the symbol in the air with my figner tips" There's three places they haven't hit. Alderann and Naboo are in the path of the lineup. As is Geonosis.. " I scribbled a list of the planets in the path of the last three points. I shivered as I remembered very clearly the day the clone wars started.I was with the 212 along with my master in the arena where Obi Wan ,Anakin and Padme were sentanced to death.

Mace had given me an important task, namely because Anakin and I had worked so well together. A high powered sniper blaster in my hand I was stretched up flat against the roof of the arena, taking careful aim at the top link of the chain that held Anakin. I raised my blaster just as Mace raised his hand in preparation to the Jedi who were hiding . I saw something just as I was about to fire. It was Dooku, his back turned, saber at his side. I could've shot him then. Put the war to an end.But in my minds eye I saw the pain of the force, the dead bodies of Anakin and Obi Wan.. The pain in my own heart too much to bear. It ripped at me like a wolf. So as much as I knew how many lives would be lost, I lifted the blaster and took dead center aim at Anakin's chain. As the shot echoed through the air I remember closing my eyes and a few tears falling. With that one shot I had sent over 150 Jedi to their deaths.

In a way I still hate myself for making that decision. What right did I have to decide who lived and who died that day?

We both left the archives and I headed back to my rooms . I was exhausted and pratically fell onto the bed. I curled up and fell asleep, not even bothering with my boots.
I woke to Godfrey shaking me. " I got clearence from Mace and Yoda. We're to check every planet in the sector that falls under the pinpoint line.. But we're posing as civillans.. or in our case.. Time to step back into the political ring.." He sighed exapsperently and ran his hand through his hair. " We just have to be careful.. and we 'll report to the council bi weekly. Hurry and get packed. Our transport leaves in a half hour." He left me to pack.

I was ready to go in 5 and met him down in the entrance hall.Our lightsabers were tucked safely away in a safety holster( mine under my dress) and his neatly tucked away under his shirt.We were met by Mace at the landing pad

" Go and find her quickly. We all know how dangerous Marasha is alone, coupled with her sith master .. I don't want to think on it.. May the force be with you both"

We boarded the ship quickly and I set the coordinates for Alderann. Godfrey comed Bail to let him know what was going on . After that we could do nothing but wait. I sunk to the couch on the ship.I couldn't even form 2 words before I was fast asleep.. I was really getting sick of sleeping all the time, that and having to cover half the galaxy looking for those pests.

She was loose because of me

And I was going to shut her back where she belonged. In limbo, for good.

No matter how long it took. But you can't blame a woman for being sick and tired of space travel.Can you?

TBC

Slipping through the fog

2007-08-06T00:33:00.000-04:00

The ship shuddered and goraned as we landed in the hangar bay. I felt cold, very cold. Godfrey supported me as we walked down the ramp. I was shivering nonstop. Thngs were floating at random intervals and moving back to the floor. I recieved odd looks from the other knights passing me in the halls.

Then it happened.

A fellow knight who had been the bane of my existance since I was just a todler appeared seemingly out of the depths of my mind. " What's the matter Deimos? Still need people to baby you? I can't see why you're hanging ot with such .. respectable people as Ivan.." She clearly had the look of someone who had the odor of something bad under their nose. " you and that Skywalker guy are all alike. the prophecy is trash.. The only reason why the order wanted him is because they felt sorry for him . He's trash just like you.. all of you misfits.. You're not worthy of the rank of knight"

Now Samantha Harris made one big mistake there.

She picked the wrong damn day to piss me off.

The shaking stopped and I felt my hand burn.. and it kept burning until I screamed out in pain. What I felt wasn't rage.. You could call it anger I don't know.. maybe just simple .. fact?
" You picked the wrong day to make me mad Harris" I snarled, stepping away from Godfrey, eyes narrowed.

"Aww what's the widdle baby gonna do? go cry to Master yoda?"

I didn't even actually call on the force, it came to me with only a thought. Samantha hit the wall with a sickening force and slid down the wall. There was a crater sized dent in the wall where her head had hit. Godfrey ran over and checked her pulse. But I knew there was no point anyway.
She was dead.

I remember falling, being caught by Godfrey I think. When I woke up again. I was in my room . Alone.
A knock at the door. Who could that be? Anakin? Obi Wan? I ran to answer it. there was no one there but I did find a brown box on the doorstep. I picked it up in my arms and opened it. My body went rigid and I dropped the box onto the floor, the contents rolling out. I began shaking in a seizure as my eyes went totally white for what seemed like minutes on end . When I came to I saw what had happened. I saw her last moments.

For in the box was the head of the woman who I had just accidently killed earlier that afternoon. Samantha Harris.
********Earlier that Afternoon******************
When I woke up the first time Godfrey was with me in my room as was Master Yoda.
" Tell what happened you will" he said in a calm voice, clearly troubled by what I had done.
I explained all that had transpired on the Black Widow, down to Zan Arbor saving me from Catia. At that point Yoda interrupted.

" Why did you not tell the council of what you had done?" he asked.
I looked him straight in the eye" Can you honestly tell me that you would've helped me? Not kept me like a dnagerous dog at arms length only to be used as you saw fit?I know you wouldn't personally, but the will of many can override the will of one. I stayed silent bearing the torture on my own for my own preservation. And to save others"

He nodded for me to go on and I did, explaining how my powers had come back so viloently and so fast they had made me sick and how Godfrey tended to me on the way back.
Yoda turned to Godfrey" Just a freind she is?" with a look on his face that plainly said he knew more.
He blushed around his ears a little" Yes, just a freind. for now"

Motioning for me to continue I told of our encounter in the hallway and how other knights and masters had seen Samantha provoke me first into a fight when I had no quarrel with her. My powers had simply gone out of control. End of story. She should have known better than to push me.
"Speak to Master Windu I will about this. Rest you both should now" He turned and let himself out of the apartment with a small sigh.

Godfrey's com beeped. It was Bail" I'm so sorry hon but I have to meet Bail downstairs for a meeting. I will be back as fast as I can okay?"

I nodded" Just make it quick.. maybe once you get back we can find out the good uses for these new powers.." I trailed off meeting his eyes.

He smirked" I'll be back before you can even say quicksilver" He kissed me quickly and was off for his meeting. After pacing the apartment for a while I settled down to sleep on the couch. I had been woken by the door knock
************ present***********************
The eyes were open but she stared up at me with a malicious smile. " You're next bloodfilth!" she screeched before falling silent entirely.

I slumped to the floor in a dead faint.

Voices.. voices around me..

" Is she okay?"

" How long was she out for?"

" that's one nasty bump on her head!"

"Geezus who'd be sick enough to leave a severed head in a box?"

" She looks a little paler than before"

"Pho? Pho? you have to wake up.." I could feel the warm energy of his hands in mine. Slowly I managed to wake.

Crowded around my bed in the healer's ward were Belda, Mace,Cin and Godfrey. And hovering next to my head in a hologram was a welcome face I hadn't seen in some time .

"Anakin!"

He smiled thinly" Glad to see your awake Mis I don't sleep in past 9 am.. Geez and they said I was bad."

" It's good to hear your voice again Anakin. I've missed you"

Mace cleared his throat" um.. as much as I hate to break up a reunion here. there are more important matters at hand. "

Anakin smiled apologetically through the holo. I saw he had his headset on for his fighter. He must've been en route.

"Phobia tell us what happened" Mace said quietly, eyes searching my face.

Slowly I began to retell the story of what had happened with Samantha right up to when I had fainted in the hall. apparently Godfrey had come back from his meeting and found me passed out, blood seeping from the wound on my head. He had brought me to the healer's at once.

"How can we be sure she didn't have something to do with this? " Cin asked suddenly, the whole room fell silent.Tenshion was thick. I could tell this had been on everyone's minds. Well most everyone.

"Search the force Cin, Phobia would not do something like this. No matter how much she and Harris might not have gotten along. "

I breathed a sigh of relief, at least most believed me.

" We need to let her rest. Godfrey will you stay with her?" Mace asked turning to him
He nodded and the others were ushered from the room. Anakin smiled sadly" Bunch of nutters the lot of them. But I'm glad they aren't trying to pin this on you. I'll see you as soon as I can" With that the holo clicked off.

I shifted in my bed facing Godfrey for a moment." You know I wouldn't do this but you know who would?"

He nodded meeting my eyes" Catia, no question"

Had she broken into the temple to murder Samantha? or had she lured Samantha to her? The cut had been clean but the blood what there was of it had been applied after, like some morbid canvas.It was a lightsaber cut.

Was Zan Arbor releasing Catia such a good idea? It really didn't matter now did it? What was done was done. And there was a psycho Jedi slayer on the loose.
TBC
Pho

Song of the Black Phoenix Part 2

2007-07-31T01:19:00.000-04:00

CTD form last post

So if you wonder, that's how I got to where I was. Dantooine in a warehouse at midnight fighting for my life.

Just how I like it.

I glared up at her with hate filled eyes, blood trickling from the corner of my mouth. in all her years I had never found someone who had actually posed a challange to me. " You have actually made me test my powers. For that you have my respect, however begrudging. " I grinned up at her through blodstained teeth her trap still running. " I don't run from anyone. It's your head I'll take today." my legs shot out giving me room to flip onto her feet.

" I want to fight. C'mon Inferna, give me everything you've got. I can tell , this isn't the full extent of your power"

"What do you know of power, leech?" she spat at me.. I could feel her anger it was as thin and pathetic as water and had no strength. She was angry just for the sake of being angry.She had no target. As I thought on this she went invisible. I stilled for a moment, panic almost overtaking my senses, keyword almost.

I couldn't see her, but I have never needed my eyes truthfully to see.. Not since... I reached out with my other senses.. my ears listened for the shift of her clothing, the tap of her boots. " Come out.. come out Inferna.. or are you as much of a coward as I know you are?" I slid a dagger into my hand waiting for her to strike. I would be a fool to move until she thought she had me. underestimating your opponent meant death. Many had met their deaths at my hands for underestimating me .

My head shot up as the trap had been sprung. I had been foolish, this was an apparent. I knew that one touch would probably kill me, so I resorted to an unorthodx method to free myself. I reached for a small capsule on my belt and tossed it onto the floor. Black smoke rose , making the trap impenetrable sight wise. I brought my force sugnature down, almost to a force hibernation .

I flipped my saber into my hands, igniting the blade. Plunging it into the floor I cut a wide enough circle around myself to drop into the lower level of the building. I ran underneath her, my boots hardly making a sound. I stopped where I could feel her the strongest. I waited, bringing my racing heart under control.

I heard her comming and I dropped into an easy stance, staring at her with unblinking eyes. "I’m completely defenseless beneath the sabers, Leech. I can do nothing to you… Do you want to risk it?"

HA! Like I would be that stupid to try. The moment I did she would dice me to pieces. 3 volume of the Rylothian master's fighting handbook, written circa 5,300 BBY .After all, it was Zahannah who'd written it.

"That's your choice, I'm just getting started. " I held the shoto out in front of me and my red bladed saber behind me. " I'm waiting.. though that's all I seem to do anymore.. sad isn't it?"

She started throwing her sabers at me , like a child having a temper tantrum. Was this the best she could offer me? And here I was tempted to kill her with some actual dark magic I had been taught by my sith master. I deflected them one after the other.then I felt it.
I'd made a miscalculation.

Her red blade penetrated the skin and bone of my shoulder. The pain made my brain come alive. I thrive on pain as many others thrive on pleasure. It's all I've known, pain.
"Still think I’m a Leech? Call me a Sith! Call me a SITH! TELL ME I’M INDIGO!"

Yup, temper tantrum.. Her own anger would be her downfall, it had no purpose , no target. Perhaps if we had come onto the same side I could've taught her this. Then she could've been a truly fearsome sith.

I smirked. " You wear the trappings of a sith, You carry the blades of a sith, but your angry is a falsity, a farce. you've never known true anger have you? Wanted someone dead more than you wanted your next breath? You are no more than a petty blue assisian who has delusions of granduer"I ran at her, sabers moving into a blurring cross. I brought my saber up into her stomach and blasted her with a bolt of sith lightning" What's wrong? Don't know what to do now coward? Poor little lamb ,break you under the fires of hate.."

Cutting the lightning off I punched her straight in the ribs,I sliced outwards with the shoto, distracting her from whatever pathetic trick she had up her sleeve. I wasn't about to make another mistake if I could help it

I felt my breath leaving me, my windpipe was being crushed. My eyes glowed hotter as I brought theforce around me, under and over her choke, building to a blinding intensity. With a bang i could breathe again but at a cost. I had been thrown back onto a bed of metal.. somethings.. I don't know what they were but they hurt like the devil. Slowly.. I managed to get to my feet but I collapsed again. How the devil could I have made 2 mistakes in one day? Maybe
I needed to return to the kilms for more training.

"Hey Leech," she choked out. She was as worn down as I

"Yeah coward?" I was bleeding and badly, but there was something that made me keep going even though blood poured out of me like water.

"We could kill each other, or… We could kill Jedi… Lots and lots of Jedi. Deal: We can call each other whatever we want, make fun of each other, but we don’t do this again… It uses too much energy, and we could spend that destroying our enemies…"

I started to laugh, and laugh and laugh.. " You're right! I don't know how I didn't see it first!..
You've got yourself a deal.. Together. .we can wipe the floor with the whole temple.. and make sure no wanna be sith take what should rightfully belong to the true sith"

Now that was over and done with, I needed to make a trip to Mustafar, then we could reconviene.

Your end draws nearer Jedi-
Catia

Song of the Black Phoenix part 1

2007-07-23T20:06:00.000-04:00

I'm free! I'm free! I had waited for so long and I can't believe it I'm free! Zan Arbor you are a fool, a complete and utter fool. While That pathetic twit and her husband made their way back to Coruscant, I decided to put as much distance between us as possible.. Actually I just got a paper map of the planets and picked at random..

Dantooine .

But when I got there I was in for a suprise another sith I had only ever met once. Needless to say if I could've killed her then I would've. Darth Inferna" I can't say it's a pleasure, pathetic little worm, because it's not"

"You’re not the one who has to look at yourself. I think I’m going to die." she went for her saber.
My hand slid for my saber" Shame I killed Zan Arbor, she might have been able to get you out of there. Too bad so sad." I laughed a little. How sad, how .. desprete.. My thumb rested on the ignition button, waiting, watching for her first move

"Hey, Stupid Chica: Now you aren’t sharing a body with a Jedi, you will be killed on sight. Jo’u really are stupid," Both blades ignited , my body tensed like a cat just before the spring. I was tempted to shift but I decided to save that trick for when I truly needed it.

A twist of my arm and a shoto slid into my hand" Maybe, maybe not" I twisted the shorter blade into my hand" I can blend in much better than you, you blue freak"

"Blue! Blue! I’m Indigo! Indigo!" she leapt forward ,spinning in midair like a drunk who was on happy pills, sabers shining brightly in the dim light.

I ducked under the pathetic windmill assult . I spun back, kicking her in the face and lunging forward with my shoto aiming for her ribs.

I felt the blade penetrate her ribs and the blood squirted across my face. She fell to the ground like a sack of rocks, calling me every name in the book. So what? Nothing I haven't been called before.

Some of the blood had gotten onto my face and I wiped it off casually. " Is that all you've got? Maybe the rumors were true!.. I think you've mislabeled yourself.. it's you who are the leech..Not me.. I only used Phobia as a stepping stone.. Nothing more"

She called both her sabers to her ,sweeping dangerously close, then spinning around her.. Didn't she learn the first time those stupid dancer's moves OW! What the f-?

I felt the flesh singe on the crook of my elbow.. Chucha I forgot how much one of those wounds would hurt!. I raised the shoto to block then came under the oppisite side of where I had cut her before.

If I could get to her other side I could end this quickly. My eyes opened in shock as I felt the blade of her lefthanded lightsaber hit right in between my third and fourth ribs. I bit my lips to hold back a curse

"Tonight, Leech. You and I, the Warehouse nearby… Be there at midnight. We battle to the death."

Good, I wanted the end of her and quickly. These injuries were trite and would heal withing the hour with some actual work.

I grinned " Oh no worries.. I will be there.. And one other thing.. I like the way you think Inferna.. I'll see you then"

TBC

Waking up with a startling discovery

2007-07-19T00:50:00.000-04:00

I woke slowly, my head was pounding fiercely.My vision was swimmig and I was seeing at least triple.My feet had barely hit the floor before I was in the fresher again , puking my guts out.

This time however it was less than usual and the dry heaves stopped after a few moments.
I rose and was about to turn around when I pratically ran into Godfrey. His hands reached out to steady me as I wobbled. " Morning sickness again?" he asked leading me back to bed. " Yeah.. and my head is killing me.. "

I tripped over the sheets and would've went sprawling to the floor but I found myself floating halfway off the floor. " Godfrey can you let me down?" I asked, frowning at how quickly this had happened.

" Pho.. this.. this isn't me.. this is your own power.. "He said from where he was sprawled on the floor.

I gave a small tug and sure enough I landed sprawled ungraciously on my backside." What the hell?" I was scared but I'd be damned if I'd show it.I slowly crawled to my feet and with my ascent several objects floated up with me.Okay I was beyond freaked now.

" What is going on?" I asked, not even bothering to disguise the fear in my voice this time.

Godfrey rose and came to stand just behind me" Unless I miss my guess. this is your body getting reacquainted with the power that was stolen from you years ago Pho.. This is how powerful you SHOULD have been from the begining"

I guided the objects down one by one. Then I briefly reached out to the other living beings in the ship. I could see Cin, see his every heartbeat, the capiliaries in his lungs as he breathed, deep in sleep. And I could see his body knitting itself back together slowly. Then I turned my eyes towards Godfrey.

The same.. but I could also see Fafnir inside of him,see the dragon as he rested..I could see both force power, both light and dark. I could see the galaxy's weft and weck. into faraway planets. I could see the council 's meeting without tryingIt flashed before my eyes unbidden and unsummoned.

Then I could see Catia. She had left Zan Arbor's body in her lab to rot and now was on Mustafar. Her home planet,plotting, waiting to strike..

I could hear the cries of the dead and dying, the screams of the tortured souls.And above all of this. I could see two faces flasing back and forth like a broken holoprojector. One of Sidious and one of Palpatine.. And for a moment they blended as if they were one.

The last thing I saw was the Works and Marasha's evil face grinning, taunting. I could destroy her now. Without her master within me I could let loose any power I had in me. She would not torture Belda ever again.I collapsed to my knees ,crying out for Godfrey as my head nearly split in half.

He helped me back to bed and placed a cold cloth on my forehead. The power was burning inside my veins like molten lava. I needed to bring it under control before we reached Coruscant.

Before we returned to the temple. Slowly.. I began the process of harnessing this new power.. How had I not known about all this?

Until Later
Pho

The Trap of the Spider-part 2( and my 100th post)

2007-07-13T00:45:00.000-04:00

I was shocked for a moment until Zan Arbor's words registered in my mind.

" All I want is Catia's soul. I will even let you take that useless Jedi Dralling out with you. Give me the soul of the emperess and you are free to go."

Was it really that simple?

I reached out with the force. We were blocked in here. So what was I to do? I still could communicate with Godfrey, but he remained silent as well.

The choice was mine and mine alone to make.

Was Zan Arbor decieving me? I found myself extending my arm to Jenna before I knew truly what I was doing. " If you can get her out without hurting me fatally, get. her. out."
Jenna Zan Arbor nodded and she attached a cuff to my left upper arm and tossed some herbs in the air. . I suddenly began to feel sleepy. I could hear Cin shouting.. Godfrey was running forwards to catch me as I fell...

For a few moments I could not breathe then I felt multitudes of poison leave my body I shuddered over and over again, my head spinning. The corpse on the table near me glowed black. I thought I couldn't stand another moment of it ,but then freash power poured through me.

My own power, taken by Catia was restored to me as her own power transfered to her new body.

I fell to my knees and Zan Arbor helped me to my feet and undid the cuff. "Her soul and body are one now. you are free."

As Godfrey was unhooking Cin I asked her " why?"

She smiled sadly" I learned much from one man years ago, he told me of you and your plight. I know my evil deeds will not go unpunished. Leave me here.. she will kill me the moment she wakes. Go quickly. I will hold her off for as long as I can"

I couldn't believe this.. I didn't want to believe it. But Godfrey was allready pulling me away from the table as Catia began to rise " We have to go NOW!"

I turned and with Cin's arm over my shouldrer we took off at a slow run down the hall ,back through the tunnel and to the ship. Once Cin was aboard I punched in the coordinates and we were in the air within moments.

"Pho! He needs a blood transfusion ! Now!"

I ran back and shook Cin" My freind listen to me. you and I are the same bloodtype Will you let me do this for you now?"

He only nodded once before he fell unconcious.

I didn't waste a second. I took the needle on my end of the tube and jammed it into my arm and took a seat next to Cin's prone body. Crimsion blood flowed through the tube and into Cin's weakened body. For what seemed like ages the blood pumped between us until finally Godfrey pulled the needle from my arm and puled the one from Cin. he lifted me as though Iweighed nothing and carried me into our room. "Sleep now.. you need your rest. "

I was falling fast into a deep sleep" Wait, th cloak.. haf to keep tai n mara safe.. Cin ..can't sense em"

He covered me up with the cloak I wore before draping several blankets over me as I began to shiver. "I'll bring some hot coffee to you both in a little while okay?"

I was fast asleep before the word coffee was said.

And this time for once.

I had no nightmares.

I was free of Catia at last.

Or was I really?

TBC
Pho

The trap of the Spider - part 1

2007-07-06T16:15:00.000-04:00

The trip was quiet . So quiet it made my skin crawl.The one thing I cannot lie about though is that without Belda around I didn't have to be as careful as I usually am.Like for one example,

After I had gotten a shower instead of a robe I just pulled a towel around me and headed over to my room to find a fresh set of clothes.

It's the little things you miss whenever you take on a padawan, really.
I
t was later that afternoon whenever we had finally figured out where we were headed.. Sort of.

We had tracked Jenna Zan Arbor to the Chromell sector. One of the last knights who had been killed had put a tracker on her ship.We finally got to planet side, using the tracking remote to locate Zan Arbor's ship. We found it hovering near the Galatic Palace in Theed. It was empty but after some questioning of the guards we found out there was a new labratory being built out on the Sea of Veruna.

A huge station, that if it were to be equipped with weapons it could destroy a whole planet.

Godfrey and I flew the ship out there, landing in an open docking bay.I was scared as soon as we touched down.I stayed close behind Godfrey as we made our way through the station. I reached out in the force and found Cin.

He was in the lab deep in the station.But he was weak, very weak.. I listened close.. He was trying to tell me something but I couldn't ascertain what it was he was so weakened by the tourture Zan Arbor put him under.

We came to a fork in the hallway. He took the left and I took the right. There was a contingent of guards at the end of the tunnel. I reached out with the force and used a sleep sugestion to knock them all out. I didn't want to draw attention to us unless absouletly nesscary.

Stepping over the guards I rejoined Godfrey and we came to a steel ball which only had one door. I placed my hand on the doorframe. I could feel it. Cin was behind that door, and he was near death.

I turned to Godfrey" We're at the right place but the only way in is through a programmed keypad. A, we know we're not on it and by the time we reprogram it, we'll be found out. what do you suggest?"

Godfrey studied the door carefully" Well we have a choice or two. First we can try to rip the ball apart with the force or B.. I could try and melt the door down. It would take me a minute but there would be no identifying marks , unlike what a lightsaber would make."

I stood back" Melt the damn door down. Cin saved me when I needed him. I'm not going to let him die now"

He nodded and a moment later a fireball appeared in his hands and with a wave or two and a flick of the wrist he had a direct firestream pushing against the door. The metal glowed red and the door began to melt from the top downward. I jumped backwards away from the door as the hot metal began to melt my boot tops. Finally the metal was melted away and I ran inside , Godfrey on my heels.

Cin's limp head looked up at me. He was pale as a sheet. "R-run.. it's a trap.. "

I turned but we were too late, another door slammed into place.

"Well.. well.. the final piece of the puzzle arrives. So glad you could join me Phobia.."

A redheaded woman walked out of the shadows.

" Zan Arbor.. I can't say it's a pleasure because it most certainly isn't"

She cackled" Well you might disagree whenever you hear of my plan.. You see.. I needed you for one specific purpose.. This"

A table lurched to a vertical position. no.. no... it couldn't be.. We had been playing into her hands all along god forgive me... How could I have been so very blind?

There stood, or more like lay a corpse, yet to be animated.. an excact replica.. and it was no necromancer's toy.

Jenna Zan arbor meant to give Catia a new body.

Using me as bait.

TBC
Pho

Dreams are realizied ( Final part)

2007-07-04T14:35:00.000-04:00

He headed back out to prepare the ship for take off. Once I had gotten Belda to come out of her room and gotten her packed we headed out to join him.

When we took off Godfrey seemed very down and morose.. I headed over to the sink and handed him a glass of muja juice" Tired?"

He shook his head taking the juice from me and downing it in one gulp" No.. just old memories "

I placed the glass in the sink" want to talk about it?"

" I'd just rather forget" I could still smell the trees on him.. the pine and sandalwood scent that made me crazy.. made me ache for him.. Just to be close, nothing else mattered.

" You say you want to forget? Then let me help you forget and give you my own special reward.."

My voice was a mere whisper, but he could see the hidden meaning in my eyes.

I am the healed and the healer. 2 sides of one coin

Once Belda was settled in her room we met with the council and were briefed on our new mission.

" Master Dralling dissapeared five days ago. We have sent out others who have either come back wounded or dead.Three knights and 5 padawans . the knights were sent off planet. All the padawans were seinor, near their trials. This we feel is the work of someone who the order has come into contact with before"

I watched this movement carefully. I didn't want to think of anyone who would be as sadistic as to kill younglings.

A holo popped up on screen " Jenna Zan Arbor, the same scientist who kidnapped Qui Gon Jinn some years prior for her sadistic expermients in the force"

" Be careful and cautious. She was able to capture Cin.. who knows what might be happening now.. All of the dead we found with ther blood drained from their bodies, every last drop."

My blood rushed out of my face.. no this wasn't Jenna.. I didn't think but I've been wrong before.

When we were dismissed I voiced an underlying concern to Godfrey " We need to be espically careful on this one Godfrey. if she senses Tai or Mara.. She could try to hurt them.."

"You should stay"

" No! I'm going like it or not!"

He sighed and looked me over over the rim of his glasses. He knew good and well it was useless to argue with me. I could be more stubbroun than Belda.. Where do you think she got it from?

" Then at least wear this" he handed me a black cape " It's specially designed to hide your force signature it will hide the twins as well"

I took it and wrapped it around my slowly growing baby bump. I was about two and a half three months alongish. I wasn't going to take any chances and loose my children now. We hurried out to the landing pad.

The blurred images at the back of my mind were trying to tell me something but I didn't know what. I looked to the west, towards the warehouse district.. Also where the cemataries were. . I could feel something.. I couldn't linger now.. Cin's life hung in the balance.

Hang on my freind. You saved me in my most desprete hour. I will save you.

TBC

Until Later
Pho

As you have probably heard..

2007-07-03T00:54:00.000-04:00

As you all probably know right now. Last GLadiator Standing 2 is comming to a close.

Well I have news.

Big news.

Wait for it......

A little more......

almost there......

I am very pleased to say that our own DarkJediKriss has made it to the final round!

Now you ask what does this mean? It means that at the end of this week's competition ANYONE can vote.. That means anyone who had participated, judged, or even watched the blog but couldn't participate.

So go help DJ bring home the gold!

( and give her permenant bragging rights over skywalker )

( yeah my PSP skills suck so?)

Dreams are realizied -part 3

2007-06-30T00:42:00.000-04:00

Belda asked" can I go too?" she was eager to learn, I understand that but this mission screamed danger, even for her.

Godfrey answered for me before I had to tell her " Absouletly not. There's allready one Jedi master missing and two younglings. We're not chancing the risk of loosing you too."

"But I can fight!" she protested. I felt her place for a moment. I understood what it was like to be left behind.

" Who was the master who's missing?" I asked Godfrey, trying to change the subject before things got out of hand.

" Master Mundi didn't say, but for Obi Wan to be out looking for her I have a guess. And besides, Cin was the temple swordmaster. I pratically learned most everything from sabers from him. If they were able to get him, we're going to have a nasty fight on our hands"

I sucked in a breath. I reached out to steady myself on the bedrail. A flash of blonde and red flashed before my eyes. A huge wheel.. then nothing.

" But.. I have you and my master to protect me!"

" We're going to be busy, very busy. We might not have time to talk or do anything even kinda fun. You don't want to be around 2 boring people do you?" Godfrey interjected, trying to make this mission seem boring and unintereesting to her.

" You're not boring!"

I got fed up in a hurry with her. " Belda you're not going so that's that and don't even use the whole prophecy bit on me because it's not going to work! You're staying at the temple for your own safety!"

She shot a glare at me that could've melted durasteel and stomped off to her room slamming the door.

I sat down on the bed, head in my hands " Was I too rough on her?"I asked looking up at Godfrey

" Dear, she has to learn her place. If you say no then she's got to know you mean no. Period. and it's not like you're trying to exclude her or anything. It IS for her own safety."

I nodded " you're right.. and. .I'm very proud of you.. do you know that? You not only won the tourtament but you've proved what a great husband and father you are and are going to be"
He sat down next to me anbd wrapped an arm around my shoulders" How so?"

" Well you won the tourtament, and then when three wishes. .anything you could want. .and you use them for the good of others. Most wouldn't give it a second to wish for money, power and fame.. you know the whole bit"

That smile.. I could die seeing that smile and be happy " I have all I could ever dream of wanting , right here" I slid a hand onto her forehead" And here" my other hand came to rest on her stomach ." I have a beautiful, kind and loving wife and am going to be a father to two of the most wonderful children in this galaxy. What more could a man ask for?"

I leaned my head on his shoulder" Everything and nothing "

" All I did was to make sure I am able to keep these three things to the best of my ability. I am not stupid. I know one day I will loose you. But I don't want it to be form something I could have prevented. That is why I believe the council forbade attachments, because most are not smart enough to realize that."

He looked up at the crono and helped me to my feet the lateness of the hour approaching on my mind .

"Come on.. We need to go get mis grump and get going.We're expected back before daybreak tomorrow"

TBC

Note from the author

2007-06-29T01:31:00.000-04:00

It's come to my attention that there are some people who have thought it funny to steal my ideas. Funny ,cute, amusing I don't really care. the point is I put a lot of work into this blog and I will not stand for people blatantly stealing my work right out from under my nose. I am a patient person. Heck, Ask nicely, and if you're having some problems with some ideas I'll probably even help you.

But the one thing I do not appreciate and will not tolerate is stealing.

Let me just say that I never intentionally steal anyone's ideas. And if I have in the past I am sorry. It was not my intent to do so.I am bookish by nature so the apparent choice for Catia's prision would be a book. The whole idea of a possession by a ghost I borrowed from an anime tv show that used to be on late night called " Yu Yu Hakusho" one of the main charcters, Suichi had the ghost of a fox spirit living inside his body. Yoko Kurama. Back in the Makai Yoko was a thief and a killer.

The reason why I just explained that is because at one time there were whispers of me stealing the possession idea from another blogger. I wanted to clear the air on that.

I will ask once and only once. Please stop stealing my ideas. It's rude, plain not nice and it also shows what kind of author you are whenever you can't even come up with your own creative ideas. I put a lot of thought and creative time into this blog. Most blog authors do.Some do their own thing like DarkJedi Kriss and Jon the Intergalatic Gladiator; others still play great versions of cannon charcters like Anakin Skywalker, Obi Wan Kenobi and Professor Xavier for some examples.

By stealing ideas from other peoples blogs, without even asking, it's a thumb to the eye of blog authors. It says " I don't care how much work you put into it, I don't care if this is your charcter. I'm stealing your idea because I'm too lazy to either come up with my own or ask for help."

So stop stealing my ideas.

Period

End of story.

Phobia's author

Observances

2007-06-28T05:05:00.000-04:00

The universe spins like a great top, always in motion. For one to learn to take their chance on the rise and hide in the fall, that is true power. It is a power many have forgotten and few remember.

I.. remember

One of my first lessons, you rise and fall with the twist of the thread. You seize your chance when the dogs of Hades are at other's throats.

Some Jedi are smart, I will give them that. Even wise. " until possible becomes actual, it is only a distraction"

Never were truer words spoken. But.. in the heat of battle, in the flames of passion, all falls away into nothingness. Everyone has a weak spot. Everyone.

Even me.

It all depends on how well you guard your weak spot ,as to how long you will be alive and how far you will go.

Me ? I guarded myself well, very well. But I made one mistake the first time, one I will never make ever again.

I let someone in, I cared for someone.

It was my apprentice; not Marasha, but Bane.. I let him in, treated him as a mother would a son.

And he betrayed me in cold blood.

One afternoon while we had lunch, he was talking to me and the next moment he had stabbed me in the leg with a poison dart.it killed me.

For centuraies I waited, plotted my revenge. I watched the years pass by me, worlds becoming the Reupbulic you know today. What utter foolishness! With the galaxy under one hand one rule then there would be no war.i had suffered the anguish of being torn from my family for one reason, because of a madman. I will not let it happen again.

But I jump ahead of myself.

I waited and watched, trapped inside of this ridiclous book.Then my chance came when I had all but given up.

A little girl ,a curious girl. She was nine years old. She was frightened, scared. Easily impressionable.She wanted to live up to everyone's expectations.

And she loved books.

So what magics I had I called her to my hiding place. She opened the book. At last! Freedom!only a partial freedom but I was out of that book.

More years passed, she grew into a beautiful woman, strong willed and brash. Temperments which I rather liked but I knew needed to be curbed.

Then one thing came along which almost brought my plans to a complete sucess. I should say one person.

Obi Wan Kenobi.

She was so despretly in love with him I managed to use it to my advantage, drive her closer and use the fact she would do anything for him to make her turn in earnest.

But she grew wise to my tricks sadly, then the fight came.

My master an I fought tooth and nail. She killed him in the end, but I recieved no other power save what I drained from him.

A slow recoupration then she falls in love. Bah! Love is for the weakminded!

Then to even drive my plans further into the pits, she becomes pregnant wiht two squalling brats who are still even now trying to drive me away. Though the young girl I managed to mark with a brand which will ensure a miserable childhood for her. In the hands of Palpatine.

So I drew power from them and from her and called back the one who I could believe that would get things done in my in my time.

Marasha.

The arrangements were made with other old freinds of mine and the plan was put into mition. First steal the ashes of the revered Jedi Master Qui Gon Jinn.Not only would this serve in my distraction, but many in the temple would take it personally. Good, the fools need a reality check.Then Hoth and Atris were brought back.

For the final Coup de ta I also had Xanatos brought back. She believed her father to be a saint when he was anything but.Then I let them have a break so I could sit back and watch them scurry around like the rats they are scratching their heads in confusion. It makes for such a farce..

Now the final stages of my plan have been put into motion. That fool Cin is gone and of course they go after him because it is their duty.The trap will lead them many diffrent places, picking up the cheese at each hole until they fall right into the bearjaws. Tired and weakened they will not see the finalie comming until it is too late.

I will be truly free again.And the my first task will be to silence all of those Empire dogs. One by one. 800 huh? Numbers won't help you. Be it 8, 80,800 or 8,000 I will take you down just the same, one at a time if I have to.

The Gryphon cannon will fire again, The galaxy will know what true darkness is.

As I take my rightful place laughing..

Laughing at you pathetic souls

Dreams are realized- part 2

2007-06-27T01:53:00.000-04:00

(CTD from previous post)

An elder man with long flowing white hair spoke first. Ancient eyes peered into mine, searchign every iota of me.. Knowing my deepest secrets " There are a few diffrent ways. First.. show him the compassion he has not known through the Jedi, their's is one way of living, show him the compassion he knew from his mother, from those he knew BEFORE the Jedi"

Then his son I guessed spoke in turn. His hair was brown and flowed over his shoulders "Then there is the matter of the sith lord.. He is closer than you think, Go to the 500 Repbulica, there is a place called The Works. there you will find evidence to lead you to your culprit."

Then the only woman besides me who stood in the circle spoke finally " If all else fails Godfrey you know what you must do. What BOTH of you must do. Search for the peaceful means first. Only then if you fail then should you result you the drastic."

Godfrey nodded in response to the council's wisdom . Then the youngest who looked no older than nine spoke after a great pause" And your last wish?"

He turned to me , questioning" What do you think?"

I laid a hand on his shoulder and smiled " Whatever you want Godfrey, I will not stop you from making your choice. My main concern is our future and the future of the order."

Which was the honest to force truth.

When his next words tumbled from his lips I nearly cried my eyes out.. I HAD found my true soulmate.. any doubt I had carried with me, even the smallest iota was erased then and there.

" My unborn daughter's future is clouded in strife and darkness. I humbly ask you to secure her future with the order and give her a good and happy life. For circumstances out of my control and my wife's.. It is possible we will not be there to help her"

I clutched his shoulder, trying to forestall tears I knew were comming. anna was weeping openly and I could see tears glistening in Belda's eyes as well.

"We cannot undo the events Phobia has forseen, not in their entirety. but your wish will be fufilled. Mara will have a happy and good life. She will return to the order one day and marry the son of the son of suns.The order will change and she will be happy with her new life. But beware Caedus, for as one stands on the brink now one will then and if he does turn, it will be family against family."

We headed back to our rooms to begin packing up for the trip back to Coruscant. Belda stopped us both in our work" You won the tourtament, shouldn't we be celebrating?"

I nodded in agreement with Belda's statement. Sometimes she sees what we do not.

"Your both right , what am I doing?" Godfrey asked , grinning. He scooped Belda up and twirled her around before setting her down, doing the same to me. I squeeled as he set me down on the bed, bouncing around like a rag doll. Our fun was cut short however when his com went off.
I could hear muffled mumurs and then he wrapped up the call " I understand Master Mundi, we'll be back as soon as we are able."

He turned to the two of us " I'm sorry but the celebration is off. We're needed back at the temple. Your master and I have another mission"

My eyebrows went up. Allready? I REALLY didn't want to know what was going on this time..

TBC
( on a sidenote.. I have offically been here one year!!!! There will be something on that soon I promise)

Dreams are realizied -part 1

2007-06-21T23:17:00.000-04:00

I woke to the tolling of a bell. Godfrey had been gone for a while now and from what I suspected, probably had let the final start without me there.

I had watched good men and women fight and die for acause they had believed in. I would not let the final match, this culmanation of warriors go on without being able to see it.

I dressed quickly and flew down the stairs Belda following me as fast as she dared. I truly did love the dress Godfrey had gotten for me but I wanted pants back!.. So here I was dressed head to toe in black zipping past everyone like a shadow. I heard a dragon's roar and a rush of adrenline hit my veins.

That wasn't just ANY dragon.. that was my dragon

Fafnir had come out to hunt.

I stopped at the ring's edge. They had allready taken their animal forms. My mouth suddenly became very dry when I saw Khali go in for Fafnir's throat

A scream echoed onto my lips but died instantly. I saw Godfrey take his shot, blood flying everywhere. Khali fell,but he was allright, the blood and the tiredness got to him and he passed out.

Godfrey came to the edge of the ring and helped me up next to him as the high council approached.

" You won Godfrey.. you won.." I hugged him so tightly I thought for a second his lungs would be mush.

" Godfrey you have done magnificantly, you have won the Onkichi Budokai. Name three things and if they are in our power they are yours."

Netsuki was standing there, hands folded but pride raidating from every millimeter of his being.

He puased for a moment then.. " My wife, she is a prisoner of a sith spirit.. Can you banish Catia from her?"

My eyes nearly fell out of my head.. He had been the youngest person in the history of the DaiShujo to win the Onkichi and his first wish was for me? I was astounded.

The council confered then, " We cannot do that, but there is something, tempt the panther with meat, she will come. create a new body for Catia ,she will leave you wife.We can give you what you need to begin"

Okay so not the best answer on the planet but it was a start.

" There is a sith lord from an alternate timestream.. here he is known as Anakin Skywalker. He wil not become evil for sometime yet. Is there a way to stop him before it is too late?"
My heart caught in my throat..

Could they save Anakin from the fate that lay before him? I would give anything for that future to not come to pass.

TBC

Vacation- sort of

2007-06-19T02:02:00.000-04:00

While we ae waiting for the final match to start.. Which has bene postponed due to White cloud's death.. Godfrey and I are going out into the festival in town.. Netsuki has agreed to look after Belda while we're gone.

It won't be too long and I'll be back though.. I can't wait to be home.

Until Later
Pho

Rise through the ashes

2007-06-16T02:58:00.000-04:00

Hours passed since that bout. More rose and even more fell, until three were left. Lantos, Godfrey and Khali. It was announced the final bout would be a transformation match, which meant that they would take their animal forms to fight in. .

To be honest considering the state he was in I honestly hoped he would loose to Lantos. But in my heart I knew he would win.Though Lantos was his only other best freind left he was still hellbound and determined to win. As they took to the ring my breath stilled.

A hush came over the crowd.

Then like the first crackles of thunder the fight began.

My hands clutched the railing as I leaned over as far as I dared without falling.

The wind seemed suddenly so very cold and I turned just in time to see Xanatos and Marasha standing side by side.Belda drew her saber and attacked Marasha as I drew mine and lunged for my father. Netsuki was down stairs speaking with members of the high council whenever the pillar cracked.

I heard the stone crumbling under us and I used the force to lift Belda and shove her out of the balcony and into one of the lower levels.Everything was falling and fast.. I had no choice.. I didn't want to change.. But if I didn't I would be killed.

I let the fire take me, sweeping me upwards and into an eletrical white light. The dress became flame feathers and my face elongated to allow for my beak. I soared upwards and out over the ring.

Swooping down I caught Belda on my back before she hit the floor. She had been too scared at the suddenenss of it all to use the force to slow her down.I landed next to the ring and let her get off my back and she ran to the edge of the ring to warn Godfrey but I shook my head.

It was then I saw him..

A monster at some odd 9 feet tall. stringy black hair and a heavy set jaw. He towered over me making for a very intimadating presence. .His hands were so huge Master Yoda would've probably fit in the palm of his hand like a kitten!

"What you doing here?" he asked me" people watch up there" he pointed to the now rubble pile that had been the balcony

" Bad people try to hurt us, we come down here to be safe"

He nodded with a slight smile " you know them?" he pointed to Godfrey and Lantos who were still fighting in the ring.

I nodded" Yes.. one freind.. the other" I drew a heart on my chest" Love"

" They both very good fighters. You know I face one next"

I bit my lip" I know, please don't hurt them"

Netsuki appeared beside me " Up is down Phobia.. Since White Cloud went to the yang.. one must come to take his place in the yin" He looked to Khali.

" Yes.. way of the DaiShujo I take his place. I be yin now"

My eyes wandered to the ring. They were both powering up .. something..I saw Marasha whispering something .. She would not ruin this fight, not now!

Spirit energy began to hum around me , green light.. Blood Lust poured through my soul, and I let it take me over entirely.. I had not taken this form since.. Since I had died the first time.

Metal rasped on metal and the red jewel on my gauntlet glowed ,as the blade extended hooking around my hand.A gift which had proved invaluable from Yama himself.

The Witchblade.

When my change was complete I was in my batle demon form.. Aiashka

I caught Xanatos and wrapped one hand around his throat in a force choke and with the other I swung the blade low, finishing what should have been done a long time ago.

I turned on Marasha, adrenline pumping through my body." This ends now!"

She laughed and flipped on her saber" That's what you said oh what was it 4 times before? but I'm still standing"

The anger was taking me, I struggled against it with everything I had. This was the dangerous part of using the Witchblade, it fueld any spark of anger into an inferno.

Belda backed up, eyes wide as saucers. She had never seen me like this, this angry.. this enraged.. ever

I went after Marasha.She backed against the wall, frigthened.. scared of me.. And the scary part was..

I didn't care.

I was raising the blade to finish this little psycho whenever Khali changed.. Then my concentration snapped.

He was a panther.. His animal form was a panther.. A white panther, but a panther none the less.

I saw Mara screaming for me, I could see the nightmare playing out before my eyes.. I think I screamed.. I'm not sure.. then I tumbled into darkness.

When I woke it was mid evening, the air had cooled. We were back in our rooms, Godfrey sitting my my side, running a hand over my head.

" That was a nasty fall you took" He said. I felt a cold cloth dabbing my forehead.

" How long have I been out for?" what is it with me ending up in a dead faint lately?

" Most of the day. It's just me and Khali tomorrow. And the high council will be watching the fight, but for now rest."

Leaning back into the pillows I sighed. It was going to be a long day tomorrow. I just wanted one thing. He slid into bed next to me, sans jacket and shoes " just stay safe"

He nodded leaving a light kiss on my forehead" Anything for you darling anything. We'll be back in the temple by tomorrow evening. I promise"

I fell into a light doze, worry and the usual nightmares not giving me much sleep. I just hoped tomorrow everything would turn out okay.

TBC

Until Later
Phobia

The scales balanced

2007-06-09T21:53:00.000-04:00

The bell tolled like an omen of death.

I sat in the box with Belda, watching Godfrey in the ring with a mixutre of worry and fascination. I have never been able to quite pinpoint where he goes when he fights like this.. It's a mystery to me but I guess some mysteries are not ment to be solved.

There were red lilies growing up in a vine around the pole nearest to me. I rose from my chair wandering over to take a closer look at them.

They looked and smelled wonderful, I think I could equate their scent to elderberries from the fields of spirit world.I found myself enraputred for what seemed like moments. It was then I could feel two tugs in my psyche.. no make that three

I looked down and my hand instantly went for my saber.. the phoenix fought to take over and strike out at the evil that was present.

Marasha was here.

Catia was watching

Fafnir was utterly enraged

Belda jumped up onto the rail of the balcony full well intending to jump to the ground and go after her. I grabbed her by the tunic neck" No! this is Fafnir's fight.. We will only intervene if we must"

What the hell was I saying? I wanted to be down there as much as she did.
Netsuki was standing also but he was leaning on his walking stick watching carefully.

"He has passed into the yang"

What was he talking about? Passed to the darkside? if so which one?

My answer was given to me whenever Godfrey's saber flickered once and White Cloud lay dead in the arena.I could feel Fafnir's anger building to insane heights and dress and all I rushed downstaits, throwing myself against him as he lunged for Marasha.

" NO! don't do this! Godfrey Listen to me it's over!"

That made him fight me all the harder. He was burning hot in comparision to me. For the very first time since I fought Harusame.. I felt a twinge of fear.. but I had to stop him.. I had to.. I knew in his right mind he would never do such a thing.

" Godfrey for goodness sake listen to yourself! your angry! Your hurt and understandably so! but if you strike her down now you'll become something you can't live with! you'll be like her!"

He started to calm slowly, but I could still see Fafnir in him.. insane with anger and wanting blood.

" you'll have your time.. I promise you this.. you'll have your chance and I swear to you then I will not hold you back.. please.. let it go.."

He had stopped , but he was like a big cat waiting to spring.. I could feel the tenshion in his muscles.. So I appealed to the side of him I knew was fighting.. to return to normal..

" you know I'm right love.. Listen to me.. listen to my voice.. you have to stop now.. beofre it's too late.. you have to.. for your children.. for me.. "

Finally he relaxed and the yellowish tingie in his eyes dissapeared. He turned to me, infintely sad and exhausted. I pulled him close and let my chin rest on his head while I led him upstairs to the balcony to rest.

I let him lay his head in my lap as I stroked his hair.. " I promise you this.. With everything that I am.. Before this tourtament is over.. Marasha will die. whatever it takes.. "

The sun was hot overhead when the next match started. I went about tending to him, preparing him for the fights that were sure to come.. And preparing myself for what I was now more than ready to do.

TBC

Until Later
Phobia

The Die is cast, the tourtament has begun

2007-06-04T16:25:00.000-04:00

I woke the next morning to Godfrey shaking me gently" Love? It's time. .come you need to dress"

He handed me a neatly folded.. something.. and went to wake Belda.. As I unfolded it, my breath came out in a low gasp.. Rainbow .. He knew I had been looking for this.. I had seen it when I was a padawan but had never dreamed I would..

I dressed quickly and waited patiently for Godfrey to reappear. He cut a fine figure in his unoiform. " wow.. " he breathed taking me in. I had sleeves to the dress thankfully. He took my arm as we headed out to the arena in silence. I felt nervous.. though I was not the one to fight.Perhaps it was due to our bond..

He escorted me to the stairs and pointed me up to the box where I would watch the tourtment with Netsuki and Belda. Belda grabbed up one of the big fluffy chairs far in the back. I took a seat with Netuski who had poured me some cold juice.

" He's terribly excited about competing" I said after a moment

Netsuki nodded" He's dreamed of this since he was a child.. I do hope he goes far.. I can't judge his readiness considering the changing forces of the Daishujo"

I could only smile slightly and my eyes wandered down to the arena as the preliminaries began. A part of me longed to be there with him, but another feared for his safety.It flew by in a blur until there were 10 left. The one.. the tallest.. he had darkside energy through out his whole body.

Godfrey seemed to move like water,avoiding every blow.I saw that monster raise his fist , which would've connected with his stomach if not for the whistle which blew.

I nearly fell over in relief as the 10 challngers lined up and the matches were set. His first match was against White Cloud. The man unnerved me to be frank. He reminded me of Mace whenever he was under control of the crossbreed.I watched the challangers miling about and Godfrey came up to see me.

" Are you okay darling?" I asked rising from my chair and rushing to him the second he appeared in the doorway.

" I'm fine. .but you look like you've seen a ghost"

" no no.. I'm fine.. Just please for the love of the force be careful.. I love you.."

" And I love you too.. I'll be fine.. just wait for me.. please.."

I gazed up at him, one hand resting at the bse of his skull" I'll wait forever Godfrey, now go and fufill your dream.. win the Onkichi budokai"

He kissed me softly, lingering for just a moment before he pulled away and dissapeared down the stairwell.. Around him I feel nothing can happen to me.. I felel so safe and protected..

As I sat back down I could feel the eletric feel of his kiss dancing across my lips. I took another sip of my juice. Netsuki chuckled knowingly.. It was going to be a long afternoon.

TBC
Til Later
Pho

Troubles on the Horizon

2007-05-31T22:47:00.000-04:00

The ship shuddered and touched down on planet several hours later" Will you actually tell us where we are now?" I asked Godfrey with a verry thinned patient smile. He'd been so secrative for the past hours it was driving me bananas!

Before he could answer, Belda started jumping up and down pointing" We're on Ragoon 3 Master!" she said exictedly. I turned to Godfrey, hands resting on my hips. " And you didn't tell me this because?" one eyebrow was raised.. I was rather amused.. and just a trifle annoyed.. He knows how I hate to wait.

"Because I wanted to suprise you?" he says with a hopeful goofy look

A smile and I pick up a few of his bags and my own" Nice save Fafnir.. Now shall we? I can see your pratically bouncing with excitement"

We headed down the gangplank of the ship into the huge crowd. There were people everywhere and I used my freehand to hold onto Beld'as .. " Keep close to me Belda.. I don't want to loose you in the crowds.

No sooner than I had said that then her head whips around to one of the vendors who is selling sweets. She keeps her mouth shut but I can tell she'd like something.Godfrey sees my look and he says to Belda" I think there's something over here you should see.." Taking Belda with him he dissapears through the corwds..

Moments later they both return, Belda is on his back, the hugest lollipop I've seen in my life in one hand. She grins and from out of his pocket Godfrey pulls a candy bar " I know how you love the Calabaranies.. This is the best place to get them"

Grinning like Belda, I begin munching on my candy as we make our way up to the grand palace on the top of the hill. After a while Belda hops down off of Godfrey and is walking alongside us again. It's when we spot him.

" Lantos!" Godfrey cries, stepping forward and embracing the shorter man. Turning to us he makes the introductions.

"Lantos, this is my wife, Phobia.. and our daughter Belda"

At this I'm rather caught off guard but what does it really matter? We are like family anyway.
Lantos smiles greeting both of us in turn and then the two fade off into talking as they walk ahead of us.

The path to the palace where all of the contestants and their famlies would stay was in sight. I whispered to Belda" does it bother you what Godfrey did? introducing you as our daughter?"

She shook her head" it's a little odd but I feel like I am.. I don't know if I should though.."
I motioned for the two of them to go on ahead and I stopped kneeling so we could see eye to eye" It's perfectly fine you feel like family.. I wouldn't have it any other way in fact... I think.." I paused" I know your mother and father would be happy knowing that you are happy and safe.. And that you're loved"

She smiled broadly" yes.. My mother accepted my decision to remain with the Jedi.. If she didn't trust that I would be well cared for she could have made me come with her.. "
Rising we continued our companionable walk for a few more minutes until we caught up with

Lantos and Godfrey who were by now at the doors to the palace with another group of men.
Apparenlty from what Godfrey told me later, they had all trained here together on Ragoon 3.. They were the first generation Daishujo.. That ment for all of them this was their first time being allowed to enter the tourtament. The rules state you must be 18 or older to enter.. not because of maturity, but for strength.. and the fact there are some if entered younger wouldn't stand a chance.

The man to beat .. his name was Khali. there are two factions of the DaiShujo.. Yin and yang.. or much like with Jedi and sith.. lightside and darkside.. He was of the yang side.. Preliminaries would begin tomorrow.. but for now Lantos and Godfrey parted ways and we went to get settled in.

" When can we find your grandfather?.. This thing on my back.. it's sore.. I think it's starting to heal finally "

" As soon as we get something to eat.. now go to sleep.. there's a few things I need to take care of.. Belda will be here if you need anything."

At that point I was so tired I didn't complain as I drifted off to sleep on the sky blue silk sheets.. Last thoughts of the comming day and for his safety.

Until Later
Pho

A scare and a ray of hope

2007-05-27T18:20:00.000-04:00

( NOTE: I'm going to be out of town Tuesday so instead of normally splitting this up into two parts, today's post is a bit long. My apologies)
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Blood pounds in my ears, louder than a raging storm.The vision.. it's happening again.. Please.. someone .. anyone make it stop!

I was in the training room with Belda and Godfrey when it started again. It began playing before my eyes like a horror holo. Her screams made me pull at my hair in anguish.. My little one.. my baby!

It was over just as quickly as it had begun. Godfrey was at my side, asking what had happened, what I had seen. As I tried to rise to explain, pain erupted down my spine. My skin felt like it was on fire and I struggled to get my tunics off. When I did manage to do so Godfrey let out a low gasp." What? what's wrong?" I couldn't take the silence.. It was too much.

He guided me to a full length miror and then I saw the cause of my pain.. It looked like I had been burned in intricate patterns straight down my scar. The skin was pitch black and in some places if it was touched it was still burning." what .. what is it?" I asked, looking from one to the other. The stench of burned flesh hung lightly in the room.

"Normally this would be a mark of maturity in your spirit animal, but it is never this bad and it isn't supposed to be this deep" Godfrey said, studying the markings.

I pulled my tunics back into place respectably and turned to him. " is there anyone else who would know more about it?"

He looked thoughtful for a moment" The Onkichi Budokai will begin within a few days.. I've been wanting to go.. It's a tourtament strictly open for the DaiShujo.. There might be people there who could explain this better than I could.. My grandfather is supposed to be there as well.. i was hoping to be able to go but I didn't want to upset you.." he looked away shyly.

" Of course! Godfrey you should compete! Will I at least be allowed to watch?"
He nodded" Since you're in the family .. They'll let you in. We can always bring Belda as well.. Your niece.."

I nodded" So it's settled.. You'll compete in the Onkichi Budokai and we can find out more about this.. thing.."

I could see the excitement on his face, like a little child at Christmas.. i was happy to see him this excited. Though I had the distinct feeling that I wouldn't be seeing much of him for a few days.. When he got to training he was all but religious about it. Didn't matter though.. to him happy , that was reward enough for me.

The next two days passed in relative peace. Debbak and Harroka never far from my mind. While he trained I scoured the city, often going alone while Belda was in classes. I always left my com number with her teachers but asked they not call me unless in an emergency.

I hunted and hunted for my father throughout the alleyways and city streets. Sometimes I would see the flit of a cape or an irregular step that would make me turn with my saber in hand.

All that would greet me was empty air.

The third day in the afternoon I found Godfrey stretched out on the couch ,shoes off, asleep.He was so adorable.. So sweet.. I didn't try to move him but instead I draped a blanket around him and propped a pillow under his head.I headed into the other room and got me a pillow and a blanket too, with a book.
Returning to the couch I spread the blanket on the floor and propped the pillow behind my back.

The book I had gotten was "The little Mermaid" for some odd reason.. Sitting there.. I started reading quietly, one hand looped through his.I had reached the part where the princess gave her voice to the witch to win the prince's love whenever I began to doze finally, book falling into my lap.

When I woke I found myself in bed, the book resting next to me. Something caught my attention and I sat up gasping.. The mark that was on my back had spread down my arms, but much less severe.The tanktop seemed a little too scanty for me and I changed quickly into a longsleeve top and headed out to the living room.

The crono read 0330 .. Godfrey was finishing packing things up in a few bags. I could see his bo staff, a few smaller bags which I figured contained his kamas, sais, tonfas and so forth. There was also a duffel bag resting amongst the others as well.

I placed my bag down with all of the others sitting there and Belda, who I had explained this to a while ago had packed her bag as well and was waiting for the two of us" where are we going?" she asked curiously

I smiled" that I don't even know myself.. Only Godfrey knows.. In fact he hasn't even told me.. Where ARE we going if you don't mind me asking?"

He smiled mysteriously" That's a suprise.. Now come on.. can't be late in getting out of here" We both followed him down to the hangar bay, my mind whirling of where we could be headed. We boarded the ship and he didn't say a word but had us both go and sit in the main room of the ship while he went to the cockpit and set the coordinates before rejoining us.
" What's the.. O..onki..Onkichi Budokai Master Godfrey?" Belda asked him, a puzzled look on her face

He smiled and had her come sit with him while he told the story I had heard hundreds of times. When he tells a story he goes into great detail. The picture the two of them painted made my heart melt.. He was always so good with children, even before I really knew him. I sat and listened, sipping a juice, the atmosphere quiet and relaxed for a change.. Nothing really troubling me, nothing calling for our instant attention.

It was just the three of us.. well five if you want to be picky.. It was cozy it was warm.. We were a family without realizing it.
The ship's engines thrummed under our feet, lulling everyone into a safe secure feeling. If I could simply freeze time here.. I might. I wondered if this is how a mother felt watching her child.. .. But then the thought passed out of recgonition and time..

To freeze time wouldbe both a blessing and a curse. To not see them grow and change.. to become the wonderful people they were ment to be.. That would be among the highest of crimes.. My eyes watched them both , smiling.. feeling content.. No evil could touch us here .We were free, for the moment. Free to be our true selves.

TBC
Pho

Horrid discoveries and some downtime

2007-05-24T22:29:00.000-04:00

I was sick continiously on the way back to Coruscant. Whenever he wasn't busy with the ship,Godfrey was sitting with me. My fever, from what he said had reached 107 by our third day and was still climbing..

When I came to myself again I felt cold, so cold.. He had wrapped me in blankets and put me to bed.. I was cooking from the inside out and it had taken water frozen to almost below freezing to bring my fever down.

" by the gods, you scared me to death" he said to me whenever I was coherent.. The first thing I knew I was enveloped in his arms and he was hugging me breathless.. " Please, don't scare me like that again.. I.. I thought I was going to loose you"I returned his hug with what strength I had in me. He pulled back enough to rain kisses all over my face, whispering nonsense and little endearments to me. I let myself lie against him, happy to be alive, and in his arms.

My hands began roaming his back restlessly and he groaned before releasing me" Not now.. firstly you are too weak for anything of the sort, and second.. Belda is right in the next room, you don't want her to hear us do you?"

That caused me to giggle to no end. " you're right, how much longer before we reach Coruscant?"

His face became grave" We've allready landed, but I asked to keep you on board until your fever went down.. There's .. there's something you need to see Pho.. Yoda told me.. Belda hasn't been told yet either.. They found Debakk and Harroka"

Despite my legs wanting to give out like matchsticks I got up and with Godfrey's help I went down into the hangar bay and followed him to a private room where Yoda waited for us. " Sorrowful this is.. Two innocents these were.. Break this to Belda gently you must"

They removed the cloth from the two forms in the room. There lay the two missing girls, both dead. What made my heart freeze for some moments in my chest was the emblem stamped onto both their faces. I could distinguish the mark of my father on them both. "Oh god.. oh.. " I collapsed onto the floor crying and shaking bitterly " No.. how could this be? I killed his form on Telos.. I.. I killed him"

"Loose in the temple he was thought to be, now we know somewhere on Coruscant he lurks.. Working possibly with two other known criminals.. Marsui and Octavia" I faintly recgonized both the names but I was too sick to care.

" Bring him down you must.. Leave I give to use whatever means nesscary.. May the force be with you all"

I was inconsoliable as I was lifted and carried by Godfrey back to our apartment. Belda followed, confused as to what was going on. When I could speak without wanting to be sick I told Belda in halting tones what had happened.. At first she didn't want to believe me but I opened my mind much as I dared at this point and showed her what I had seen. She collapsed sobbing into my arms where we both cried for some time.

Godfrey was pacing ,feeling rather helpless I could tell. Belda cried herself to sleep, but it was an hour maybe more before I realizied this. Her head rested on my lap while I was seated back against the wall of my bed. When I realizied this, Godfrey picked her up and together we put her to bed before I had to rest some more as well , the sick and paniced feeling never really leaving.

When I woke again it was nightfall. According to Godfrey I had slept at least three days, though the visions had granted me no true sleep From what I heard Yoda put a special message in to Anakin to come back as soon as he was able. God I hated the fact others had to be pulled off missions just for some little psycho brat. DJK still wasn't home.. So I decided to go yank on a certain todler's ear..

" Look I don't give a flying bantha's rear end what the hell demon is causing trouble! I want you to fix this fucking mess you made with the time stream and get her back NOW you thumb sucking coward! Or so help me by god I will be making sure you have to hunt for a new head because I'll stick it on a pike!"

His reply was one that if I wouldn't have been so pissed I would've laughed myself silly" Yess ma'm I'll get right on it.. But if my father finds out.."

" I'M SO MAD RIGHT NOW I COULD KICK YAMMA'S REAR END FROM THE MAKAI TO THIS DIMENSHION AND BACK! NO MORE EXCUSES!"

He hung up.

Satisfied for the moment I took to going to the gym with Belda to drill her on her saber lessons. Now keep in mind I'm usually an easy person to get along with when it comes to saber training, but I think Godfrey's training methods are rubbing off on me.

I drilled her nonstop from 4th chime until almost 10th, the only breaks being for the fresher and water. I think Belda was more than a bit suprised at my actions. She seemed to be more confused than anything.. I explained over a late dinner" I don't think I should've pushed you this far this soon, but I think you need to keep busy.. as do I..Tomorrow we'll have a three way sparring session.. if there is anything that will sharpen your focus it 's that.. No sabers for now.. we'll use bo staves"

As I was cleaning up I looked out over the sky of the city.. Where could he be? Were Obi Wan and Adana somehow tangled up in this? If so were they safe?
I was jerked out of my thinking when Godfrey slipped up behind me and planted a soft kiss on my neck." you're worrying again.." he said gazing at my reflection in the window

" If I don't worry who will?" I asked him as I turned, wrapping both arms around him, back resting on the kitchen sink.

" mmmh.. you're tense too.. too tense.. I'll have to do something about this" a grin quirked his lips and I knew what he had in mind

" Let me just check to make sure Belda is asleep.. Green tea after dinner almost always puts her out like a light, and she gets a peaceful night's sleep"

He nodded , eyes sparkling" Okay.. but don't take too long, I'll be waiting darling"

Drying his hands on the towel he dissapeared into our room, shutting the door.

I checked on Belda quickly. She was sound asleep. A gentle mind touch sent her into a deeper sleep still to ensure she would not wake until morning.. I adjusted the dreamcatcher I had placed in her room and gave a single tap with spirit energy to activate it before I headed to our room..

There were a few candles lit and soft strains of my favroite song " Once in a Million years" were floating through the room.. He smiled and took my hand.. " you need to be pampered.. let me.. "

He handed me a terry cloth robe and told me to go slip that on while he finished arranging things.. I did as he asked.. when I returned.. he had arranged every pilow in the room just about into a veritable mountain on the bed which he had me lie down on before reaching for a bottle that sat on the nightstand.

The robe slid slightly off my shoulders, revealing part of my upper back. Hycantith oil.. by the gods he is ammazing..

Some hours later after he had finished my massage and wherein I insisted on returning the favor, we were lying in bed,my arm wrapped around his neck from behind, his draped over my waist.It was moments like these I treasured.. moments like these that gave me the courage to get up and face the day again when everything seemed lost and forgotten.

Without him I would not have the resolve I do.. Without him.. I'm not the woman you see, I would be nothing. Just a scared and frightened little girl who is always in the wrong place at the wrong time.. Let me stay in this moment forever.. Let me stay in his arms.. this.. this is truer than any miracle. the fact he loves me and I love him

TBC

Til Later
Pho

Return of the Raven pt 2

2007-05-21T17:32:00.001-04:00

Atris stepped from her hiding place. I sprang back, saber at the ready. I was no fool to come here unarmed.

" Ready to fight are you? But your opponent is not ready yet.. I have my mistress' orders.. No one fights you.. except for the one who rests within."

" Demonic harlot!" I shouted before going after her though she flipped out of my reach easily.

" Oh yes, wear yourself out.. it will be so poetic.. the sognbird killed by the raven.."

I had it.. no one was going to push me around anymore.. NO ONE. Out of every cell of my body power,raw untapped, fearsome power came.. It was like a thunderous tidal wave. This time it was not force lightning but fire.. Pure white fire that exploded out of my hands and I threw it at Atris with all of my being. She screamed as she was released from that body .

I ran to the maulseoum doors and thew them open with a bang. There was Marasha and Hoth, and..
" MARASHA! COME AND MEET YOUR DESTRUCTION!"

I ignited my saber again and pulled another weapon from my belt. I pushed the button and three tendrils of light whipped out. " GET OUT HERE! I'm giving you three seconds or I will come in there and drag you out by your lying tongue!"

A sneer on her lips Marasha appeared, saber in a low ready stance. " Aww, upset that we're hurting your poor pathetic father?"

Something snapped.

I went after her, blue blade moving in a blur as she raised her saber frantically trying to swat away my strikes." that all you got?" she sneered, raising her red blade to meet my blue one as it came down to strike her shoulder.Adrenline was pumping through my body , blood rushing in my ears. I would not stop, not until this little demon was dead.. she had brought misery upon the temple, she was the apprentice of the demon who made MY life hell.. She would die, and by my hand.

I could hear Godfrey shouting for me to stop, that I couldn't keep up this pace.. I could hurt myself.. I could hear Belda as well begging me to let her handle Marasha. I heeded neither of them. I had stood back while others had fought my battles. it felt like my body was on fire.. bright hot and burning stronger still.

"Marasha move. This fight is mine"

My eyes turned to the maulesoum and my heart skipped a beat.Blood, adrenline , fire and power swarmed in my body and my brain making for a bright super nova. " So she's done it.. she's brought you back.. Father"

" You will adress her as her highness, Emperess Ravenstone!"

Double blades ignited, he charged me, black cloak flickering like a raven. Snapping the whip I caught the first blade round the hilt and ripped it from his hands. " She is evil father! Please! I know you feel the council betrayed you but look! I am here I am alive! I am a JEDI!"
He sneerd" you are no daughter of mine! You are weak!"

Blood became lava burning my insides. this was not my father.. this was not Xanatos. this was a demonic creation of that sith dog.I could hear my heartbeat pounding in my ears and it as excactly five beats later that my saber grew hot under my touch and snakelike whisps of fire coated mybody and became red. It was like .. feathers..?

Godfrey pulled Belda back when she tried to run to me" No.. she has to deal with this on her own.. It won't be near as bad as when I change"

I was changing.. morphing.. into..

Xanatos gasped as I rose into the air above him.. I could see my reflection in his eyes... I had become a phoenix!

All of my rage,all of my anger and hate made my body burn brighter and brighter, eyes becoming sharper and sharper.. I could not speak, but I spoke through the force " I will set you free from this, return you to the good man you once were"

I dove straight down, the fire catching and burning at only Xanatos and his cape. He screamed as I dropped to the ground, a human now, clothes only semi torn." I'm sorry dad.. I'm so sorry"

The last look he gave me was anger and hate.. pure evil...More destruction.

I turned on Marasha and Hoth" you both want me? come get me you bastards.. I'll kill you both"
Saber and whip raised the three of us battled fiercely until the tide turned.. Hoth stepped left when he should have stepped right.His head went flying off his shoulders hitting the maulesum wall.

Marasha and I locked eyes. " I have my orders.. your evil ends here"Sweat poured down my face and body, my amrs were shaking..

Godfrey stepped up next to me" Rest.. You won't be able to stand for much longer now after your first change.. She's mine"

I nodded falling back onto the grass next to the gothic looking tomb. Belda knelt next to me" Master are you okay?" I nodded, then I promptly passed out.

When I woke something was diffrent.. I couldn't pinpoint it.. I sat up stiffly" Oh.. what.. what happened?" I felt like I had been sick for years.. I couldn't get my head to stop spinning.. " She's gone.. I almost had her.. Pho I'm so sorry.. "

I shook my head" It's ok.. We just need to get home.. "

I was so weak Godfey had to carry me back down the mountain and back to the ship. I felt like a fool, arguing the whole way telling him I could walk no problem. Stubroun man wouldn't even listen.. So I figured, I might as well enjoy this.

I rested my head on his shoulder, the sound of his heartbeat lulling me into sleep. Sleep was the best thing for me I would guess.I needed my strength. Espically for what I would find when we reached Coruscant..

TBC

Til Later
Pho

The Savage Garden

2007-05-16T00:56:00.000-04:00

They think they have her cornered.. The fools. What they do not realize Is I have manupliated this for years. Long before i was imprisioned in that acursed book. It all started in one foolish emotion which began the grand scheme. .Even now he sits unawares, not knowing that sooner or later he will fall to his deistiny and become my true right hand.

Marasha the pathetic brat fits my purpose for now. Her childlike looks fool many into feeling sympathy and pity for her.

Their mistake.

But when the time comes I will destroy her like I have destroyed countless before her. I trust no one save myself. Anyone who gets close to me will be exterminated.

And I will laugh.

Bit by bit I am bringing those back who are needed to my side. The most anicent of Jedi, or those who the council has turned their backs on one time or another. bring them into the brotherhood of Set.

Together with the brotherhood under my control once more and the gryphon cannon at my beck and call, the galaxy will soon be back where it belongs . Under my control..

A long time ago I found that all men are fit for are procreation or to be used as servents. They have no free will of their own. They have proven this time and again by the countless crimes they commit. The galaxy flourished under a woman's hand once, it shall again.

Sidious.. I know the mask he hides behind.. A pathetic one which will soon crackle like wood on a fire.

Even as my right hand he will have no power.. Not power like mine anway. I made a costly mistake once many years ago and brought a man known as Bane up like a son.

That mistake almost cost me ly life. In a way it did.

Soon the skies will rain with brimstone and lava.. Once again Mustafar will feeze in an eternal ice age. Wails of the suffering will rend the air. The anguished cries of a mother as her child is stolen from her arms.The sorrow of a family.. Water becomes blood,wine turns to ash...

Soon , very soon.. I will reclaim my rightful place as emperess.. And this time there is no one to stop me.

If you want to blame someone for this.. look among your own.. Look no further than Phobia Deimos. The harbringer of destruction.

Dance in the Devil's garden
Catia.

Return of the Raven Pt 1

2007-05-16T00:37:00.000-04:00

The nearer we got to Telos, the more shivers danced down my spine. I had explained to Godfrey and Belda we must not reveal we were Jedi knights. I was the last surviving heir to Xanatos' fortune and my husband and I needed to come and make some arrangements before moving to our new home on Naboo.

"but why must we keep secret the fact we are Jedi?" Belda asked me

" Because, the circumstances of my father's death left many Telosnosians feeling bitter hatred towards the Jedi of the Repbulic..We need to be careful"

The ship landed and we disembarked, dressed in typical civillian clothes. I wrapped an arm around Godfrey's waist and took Belda's hand." remember no using the force unless we are in danger"We walked down the ramp to greet the head of the Offworld Corpration.

" you say you are the daughter of Xanatos?"

I nodded" yes.. I only found out a little while ago and have come to claim my inheratance.. I have fallen down on my luck and need the money.. We don't want our daughter to grow up starving and having to resort to stealing for food.."I pulled Belda close smiling sadly.

" Well we just need to perform a small blood test ot make certain and all will be arranged"
I nodded and the man went out of the room. A kind woman with blonde hairand green eyes walked in with a syringe and a small vial. I rolled up my sleeve and offered her my arm." this might hurt a bit miss.. plese try and hold still." The needle was one of those 6 inch long ones and

I paled a little but nodded.I turned my head away and felt the pinprick and a few moments later I was bandaged up and out of the way.

When we were alone I looked around the room. This had to have been dad's room.. it spoke volumes in the force to me. When the man returned I asked" um.. I was wondering.. I know my father died under suspicious circumstances, but I was wondering.. can I see where he rests? please?"

" Of course, and the blood test came out fine.. You can collect as much as you need within the hour"

"Thank you. .Belda, come on. We need to go place some flowers on Grandpa's grave"
We exited the room and made our way out where a redheaded woman waited for us. " Come, I'll take you to him"

We walked the wild paths up into the mountains. Above the city the view was breathtaking. " I will wait for you here.. it's at the top of the hill.. when you are ready come and find me."
I went ahead of the others, climbing the path as though I had been here before. An old song haunted my steps.. one I remembered hearing him sing.. I don't know from when or where though..

" Ma di la yo pan yon gonsi o da kesta dway bi ming milan les sa v ya fe ous su nigh o don give in to a crus sa gan lo gas sa to di la pin yaro may dor gin gway la di li cho me da la le la ya fin yarro ba le ma mor ma day bre ghan"

The sun was dipping lower in the horizion as the song echoed over and over form my lips like a broken record. finally when it seemed to unwind itself from my being, I could hear a hollow laugh and claping from the shadows of the mauseloum.

" Bravo.. voice of a songbird.. shame I'll have to cut it out"

I turned to see...

TBC
Til Later
Phobia

Out of the frying pan, into hell pt2

2007-05-13T02:32:00.000-04:00

We moved seamlessly as we dueled the two newly arisen masters. A fleeting thought crossed my mind that Anakin and Obi Wan would have been jealous of how well we were doing. My eyes briefly flickered over to Belda. Apparently those kata lessons had been paying off well because she was not only holding her own against Marasha but she was winning.

Let's finish this

A brief smile tugged his lips Double Heilix or the Armegedon twister?

I was feeling particularly vindictive Armagedon Twister.. these two had it comming
We moved back to back, sabers raised in a defense position.I stepped just behind Godfrey's left leg with my right and let him sweep my balance from under me as though it were a seemingly stupid mistake. As I tumbled to the ground I held my saber up straight, embedding itself in Hoth's stomach.

Godfrey jumped over me and Atris gave chase. I rolled to my feet and jammed my saber in her back , getting clear before she could fry me.

There was something suprising about these two.. They had no blood in their veins.. They were all sand.. The two looked up at us and just, disentrgrated.

Belda was still locked in combat with Marasha. They were batteling at the edge of the pit. I could feel the anger and frustration pouring off of Belda. Torn between normal emotions and wanting to fufill her destiny. I ran forward just as she was about to shove Marasha over into the lava

" Belda stop!"

She turned to me, anger flashing in her eyes" Why? she deserves to die! I want to squeeze the life out of her with my bare hands!"

I knew that tone, it was one I knew well" Belda listen to me, she is confused.. she has had nothing but evil as an example"

" She made her choice!"

" No! she only HAD one choice. She only sees one path. Belda.. you are the hope and light.. it is people like these who need your help the most."

" But.. but.. Master Qui Gon.. how could she?" Belda was stuttering now.. confused herself..

" If you want to blame someone.. blame me.. if I had never opened the grimorie She would still be trapped" My voice grew quiet at the end.. It was the truth.. if I had never opened it.. all this would not be happening..

Belda shut off her saber and tucked it on her belt. " I see what you mean master.. But it is not your fault.. you only sought a place to belong.. you were simply at the wrong place at the wrong time."

Marasha grinned and dove for Belda, saber ignited.

" BELDA LOOK OUT!" I dove in front off her to try and block the blade but even I wasn't fast enough. I could feel the red blade singe my thigh. I cried out and dropped to my knees, hands over my wound.

Marasha threw back her head and laughed wickedly" this is perfect! now I get to kill you both!"

Before I realizied what was happening, Godfrey was standing in front of us, double bladed saber humming quietly" you want to fight Marasha? You fight me." His voice was deadly calm and that yellowish glem was in his eyes like before on Endor.

She raised her saber in the form of a Makashi duelist. " so be it".

The fight didn't last as long as I thought, Godfrey was in no mood for games with this spoiled sith brat. Maybe a minute or less and Marasha's saber was spinning out of her hands.

Then it was just us.. Catia gone, Hoth , Atris, Marasha all gone. Dissapeared.

I rose with help from both of them and returned to the ship. once I was settled Godfrey went to go look for some bacta for my leg. Belda turned and asked me" Where are we heading now master?"

I knew where she would go next, I would stop her there, if I had to kill her myself" Telos.. she intends to bring back someone I will NOT allow !"

Godfrey returned and knelt before me, placing the bacta patch on my leg" You don't mean.. "

" Yes.. she went to her homeworld. .now she will go to mine.. She wants to bring back father.. "

" Who?" Belda asked puzzled

I took a shallow breath before answering" Belda, my father.. he was Xanatos. Qui Gon's first apprentice"

TBC

Til Later

Pho

Out of the frying pan, into hell pt1

2007-05-10T17:12:00.000-04:00

The first thing I remember is the heat. The heat was stifling so much I could barely breathe.I had changed into the lightest robes I could find. Godfrey and Belda had done the same thing When we walked down the ramp the heat was even more intesne.

We climbed through rickety outcroppings towards a huge volcano in the center of the ground. . Belda stulmbled and started to fall forward towards the lava, but I latched onto the back of her tunic and pulled her back.

" Down there!" Godfrey called over the roar of the lava. I could see Marasha and a hooded figure next to her rushing for the tunnel. I'm not quite excactly sure how I got down there so fast but I reached the mouth of the tunnel first.

I saw them about 50 yards ahead of me. I looked back despretly at Belda and Godfrey who were just behind me and then to the two who were growing smaller and smaller in the distance.

"I'm going on ahead!" I didn't wait for a response, I rushed down the tunnel.

My mind was zeroed in on the two figures nearby.I launched myself into a spinning corkscrew turn and landed smoothly in front of Marasha and her" freind"

" It's over Marasha. Return the urns"

She laughed and the figure threw back it's hood.. My heart froze in my throat.. how could this be? Before me stood both master and apprentice..

" So suprised to see me Phobia? I have power beyond your wildest dreams.. Welcome to your tomb"

She raised her hand and the rocks began to shake. NO! I wouldn't let her hurt the two people who I had come to care for most!

I raised my hand identically" Go ahead Catia, shake down the walls, but I swear to god you kill them I go too.. and your back to square one"

She lowered her hand.. Well that was something.

" Now I won't ask you again. Give the urns you stole to me!"

Catia sneered" Go to hell, oh wait you're allready here.. Welcome to the demon's playground.. Now I'll show you why NO ONE CROSSED ME!"

The ground began to shake and glow.. I looked down.. oh crap.. this was not good, I had walked headlong into a trap.. I sprang backwards just as Belda and Godfrey caught up with me.

" Are you out of your damn mind?" he asked me, yanking me back from where the chasm was growing wider" you could've gotten yourself killed!" He was mad at me and , truthfully rightly so. I just couldn't let Marasha get away though, not when she was right within our grasp!

A stone like coffin rose out of the ground, swirls and symbols painted on the lid. As it cooled the coffin opened to reveal a man..

I quickly covered Belda's eyes while I took a guard stance. He was about the same size as Qui Gon but it was not him. Elder by a few years.. Silver hair tied into a warrior's bun atop his head and piercing brown eyes. A gasp left my lips.. " Hoth..".

The ground shook again and a second coffin revealed itself. it was slimmer , a female coffin. As Lord Hoth stepped from his coffin and took the bundle of clothes offered to him the second coffin opened.

A woman rose out of the coffin, snow white hair and blue eyes. She was dressed in white robes of a Jedi Historian. There was no doubt in my mind who she was. " Atris.."

Both walked to Catia and dropped to one knee, arm across their chest. Grinning manically, she handed them both elgantly crafted lightsabers.

They nodded their heads in unison and rose from their positions, turning towards us. I moved back against Godfrey and Belda. " Godfrey, Hoth.. Belda.. Marasha is yours.. Atris is mine."

We moved as one, my lightsaber was already ignited, spinning in my hands. Atris proved to be a formidible opponent, matching me blow for blow. Suddenly a red glow came into her eyes and I just narrowly missed being fried by a blast of sith lightning. " So you want to play rough eh?
Well I didn't get stuck with Catia for 20 years with nothing!"

I jumped back , flipping over Godfrey and Hoth who were dueling in a fast and furious blur and felt the force crackle around me. My mind was clear as it had ever been. it was like.. God unless you experience it it's nearly impossible to explain but the force moved with my will and shot for Atris from my fingertips. You guessed right.

I just used force lightning. On my own volition, not with Catia's aid.. on my own .

Atris was blown back into the rock wall and collapsed into a heap.. I turned just as Godfrey somersaulted over my head and reaching behind his back for something. Hoth came barreling for him and I parried the blow just as Atris rose and twisted towards me.

Two blades of blue light ignited and parried Atris's strike at my head. I was momentarily shocked and rather impressed as well. A double bladed saber? Well.. He's full of suprises.

TBC
Until Later
Pho

Nightmares and Dreamscapes

2007-05-08T02:09:00.000-04:00

The trip from Naboo to Endor was a silent and tense one. I wasn't paying much attnetion to anyone or anything really. I only took food whenever I was pressured to by Godfrey or Belda. The rest of the time I either simply stared out the window or slept.My spirt felt run down and ragged.

I could tell in my apperance too, there was no " life energy" I was like one of those macabre statues that served the necromancer's bidding.

We finally arrived on Endor two days later. The moment I stepped off the ship the warm air hit my face like steam. there was no doubt.. She had been here.. The question now was.. Was she still here?

With some help from the Ewoks and a few humans who had decided to call Endor their home we found out that yes. She had been here, and yes we had missed her. But she left with someone who apparently she had met on planet.My stomach sunk through the ground..

We were taken to where she had stayed. A spartan cabin. Her childlike looks had decieved them all into thinking that she had "been seperated from her papa" as she had told them and if she stayed here he would come and search for her.

" What did the person look like she left with?" Godfrey asked, , a muscle was working in his jaw. ire building.

" He was tall about six feet with brown hair, dressed like you two.He had a beard "

Belda's cries of horror pierced my brain and I dropped to my knees shaking uncontroably.. Had she done it? Had she commited the sacrilige?

Godfrey helped me to my feet and looped an arm under mine. " Did she give any indication as to where she was going?"

The young man shook his head

So here we were , at an impasse. Did we go back to Coruscant? Or did we search further, hopefully yielding a clue as to where she was heading now?

It was just then a small foot kicked inside of me, causing me to jump.I turned to Godfrey who was studying the cabin with a critical eye. " one of the twins just kicked me" I mumured, giggling like an insane girl on chocolate.

His eyes lit up, a grin breaking across his face" Really?" he placed a hand on my stomach. I wasn't all that far along,but they were stronger than any usual children. Another kick and I blinked, whichever of them it was, they were pointing towards the right. I went over, kneeling by the corner of the cabin. thee was a small red stone there" Firestone" I said holding it up for the other two to see..

Belda nodded" There was some that used to grow on Catia's homeworld! I remember reading about it in the archives!"

Well we were going from one extreme to the other. The next ingredient she needed was lavarock. And there was only one place in the whole galaxy to get that..
Mustafar.

Bidding our goodbyes to the Ewoks, who had given us each a present, despite our protests we left the planet within a few hours..As Godfrey steered the ship out into orbit I relxed in my chair.. There would a break in this mission on Mustafar one way or another.
TBC
Til Later
Pho

Too Late

2007-05-03T00:07:00.000-04:00

The trip to Naboo was a quiet and solem one.Belda was deeply upset whenever we told her all of what happened and I had sent her to bed for the time being, she seemed like she wanted to be sick, and no one could blame her.Godfrey and I were up in the cockpit talking quietly.

" What do you think we'll find when we get there?"

" Honestly, or do you want the best possible outcome?"

" Honestly"

" I think that the second urn will be gone too. Marasha didn't take the first without reason. Catia does nothing without reason"

I could only nod,wanting to cry. Was nothing sacred anymore? How far would she go?

" We'll stop her Pho. We have to."

I did start crying then" but Godfrey what if we CAN'T? What if she carries through whatever plan she is concoting? i'm sick of fighting her. I'm sick of this whole thing. I just want peace. I want to be able to have my childen without having to look over my shoulder every second of every day. I don't want to have to worry that my family will be ripped apart just because of some stupid tradition or because of a two timing bastard who I now consider my brother! is that too much to ask? I just want everyone to live in peace"

My whole body collapsed to the floor of the ship like a puppet and for the next few minutes I could do nothing but cry. I cried for myself, I cried for my children, I cried for Godfrey, and I cried for everyone who could not or would not shed tears.A moment later Godfrey was kneeling next to me and pulling me back into my chair. " We can get through this Pho.. You're strong, so am I. Together we can defeat anything. there's hope yet, just believe. I know that's hard for you considering all that's happened. But please.. Believe for us.. Believe for your children.. for the family we'll have soon"

I looked up from where I was hiding behind my hair which had fallen down into a mess. " Yes.. your right.. for Tai and Mara.." A small alarm beeped letting us know we were on approach to Naboo.I went into the other room and woke Belda before gathering my robe from the chair.

We made or way down the ramp and were greeted by a shaken Queen Jamilla. All three of us bowed but she waved it off immeditly" Forget the formalities .. I heard what happened.. I regret to inform you, you are too late."

She explained that just hours ago a young girl with curly blonde hair had claimed to be a gardener had stolen the key to the zen gardne and broken in , stealing the urn. And when Jamilla had tried to stop her Marasha had held her hostage in order to escape.
We took the key from Jamilla and walked past towards the locked door.

All of us took our shoes off and bowed in respect before entering.The floor was cool bricks and foliage and flowers grew everywhere. Deeper and deeper into the garden we walked, flowers reaching out towards us. One lone rose brushed my cheek and a ghost of a smile corssed my face.Finally we came to the center of this marvelous garden.

It was a place that had been well and lovingly tended. The living force thrived fully here. A place Qui Gon would've truly loved. There was a fountain nearby, the sound of water splashing up against a stone pedastal. I could feel Marasha's taint here. The pedastal was empty

I turned to Godfrey who stood there, arms at his sides, eyes wandering over the garden, looking for any other clues I suspected.Belda stood next to me, clingingto my free arm , looking dejected as ever. I didn't know what to say or do. For the first time in my life, I had no idea where to go next.

Godfrey's eyes seemed to glow greenish for a moment before he turned to me" Com Master Yoda and tell him we failed to recover the second urn.We need to head to Endor next. See this dirt here?" he pointed to the bootprint I hadn't noticed before. " It's red soil, native only to Endor. There's something else Marasha needs there, black silt soil. It's abundant there"

I comed Master Yoda and explained to him that we had made it too late and where we are headed next. When I told him what Godfrey believed Marasha needed next, I could hear a choking sound across the com.

" Master Yoda? Master Yoda are you allright?"I hoped he hadn't gotten ill or anything. When he answered again he sounded every inch of his 830 years. " Go to Endor with the speed of the force you must. Stop this sith child at all costs you will. She must not reach her master alive."

I then realized what he was saying. I was given the order to do whatever I had to, even kill Marasha, to stop her from commiting this atrocity.The thought of killing a child made me sick but I knew in the end I would do whatever I needed to.

We left bowing to Queen Jamilla once again . She had outfitted our ship for the trip , food, clothes and spare parts for any eletronics.

" Well that was awfully nice of her" Godfrey said as we rocketed into orbit.

I snorted" yah only because she was making goo goo eyes at you.. stupid painted hutt doll"

Godfrey looked at me confused then I rather snapped" Are you freaking blind? she probably would've tried to cop a feel if she thought I wouldn't kill her"

He turned crimson and had the good sense to keep quiet.. Thank god we had a dart board.. and I found a picture of Sidious.. the thing was filled with holes within minutes.. pissed off much? Yeah I was so sue me.. it would blow over before we hit Endor.. I'm like any other woman, I don't like other women fawning over any man I'm with and definitly NOT my husband. You hear that? screw off Jamilla! He's mine!

Til Later
Pho

This was low..

2007-04-29T03:44:00.000-04:00

The next morning came way too quickly for me. I was as comfortable and peaceful as I had been in a very long time. Godfrey's chin was resting on my shoulder, a leg wrapped around both of mine. The morning air was cool, blowing in from the slightly opened windows. Lisette hopped up on the bed and started rubbing my hand purring anxiously with her trade mark" feed me stupid" look on her face.

A part of me wanted to just float the can out from the cupboard open it and dump it in her bowl so I could stay in bed. But I knew if I did that someone was BOUND to call needing one of us in minutes and the peace would be ruined. Grumbling the whole way I edged myself away from Godfrey and slid out of bed, wrapping a robe around me padding out to the kitchen.Suprisingly

Belda was already out there praticing kata over in the corner. She was comming along with Heian Shodon quite nicely, just a little work on the knifehand blocks and it would be perfect. I knew Godfrey would be happy with her progress. " Oh! good morning master! I hope I didn't wake you two" she said smiling sheepishly.

I went over to the cupboard and opened Lisette's food , spooning some into the dish before setting it down to the purring monster. " No you were fine Belda, , this one" I jerked my thumb towards the cat who was munching contentedly face first in the dish" woke me up. if it hadn't have been her someone else would've . I know too well by now."

I set the table for breakfast and started pulling things from the cupboards for us and got the bacon going while Belda pulled out the orange juice from the fridge. " Master you said last night about something to make sure Marasha doesn't come here again.. What are you planning to do?"
I placed breakfast on the table for Belda and Godfrey who came out into the kitchen robe trailing a little and the cutest sleepy expression on his face. " That you will see after breakfast"

After breakfast I dressed and went to the center living area and after moving some things around so we had a clear area, I started setting things into place.Tapping my spirit powers I could see the black dustclouds Marasha had left in her wake. Godfrey brought me a smaller chest that I kept for occasions such as this. These tools had been given to me as a gift from Master Paradox. I removed the old oakhandle brrom and began sweeping away the negative energy . The broom being empowered by light each time it touched a black tumbleweedish dustcloud it simply vanished. Replacing The broom in the chest next came the salt. Belda was peering curiously into the chest." What's all this master?"

Smiling as I walked around the circle I explained" My master and I were attacked by a sith in our quaters,much like last night. My master brought this out and told me we neded to clean away the negative energy so she could not draw on it, like a fish to bait." I stopped in the center of the circle. On the floor was a five pointed star surounded by a circle. A symbol of my master's people .A grin of relazation crept across my brain. I remembered that day. My master had told me" Someday you will have to explain all this to YOUR padawan."

Never at that time did I ever think I'd have a padawan. Nor did I think I would be married, pregnant and training the child of light. But I digress

" Belda will you please hand me the blue, white, green and red candles as well as the two white taper candles. Godfrey, the silver miror please?"

Godfrey passed me the miror and I called a black candle to my hand and lit it.

" We are immune to their malice, their hate.We will not accept their guilt, or their intolernace. their words and thoughts are no bane to us!" I clutched the candle tightly in my right hand and brought the flame close to the glass.

I gathered all the spiritual energy present in the room and used it to back my own. The black wax dripped on the miror and hissed harshly like acid before it became just wax. "Neither master nor apprentice will hold sway over us any longer. The chains are cast away. Darkness be gone you have no place here!!"

For a moment the black candle flared lighting the other six candles which Belda had placed correctly. I snuffed the black candle and broke it in half before grinding it under my foot.

" Pho why does it feel like that some dark cloud has been lifted from the temple?"Godfrey asked as I handed him the miror wrapped in black cloth.

" Because it has been. Now the door is closed. It must be locked"
I picked up a moonstone that was resting near the bottom of the trunk. The whole thing was littered with stones of various assortments. Walking around to each of the candles i held the stone above until it glowed bright hot in my hand . Clutching it tightly I repeated the rhyme my master taught me to keep evil away from my dreams.. I hoped it still worked for someone, but I was going to add something to it.

" Pain given pain returned, thrice around the circle's bound evil sink into the ground. Shed my tears and lock thedoor Evil come into this place nevermore! Protect those of light seen and unseen gather us all in quiet harmony"

I let the moonstone drop to the floor holding my hand.Normally even under such intesne heat it would've held up. But it smashed into a million pieces. I could hear the force clear as a bell. It screamed" DANGER!" in my head like nails on a chalkboard and I could hear people shouting down the hall. A few movements and the apartment looked like it's normal self. All three of us ran out to see what was going on.

There was a small crowd around the room of a thousand fountains. I slipped in the side door and ran to where several council members were standing with grave looks on their faces. I saw master yoda and I bowed quickly before speaking" Please masters, what has happened?" then I saw it. there was a place of honor where Master Qui Gon's urn, one of two rested. the second was on Naboo hidden well in the capital city of Theed, under lock and key in the queen's private apartments in a small zen shrine.

The urn was gone

A chill of cold fear dropped into my stomach before Yoda answered " Stolen Master Qui Gon's remains have been. To Naboo we must send a capable pair of knights to bring back the second urn where it can be safeguarded. Unpunished this travesty will not be." Master Yoda was as upset as I had ever seen him. His hands shook as he clutched his grimer stick . "Not many there are who I would trust with such a task. Qui Gon was a good man. He does not deserve this now after so long.. To be taken away from the place he called home!"

Tears welled in the ancient masters eyes, and I did the only thing sensible. I dropped down onto my knees and hugged him close, letting him know that he was not alone.. that someone WAS there, though it might not seem like it.

Moments seemed to pass slowly but I didn't move an inch. Finally he let go and stepped back, seemingly better for the hug. But before he let go entirely he mumured only loud enough that I could hear" A fine mother you'll make"

I nearly fell over. Was he saying he KNEW?

He stepped back and cleared his throat" To Naboo I will send you and Godfrey. With the hope that you two can avoid any further potential crisis before others find out " I had a good idea what he meant. If Anakin found out , or Obi Wan for that matter, the temple would be in chaos. Between the three of us, I was the one with the level head here.

" Make haste you must, for in a few short days Anakin is due back from his mission. Go to Naboo and check on the second urn you will . Make sure security is strong. Then wait there. Whoever took the urn will strike again, this I am sure"

I bowed and quickly hurried out, meeting Belda and Godfrey in the hall.

" Belda run back to your room and pack a fast bag. We leave for Naboo in 10 minutes"
She took off quick as she could, picking up on my urgency. Godfrey and I pratically ran back behind her and threw some things together and were on the ship within 5 minutes.When we were in orbit I turned to the others and sat down in a chair to calm my racing heartrate. This was going to sicken me for even the words passing my lips." The reason we are going to Naboo is that, the urn in the room of a thousand fountains was stolen. Qui Gon's urn."

Godfrey broke out in a cold sweat and Belda's eyes pratically bugged out of her head." They fear whoever stole the first urn will try for the second.In fact I know they will.. There were void pockets all around the pedastal. " Godfrey and I exchanged a look. We both knew what that meant.

Marasha had stolen the urn, for Catia.

The question was why?

TBC

Pho

A midnight meeting

2007-04-24T22:59:00.000-04:00

The briefing seemed to drag on for hours though it was only a short hour. I must have been as ill as I felt. Master Mundi saw this and asked me" Are you sure that you are up to this? I could have Godfrey go in your place.."

I immeditly shot that idea down.. This was my job and I would drag myself through pits and hell efore I would let someone have to shoulder my work, even my husband.

My job seemed simple. there was a third girl by the name of Marsha missing. Master Mundi seemed to think that she had a connection to the dissaperances of the other two.My job was to sit and wait for her to come out..

She was always limpsed in the temple wandering the hall near my room always at midnight. The fact that I hadn't sensed or felt her disturbed me greatly and aroused my suspicions as to who was really behind this.

Later that night I sat propped against a small stack of pillows, though in truth they felt like a mountain.. Godfrey and Belda seemed eager to make me comfortable as possible.The clock chimed quater til 12 and all of a sudden my head felt like it was going to split open. I could feel darkside waves howling all around the room and the windows banged and clattered noisily. the headache eased slowly like a wine cork under pressure.

When the clock hit midnight I could see a shadow rising up near the window.

It was a young girl near Belda's age with curly blonde hair.I don't know how I knew but this girl seemed familiar.. I turned to welcome her" Hello Marsha"

She seemed taken aback that I knew of her but then started spouting anger and nonesnese aimed almost directly at Belda. This tirade was almost identical to what I had been suffered to listen to for years. When she mentioned her " master" it seemed Godfrey had been thinking along the same lines I had been. He retrieved a small picture from the trunk done in watercolor but the face was unmistakeable" Is this your master?" he asked her, standing near enough to
Belda that if Marsha tried to attack her he would intercept her.

My ire rised a few notches when she out and out called him a thief but somehow he managed to keep the situation under control" just answer a few questions for us and the picture is yours"
She flopped down in one of the nearby chairs and nodded curtly" Fine I'll answer your stupid questions, what harm can it do?"

Godfrey took a seat oppisite her and Belda sat down next to me" How did you come by this picture orignally?"

" My master gave it to me"

" The year is 20 BBY, when did your master give you this?"

" 766 BBY"

Godfrey and I exchanged glances.. No.. it couldn't be..

" That's right my master called me back from the dead! called me back to retrieve what was stolen from her!"

I had a sneaking suspicion of what was stolen form her or so she claimed.. But I had to ask.. " Marsha, what did she bring you back to retrieve?"

She stood flinging her arms out" The grimorie and the music box! she wants them both back!"
I could see the path Marsha was traveling down..Catia was exploiting Marsha's trust like she had exploited my love for Obi Wan at one time. this would not end well.. " Marsha I ask you to hear me.. Catia trusts no one.. she has no allies. her only ally is herself.. in the end she will dennounce you and leave you to the wolves! please turn back before it is too late!"

She sneered at me" Oh I know all of what is going on.. I know my master can hear me for she rests in your pathetic body. I know how she kept you under her thumb all these years.. And still I know how you defy the council with him!" she jerked her thumb over her shoulder towards Godfrey.

Belda jumped to her feet" Stop Marsha! my master only wants to help you!"

She laughed" like how mine helped me? when she would strike me? "
Belda and Marsha were suddenly nose to nose beofre either of us could stop them" my master has never struck me! Catia was the one who struck me! My master has been nothing but kind to me!"

" You're a weakling just like she is! She is a liar! she is no Jedi! Look how she defies the code ! Not only did she marry but she even went further than that! You know those two twins she told you about? Well they are her's! She is going to be a mother! Did she tell you that? Did she trust you with that secret? the one she won't even tell her trusted brother Anakin!"

The whole confession I could see took her by suprise.. Belda turned to me" why didn't you tell me the truth master?" She looked near to tears.

I walked over to her and knelt on one knee" I did it to protect you Belda. you are like a daughter to me. it killed me not to tell you the enitre truth but I am no fool. I know Godfrey and I will be found out sooner or later by the council. This way they cannot punish you for what you did not know. now you know the whole truth. If you believe I lie to you now, look into the force.. it never lies"

Those had to be the longest three seconds of my entire life.

" I understand Master, and I do appreciate you wishing to protect me. But you and Master Godfrey will not always be here. I need to know how to stand on my own"
I nodded" Yes Belda.. I know.. but it's a little hard for me to let go. From now on I promise you, no more secrets between us"

" No more secrets"

A light shined briefly as I hugged her and I got to my feet. Marsha darted past me and grabbed Belda in a headlock and brought her saber to her throat" Now.. since this pathetic display of effection is over. Bring me the grimorie and the music box. NOW!" The red blade inched closer to Belda's throat.

" What if we refuse?"

" Then this pathetic whelp dies! you have one hour"

I wasn't about to give her the grimorie.. I knew what Catia planned to do once she had her hands on that book. She would kill me certainly.

I rose from my chair of pillows and went to the trunk. Rummaging around in the trunk I found the box in a place I had never seen in the trunk beofre. Brining it back I tossed it to Marsha" Here.. there's the music box"

She let Belda go and smirked" one down and one to go"

" That's the only one you're getting" I snapped. My stomach was about to give on me and I didn't want to leave Belda and Godfrey alone with this little Claudia psycho( yeah I read Interview with the Vampire )

" Then I'll take this little twit to Sidious and let him have her.. How would you like to face the council and tell them your apprentice is now Sidious' slave?"
I could feel anger creeping up my spine " You hurt her and you will NOT walk out of this room alive!" My patience was fast waining.

" Oh so you'll resort to murdering a child? real Jedi of you"

" I will do whatever I must to protect Belda. I'm giving you this chance to walk out now without any reprucussions. i suggest you take it. " My hand was slowly creeping towards my saber.

The clock chimed 12:15 " 45 minutes left now!"

I could see Marsha was either going to leave in a body bag or with the grimorie. The latter of which gave me an idea.

"Godfrey.. wait here a moment.. I will go and get Marsha what she wishes" He stood up to stop me but I shook my head" wait here"

I went to my room and pulled out a redbook that had been a wedding gift from Godfrey. I grinned and a few minutes later and some force altering I brought it back out.. It was identical to the grimorie in every aspect. " Here it is.. "

I passed it Marsha and somehow managed to keep a straight face.That book in particular I had placed out of Belda's reach and knoweledge.. I was honestly trying to be more open minded and not treat her like a child, but there ARE some books she didn't need to read yet.. That one in particular.

" Is this the book Master? Can you come and speak to me?" Marsha called looking around the room

Before I could stop myself a black mist flitered out of my mouth and began taking shape across from me. Two wolfish sith eyes peered out of the smoke and she began taking shape" yes Marsha.. that is the book.. now take them and go to where we discussed.. " her voice was only a mere hiss

" but master what about the whelp?"

" ssshee will be delt with in my time, not yours.. When the time comes her blood will bespilt over the grand altar and the gryphon cannon will bring a new age of terror to the galaxy!"

Marsha bowed before the image of Catia and smoke filled the room. I pulled Belda close and

Godfrey raised an arm to try and filter through the tar like blackness. When it cleared Marsha was gone.

Belda turned to me" Master she has the grimorie! what will we do?"

I held my hand out for her to wait and darted for the freasher.. God I was bloody tired of morning sickness

About 10 minutesl ater and a couple cold wash cloths , I stumbled back out to the living area and pratically flopped onto the pillows. Godfrey knelt next to me and moved a few strands of hair off my forehead. " Belda.. remember how I told you that things were not always as they appeared to be?"

She nodded, still semi confused

" Well that wasn't the real grimorie It was a fake.. " I was pratically biting my lip trying to keep from laughing.

" what was the real book master?":

My face was turning beet red from hidden laughter" it ..it was a wedding present from Master Godfrey"

Belda looked at me wide eyed" Oh no! how will you replace it?"

Godfrey was grinning as was I" there's places we can go to find .. uh.. replacements"

Neither of us could take not laughing over the situation anymore. I ended up rolling off the pillows and Godfrey buried his face in one of the nearby pillows laughing himself silly.

Belda looked from one to the other, no clue what was so funny. When I could finally get the breaht to speak I turned ot her and siad" Belda, I know I told you I wouldn't treat you like a child anymore and I'm not.. But simply put for you to understand this now.. you're too young.. I'll make you a deal. On your fourenteenth birthday.. only a couple years from now.. Ask me again and I will tell you. I promise."

She seemed put out but nodded. " okay"

My breath was wheezing like crazy but I looked over at Belda" Remember what Master Adana and I told you about the talk?"

She nodded still a little confused

" Well.. for.. uh.. those sorts of things, there are.. um.. books for it.."
Belda blushed" Oh! I see.. um.. yeah.. okay.. "

Scraping myself up off the floor I yanked Godfrey up with me" now.. I think we need to get some sleep.. in the morning I 'll start getting things together .. Marsha will be back.. this I'm certain of"

Once I saw that Belda was tucked in, I tidyied up the living room before joining Godfrey who I could see was exhausted. We didn't say anything, he just pulled me against him and ran a hand through my hair. The clock chimed 1 am before I fell asleep.

Til Later
Pho

Troubling Dreams and more problems

2007-04-19T18:11:00.000-04:00

I woke in a cold sweat after a dream I thought I'd never have again. My arms shook viloently.. I had buried that deep within me years and years ago. It was the day I died.. the first time..

I had been with Yusuke and the others pursuing a known dangerous, human.. He was the fomer spirit dectective of earth, Sensui. Tan skin, dark blue eyes, and short black oily hair. His spirit energy was in the high S class, virtually unheard of for a human. After he had parted ways with Koenma and Spirit World he dipped into the Dark Makai arts .

His power went through the roof and he began gathering demons to his side. He had seen the sin of human world and wanted to purge it of all humans and let the demons rule both sides of the plain.

We had tracked him to a cave and the six of us went in. I was bringing up the rear behind Genkai. After we had went through all of the twisted game levels, we had finally come to the bottom and the fight had ensued. It was bloody, brutal and utterly vicious. Hiei, Kurama and Genkai took care of the others and freed Kuwabara. Yusuke and I were battling ferociously against Sensui. He was waining thin being attacked so viciously on both sides. Something was diffrent this time..

All of a sudden a woman with red hair appeared out of no where. I couldn't see her face, but she seemed familiar somehow. Yusuke jumped into the air and slammed into Sensui on one side and I fired off a spirit gun bullet connecting with his gut. He stood out of the rubble and began forming his shadow ball with fast flowing movements. I could see Kurama and Hiei holding the other woman back..

Then Sensui let it go.

It was if as everything was in slow motion. Yusuke's back was turned, he wouldn't see it comming!

I jumped in front bringing my hands up in front of my face, trying to shield myself from the massive blast that was heading my way.. I heard several people scream my name. I could see a beam of purple in the corner of my eye, then the blast hit.

My body felt like it was being ripped apart by thin razor sharp wires from the inside out. The blood gushed from my body and I fell back, unable to move,barely able to breathe. I saw the woman run over to try and help I guessed, and my eyes turned to Yusuke" Yusuke.. I'm sorry.. I..I tried.. " my eyes fell shut and that is when I woke.

So there I sat up in bed, my hair askew whenever a picture flashed across my mind. It was of a music box, red with the same golden runes as the grimorie.

On the inside a small porcelin ballerinia wearing a black tutu. Her hair was golden blonde in wavy curls.A haunting song trilled out of the box, a song I remembered only a little.. I began singing with it

" Dancing bears, painted wings.. things I almost remember.. And a song someone sings.. once upon a december.."

Suddenly I felt Godfrey shaking me and I blinked" Phobia,are you okay?" he asked, brow furrowed with worry.

I shrugged " I don't know.. I.. Something changed.. about my past.. "

I quickly explained to him about that fight. He remained silent only nodding when nesscary. Just then my com rang. It was Master Mundi. " There is terrible news, three younglings are missing. All three freinds of your padawan.. the one we are most concerned about is Marsha.. She dissapeared into thin air when she was playing cards with her freinds.. The cards remain in the vault, but we will have them brought to the council chambers . Please meet me there in 15 minutes"

The com went dead. I turned to Godfrey..

" there's a problem.. "
TBC
Til Later
Pho

Yin yang, what's the diffrence?

2007-04-15T01:31:00.000-04:00

The lighting was dim as we dueled. Our blades circled each other like snakes on leashes, waiting for just the right moment to strike.

He dropped low and I reached my foot out to knock him back but he jumped over it and shoved back catching me off guard and I stumbled back my boot caught on the steel piping of her fighterand I fell back towards the floor

A fast handstand and I had flipped over his head and slashed at his back, the hiss of flesh making him cringe and hesitate. I dove for his throat saber extended. I saw him reach back to punch me and I found his primary fear and exploited it.. His fear of hurting his wife or children. He stopped and then swept behind me quickly.there was something not right.. he ..he had dissapeared
A sharp pain shot up my arm casuing my saber to clatter to the ground

" I win."

My eyes gazed at him for a moment.. What was it about this man that made him diffrent? .. Dare I say out of my reach? I let go and let the twit free. if there is one thing that can be said of me, I am a woman of my word, even if I loose.

My vision cleared and I saw Godfrey standing before me, saber still raised warily." Godfrey? ... I.. I didn't hurt anyone did I?" I had made a horrid mistake.. I had let her free in the intrests of saving others and I had nearly died.. my children had nearly died.. Grief engulfed me and my knees buckled ot the ground. Godfrey caught me before I did anymore damage to myself I felt lower than dirt..

I was desprete enough to do anything to get her out of my body.. Anything.

Godfrey carried me back through the halls silently. There were a few raised eyebrows but no one said anything much.it all came back in a rush.. " Belda! What happened to Belda? is she okay? I.. oh force.. what have I done?" I was crying so hard I thought for sure I was going to be sick. the second Godfrey set me on my feet I stumbled towards the fresher. it was all dry heaves but my head felt like it wanted to split in two .

" sssh.. it's okay.. she's comming in with the medvac team.. she's fine but I had to leave her to chase after you" He pulled me close, I could catch the barest hint of the Coruscanti air from his shirt.The throbbing in my head receded slowly" God what must she think of me? I .. I struck her.. for the love of god, don't I have any strength left in me? Was I even strong to begin with?"

He tucked my head under his chin and spoke low and quetly" I explained to her what happened Pho.. she knows this was not your fault. You are one of the strongest people I know.. Don't drag yourself down over this.. please.. You're worth so much more than this..You have always been strong.. never forget that.." he placed a hand on my stomach" Your children need you Phobia, I need you.. I can't do this without you.. "

I could see my reflection in the miror,I was as pale as a fish belly and my face was sunken in. My hair was all over the place. I looked like I had been bleached out. My hands.. lord.. all I could see was skin stretched thinly over bone. Purely and simply I was a mess.

" Phobia, please sleep.. I'll watch over you.. Regain your strength"

I was shaking all over.. so cold.. " I can't sleep Godfrey .. the nightmares.. they will reclaim me again.. please don't make me go to sleep!" I was crying madly, I didn't know what I was saying.. His arms wrapped around my waist and the last thing I remembered was the feeling of a soft kiss...

TBC( When I wake up)
Pho

Two personalities, inhabiting one soul..

2007-04-10T23:38:00.000-04:00

There were screams around me and I drew my saber. Using the force and a lot of my strength I lifted the flaming roof off the ice cream parlor and threw it as far away as I could. I instructed Belda to get everyone to the center of the room.

There was a disc of pure durasteel.
Once the few people who were there were in position I let darkness erupt through my body, shielding my children with every ounce of strength. electricity poured from my fingertips and the disc with the people on it shot through the open roof and Belda, unknowing of my transformation guided them down outside.

She turned back to me, the little whelp, saying" Master! we must hurry! the building is about to collapse!" I simply stood there, letting the heat curl the tips of my hair and singe her precious white skin.When she tried to tug me away, I reached out with one arm and slapped her so hard she went flying through the door, blood rose under the surface of her skin" shut your mouth you insignificant whelp! You will not tell me what to do!"

Sheer pulls of the force guided me up to the highest levels of the upper buldings. I saw the same yellow speeder that bombed the place. I reached up, snapping the pilot's neck and dropping his carcass to the pavement below. She had made the most stupid mistake of all ,letting me free again, and I would use it. The moment I had my own body again I would kill my pathetic human host and her squalling brats as well.

I brought the speeder to full throttle and I was at the ship dock of the temple. I let the speeder blow itself to kingdom come and I was about to take Phobia's fighter whenever the hum of a blue blade caught my attention.

" Catia, let her go. You are not welcome here"

An eyebrow raised I turned to face the newcomer.. Well Well.. this was a suprise.. " I'm not letting her go Godfrey, she made the mistake and now she will pay for it.. " I looked him up and down,tongue wetting my lips" well I suppose I could always wait a few hours.. I'm sure there's some things you and I need to catch up on.. "

If there is one thing that.. sheltinka has it's good taste in men. He adapted a more relaxed stance, one hip cantered slightly forward, looking at me over the rim of his glasses" I will make you a bargin"

I listened carefully

" We duel here, if I win, you let Phobia go free and go back to where you belong"

I snorted

" If you win, we head somewhere away from here, just you and me"

A wolfish smile crossed my face.. " So that's the game is it?"

I drew my saber" We have an accord Godfrey, let the games begin"

My saber was a model of Dorko's, but with onyx stones embeded in the hilt. My finger flickered over the ignition button. The ruby red blade sprang to life.

There was no given signal, no pause. We attacked silmaltionusly.

TBC

Out of the frying pan, into the fire

2007-04-05T01:48:00.000-04:00

First off , let me say that the right man can make Sidious look like a supermodel and bedrest look like a blessing* shivers and pukes at the thought of Sidious in a swimsuit* anyway..

It had been a week since I was put on bedrest and today Godfrey and I got to go out for some ice cream while Belda was in class.

After two sundaes and an afternoon opera.. We ended up back at the apartment, and as an old song goes" strictly speaking for me , we both could've died then and there" ...

But now I know why my master always warned me to knock before entering a room with a
closed door.

Belda had gotten back early from classes is why..

Thankfully we were only curled up against each other, Godfrey with an arm around me.. I had a feeling this was going to happen ..

He had enough sense to make sure we were both presentable before we had nodded off for a nap. So in bursts Belda, not really even thinking about knocking; which I forgive her for this time, hey I did that to my master once too.

" Master! I--" she trails off, blushes 20 shades of red and a few extra and double times it out of the room as fast as she can closing the door after her.

Godfrey I don't know how had slept through the whole thing. He must be pushing too hard at training. I made a note to speak with Master Yoda to make the council give him some time off. I plucked one of my robes from the hook in my room and wrapping it around me, went out to the
living area, barefoot, to see Belda sitting at the table, hands folded, looking down at the floor with the most ashamed look on her poor little face.

I took a seat at the table and asked her" Belda, what's wrong?" She just shook her head and blushed furiously, a pout now.

" Look, there was nothing going on.. Master Godfrey and I were just taking a nap .. "

She looked up at me" really? I thought you and he were.. were." oh! So she thought there was something else! I reached out and grasped her arm. " Belda.. There wasn't. .you can trust me can't you? We didn't expect you home from classes so soon.. Aren't you supposed to have a lightsaber class with Master Skywalker this afternoon?"

"He called and said he wouldn't be able to make it, he's got another few days on this mission" I nodded.. Lord how easily could misconceptions happen?I smiled" now what was SO important you forgot your manners?"

She smiles sheepishly" you know my world sciences test? the one I had trouble with?"
Nodding I call a jawa fruit over to my hand. I was hungry from all that work...

" I got perfect marks!" she exclaims holding the test up for me to see. indeed, that test that

Belda had worked so fevverently on , she had aced beautifully! " Belda this is wonderful news!. Tell you what, you and I can go out for ice cream here as soon as I get dreesed okay?" She jumped for joy and I hurried back into the other room where Godfrey was still sleeping, a pillow taking my
place.

I giggled and quickly dressed before scribbling a fast note and leaving it pinned to the center of his forehead with a sticky note.. Knowing him he wouldn't be able to find it otherwise. A quick kiss and I shut the door quietly leaving him to sleep.

As Belda and I left she asked me" Why isn't Master Godfrey comming?" We passed the animal shelter before I answered" He's been really tired lately. He's been working very hard in combat class and the class last night ran late so we're going to let him sleep and be really quiet
whenever we go back okay?"

She nodded as I pushed open the door to the ice cream parlor down on Siccily and 12th. Same place where Godfrey and I were earlier.

While Belda ate away at her sundae happily, I was looking out the window watching the passerby. We were both dressed in
civillan clothes, lightsabers tucked away in our clothing. A speeder , a yellow one caught my attention as it zipped by heading for where I could only guess.

Something came sailing down and it hit the roof of the parlor. I just managed to pull Belda under the table
before the place became a blossom of fire and heat. I could hear the screams of others and I pulled Belda close, warning her to stay low.

This was a fine mess.

TBC

Musings

2007-03-29T16:38:00.000-04:00

Bedrest sucks.. I'll be totally frank here, it really does.i was going stircrazy from all the inactivity. Godfrey barely let me walk around the apartment without help though I felt prfectly capable of kicking a sith lord's rear end from here to Tatooine.but the rest did give me a chance to reflect back on Utapau as to what I had missed, where I had failed.

Firstly, I had gotten too flashy. Grievous had taken advantage of it and used it to his advantage. A rookie mistake, one I couldn't afford to make a second time. Not only that, a new thought occured to me, one that turned the very blood in my body to ice. Grievous was fueld by someone and it wasn't Sidious. Nor was it Dooku. Compared to the source that fueled Grievous, Sidious and Dooku together were insignifacant insects. The source of darkness, I knew as well as myself.

The one who fueled Grievous' rage.. it was Catia. I don't know how when or why, but the signature was unmistakable.A darkside aura hung around one place in the city.. An old place called the Works.. It was like a miasma of sorts.. I couldn't quite put my finger on what it truly was. It was shifting and changing with each passing day, growing stronger and stronger.

Another thing I had noted.. Now this was porbably nothing much of noteworthiness, but I am one for detail. the fw times I have visited Supreme Chancellor Palpatine's office, not only was the darkside aura so thick it ws like ink, but the wholeplace was bedecked in red and black. Sith colors. Not only that there were statues and busts of gods and goddesses of disguise and deception all over the place. The office pratically screamed" SITH LORD" at the top of it's lungs to any addlebrained moron.

Then there was the matter of my padawan. Maybe Catia had been right whenever she said she was too smart for her own good sometimes. She had been asking questions about the twins already. I did not like lying to my own apprentice, but it was better that she not know the truth until I had no other choice.She was wondering what star system they would be born on and from how long from now would they arrive?

Definitly too smart for her own good.

But this little bit of the truth I could not deny her" They are the children of the rulers of the
Corellian system. They feel it is better that they be brought to the temple to be trained. Espically with the war raging. It is in a way safer for them here."

Thank the force she asked no more questions.

I swear if Godfrey props one more pillow under my feet I will tear every sithspit pillow to shreads! I love Godfrey dearly I really really do, but this driving me totally , completly, and utterly CRAZY!
Til Later

"Check" but not checkmate

2007-03-21T13:52:00.000-04:00

Back and forth we fought over the highest leve of the sinkhole planet.The fight seemed to wage for hours, Godfrey an I were as good as Anakin and Obi Wan as a team.The general was tiring I could tell . But then it happened.

He shoved Godfrey over the cliff.

I thought my heart would stop then and there but I could feel him very much alive over our bond. He was fine and told me to keep going while he found a way to suprise Grievous and end this.

So there I was facing down against the leader of the driod army .I kept my style simple. Soresu with a little bit of Vaapad and Ataru . That was my mistake.

With Godfrey missing Belda had leapt into the fight. I could see the general pushing her back towards the cliff. I stepped between , but not before she landed a good blow above his chest plate and took a hand off.I took the second one.

Grievous pushed me back into the far corner of the hangar and I was forced to flip over his head and out of the way.

He had entended one of his remaining two arms and used the lightsaber to sever my spine.

My body dropped to the ground like a sack of potatoes and Grievous advanced on me, his eyes speaking death. Well great this sucked.. I was about to be murdered by some scrap heap and I couldn't even defend myself.

As Grievous brought the saber down for the killing blow a teal saber blocked his strike and there was Belda, trying with all her might to save me." Master! Run!" she shouted. The thing was

I couldn't move a muscle excpet my head

I blinked and my head turned and I saw Godfrey drop down and jam his lightsaber into the general's stomach, green bile spewing everywhere.His eyes.. something had changed.. Nothing like that had I ever seen before .. his eyes were those of a dragon in his fury.

Grievous screamed in pain and then breaking from Godfrey and Belda he ran.

I slipped in and out of conciousness. I could feel the force tugging at me, wanting me back in it's embrace. But I was too stubbroun to give up. I saw Godfrey kneeling over me with a worried look" How bad is it?"

" The bastard cut my spine in two, what the hell do you think? " I normally don't get snippy with people but right then my whole body was on fire.. Like I had been tossed into a lava pit ." I don't know how long I have Godfrey.. please, just hold me for now?"

He was crying, or more like trying not to as he pulled me close.Belda's face was a study of misery as she knelt on my other side" Master.. I'm sorry I wasn't fast enough.. "
This was not acceptable. " Belda.. look at me please"

Her red blotchy eyes met mine" Listen, you did something most Jedi masters couldn't do. you took one of Grievous' hands .. None of the masters except Windu has ever been able to do that EVER. You have made me so very very proud today..I could not have asked for a better padawan. "I was crying now too. The tug of the force was becoming stronger and stronger by the moment

I can help you Phobia, do you trust me?

I rolled my eyes" Yeah right Catia, the only way you can help me is if you can make my spine whole again." I was in no mood for jokes.

I can but there is a risk.

Oh this I HAD to hear" Okay what?"

I can make your spine whole again. The risk is.. I might end up going darkside.. I have the same ability Plaeguis did. But I sealed those abilities away. Do you want me to? it will be hell"

I nodded" I have too much to loose.. Please Catia.. Help me"

The pain doubled 20 fold and I squeezed Godfrey's hand as wave after wave of pain ripped through my body shaking me to my core.It seemed to drag on for hours. I thought maybe death wouldn't be so bad after all, but something whispered at me that I could not die.. so many depended on me.. I saw that dream again.. and I knew if there was a chance.. I had to live for those children...

My eyes opened slwly and I could feel the rumble of a fighter under me. The pain was less now but it still hurt like a nightmare. " W..where are we ?"I asked him.

" We're nearing Coruscant. you still can't walk yet.. Your not fully healed but she repaired most of the damage. you need to see a healer"

I nodded briefly not inclined to argue with him at that moment.

We landed a little while later. After giving me over to the healers he headed off to report to the council Belda by his side.It hurt me moreso she had to see this but I knew the time was comming. What pissed me off is I got careless. I'm already paying for it now I wouldn't pay for it again with Belda's life. Never.

They ran test after test on me, and my spine was fully patched up. I was on strict bedrest for a week before I could get up and move.. Force help me..

Dollie came to see me" Pho I have some news.. "

" Yes Dol? I'm kinda tired.. but go ahead and tell me.. "

She smiled grnning from ear to ear in her excitement" Pho your pregnant! With twins! We ran a blood test and it came back positive!"

I shot up from where I was lying" WHAT?"

Dollie took hold of my shoulders" Phobia Deimos.. you are going to have twins.."

I fainted

Til Later
Pho

Arrival on Utapau and a faceoff with a General

2007-03-18T00:06:00.000-04:00

Belda woke me about 5 hours later" Master.. look ! it's done and just in time.Master Godfrey said we're here"

After I had her test it out just to be sure it was working I instructed her to clip it to her belt and follow me

The planet of Utapu is one of a desolate landscape. Not my sort of place you understand, but I am sent where I am needed. I could not shake the feeling that something was going to happen, something bad. I had spoken to Godfrey at length about it and he managed to assuage my fears .The fighter had a cloaking device which was most helpful whenever we skidded to a stop and I gesutred for Godfrey to stay put while I went to speak with the Utapuian leader.

" What brings you here lady Jedi?" I smiled a bit. Simple and to the point, no politics no smoke and miror. I liked this man already.

"I'm afraid war does "

" There is no war here, unless you have brought it with you. Who are your companions?" he asked, gesturing to Godfrey who waited patiently by the fighter and Belda who stood quietly next to me

" My companion is a man of few words, one who trained with Sensei Porgan. We have been sent here in search of General Grievous. The one here with me is my apprentice Belda Pinik."

The Utapauian's eyes widened and he moved closer to me, his head blocking the view of others from the upper levels. " He is here!" he hissed" We are being held hostage! the 10th level, thousands of battle dorids!"

I only blinked once, showing him I understood" Well then it seems our search has been in vain. With your kind permission I should like some fuel for our fighter and to use your city as a base of operations"

Belda went to glance up but I used my free hand to make her keep focus Do not alert him or all is lost for these people Belda

She simply blinked Yes my master

He nodded " What shall we do?"

As I turned to make my way back I barely moved my lips as I spoke" if you have warriors, now is the time"

When I got back to the fighter I comed Commander Cody" we've made contact"

"We'll join you soon black leader, watch yourself hm?"

A ghost of a smile tugged my lips " You listen to Kenobi too much. Just get here.. We have a battle to win"

Cody saluted and the holoimage clicked out. I stripped off my brown robe and donned a black one. Godfrey did likewise, knowing the brown robes would make us stand out more than nesscary.

Finding the path was easy. it wound up and up and up. We both walked in silence for a time, the feeling of danger was stil screaming at my nerves but I crushed it like an eggshell.
We came to the fourth level whenever we saw Bogas.

Godfrey smiled and he walked forward , speaking to the stablehand. A few credits and he pulled me along with him Belda following at a quick pace close behind We walked down the line of Bogas until we came to one. It was sort of smallish but there was a pull in the force neither of us could deny.She pawed the ground nervously and I walked up patting her beak with a smile. " This one you think?" I asked him. In answer , he was already on her back a hand extended to me.

I joined him and boosted Belda between us as he made a little clicking sound behind his teeth and she took off up the hill with a lurch. No crop was needed, not really even the reigns. A grin crossed my face of some memories from recent days and I was forced to jerk my head out of my daydreaming when Godfrey cleared his throat.. " Pho.. now is not the time, believe me." His eyes shot to Belda and she looked at us questioningly. " nothing Belda.. bad joke"

I blushed when I realizied I had been projecting rather loudly.I hoped she hand't seen anything. . Finally on the ninth level we dismounted and I turned to the boga " Its time for you to go home girl" I patted her beak and she turned galloping down the hill.
I motioned to Godfrey and Belda.

Together we climbed the hill and hid ouselves in the hangar bay as we saw Grievous stalking up and down the lines of troops. A brief nod to each other and we dropped into the throng of battle droids sabers ignited as my eyes locked on Grievous.

" Why hello there General" a smirk crossed my lips and I wanted to laugh at the seemingly twisted hate on his metal face.Hate was so misplaced now a days.I had heard his story. He didn't need to hate us, who he needed to hate was the ones who caused the crash that made him loose everything and become a slave to the banking clan.

" A Jedi.. what do you know.. I had expected them to send someone of a more illustrious rank after me .. pity .. pity.. and a baby? is this the best the Jedi have to offer? "

To Belda's credit she didn't move a muscle or say a word. She has no idea how proud she made me just then

Godfrey's voice cut through the shadows" Then that should tell you something general.. you are a toy, a slave to the banking clan.. you are no longer important for the higher ups to worry about you."

Belda stood behind Godfrey,saber ignited, ready to attack if needed.

The general twisted to fix his eyes on us " Is that so eh? Well whenever they find your corpses in the space above coruscant then they will listen to us!"

In a howl of metal, he attacked.
Til Later
Pho

My Return to Coruscant and a new mission

2007-03-14T20:56:00.000-04:00

I swear I have never been happier.We are on our way back to Coruscant in Godfrey's fighter.At current I'm finding myself snuggled against Godfrey with a holopad in my hands typing away. I won't go into too many details of after the wedding directly save to say I am one of the luckiest women on the face of this galaxy I feel something has changed , for both better and worse. I feel.. it's hard to describe but it's like a warm blanket over my chilled mind..

His eyes were fixed over the system of the five brothers as we departed. He worries about me, this I know for certain. just last night I woke screaming from a nightmare . It was the panther again twisting my dreams. I broke down crying in his arms, begging him to take my nightmares away. He held me tightly until I was able to calm down enough that I could go back to sleep. But I was awake again an hour later shaking madly.

It took some doing but I managed to slip out of bed and head to the fresher for some water. The mirror on the cabniet tempted me madly. I knew that just behind it lay the answer I sought to help me sleep without nightmares. I opened the cabniet and removed a few bottles of pills.I pulled out four of the blue ones, two red and one white.

It had started with pain releivers to help with my battle injuries and it just went downhill from there. now I was taking drug coctails just to be able to sleep. A dreamless, sound sleep. Where I could wake and not have my heart pumping in terror. I know it isn't the right way , not healthy but I am desprete for peace, to be able to have inner calm. Godfrey gives me everything he has, all of his support and love to get me through this, but I feel like I am smoke billowing and curling every which way.

Smoke that not even Godfrey can catch.I cling to him for support.. I love him dearly with all of my soul. I could not bear the thought of anything happening to him. He is my world, if anything happened to him I know I would pass into the force in a matter of moments.
I downed the pills and my feet swayed dangerously as I stumbled back to the cot he and I shared.I could catch the scent of his colonge as my head hit the pillow. I could hear his voice calling my name through a thick fog but it was just too much of a struggle as I scumbed to the darkness

When I woke the rubmle of the fighter had stopped and we were back. My head was pounding as I sat up and was promptly tackled by Belda" Master Deimos!" she was all smiles and laughs " Did the mission go as planned? Are you and Master Godfrey okay?" Nodding I headed for the council room. They had a new mission for me. Cin had told me as such on the way in. I knelt before the council as Godfrey gave the " mission report"

Nodding his approval Yoda turned to me" A new mission for you we have"
Mace flicked on a holoprojector and began to speak.

" General Grievous has been spotted near the Utapu system. Your instructions are to bring him back if possible, kill if you must. You leave in the morning."

I nodded and bowed before leaving.

So I would be chasing Grievous.. The information scrolling across my datapad told me Godfrey would be the only one acompying me. This mission was too dangerous for Belda to handle just yet. if she had been a few months older she would have been allowed to accompy me.This wouldn't do one bit. they HAD to quit babying her!. So after using up most of my sleep time arguing with Yoda, Windu and Kit fisto over it, they finally relented.

I headed back to my rooms, tired and in much need of a rest. But the pups were barking to be let out so I took them for a walk. they were getting to be big now and they needed to go to new homes. I would keep Odi unless someone offered to adopt her and in the meantime.. Force I neeeded sleep and I needed to prepare. .

I floated sets of clothes into a nearby bag and crashed in front of the couch watching the podraces. I only had a few hours then I was going to be sent out again. I'd need every wink of sleep I could get. Even if it was filled with nightmares.

Anakin had been sent off on a new mission as soon as he had come back. He had told me from a com message that no sooner than his fighter landed back at the temple his com had rang and it was the council. He would be back soon as he was able and* chuckles* he warned me to stay out of trouble.. Like he has to tell me.. But trouble finds me, I don't look for it. Simply put.

Morning came all too soon for me. We were taking a specially outfitted fighter with all the latest technology. My guess it was one of Anakin's new prototypes but no one on the council would admit it. Obi Wan is out on another mission as well somewhere here on Coruscant. That's all I know though I have a sneaking suspicion where I could find him if I had to, but that's all I am saying on that subject.

Once I got Belda up and moving she was a blur of motion around the apartment packing everything up. godfreyand I had packed last night. i was dead on my feet while we made out way to the fighter.. Thankfully it was big enough for some beds and a small room for saber pratice and meditation. I made a note to thank Anakin . Once in flight to Utapau I explained to Belda what our mission was in depth.

" I know you don't turn 10 for a little while yet, but I brought along parts for an early birthday present" I reached over for the spare sack I had packed with lightsaber parts . " While en route to Utapau I think you'll be needing this" I pulled out a special teal colored power crystal I had spent weeks hunting for just for her . " Happy Birthday Belda.. now why don't you get to work? I think I need a nap before we land in a few hours.. If you need some help.. either wake me or ask Godfrey okay? I'm not bored or anything.. just" I stifled a yawn " Really really tired . It took me six hours of arguing for them to let me bring you. along, but.. " I smiled" It was worth every second.. I'm very proud of you Belda, never forget that. Tools are on the table.. if you need me I'll be in the next room over and Godfrey is straight up the hall in the cockpit okie?"

She nodded, obviously estatic with he birthday present.. " And you know, we 'll have a party too .." I nearly got tackled to the floor " Thank you Master!" she was grinning from ear to ear. I grinned back and shooed her over to the table" Now go get to work, time's wasting Belda"
As she hurried over to begin work on her new lightsaber, I had to smile. I was able to make one young lady very happy today. that was all that mattered to me.

I sent a message along our bond to Godfrey that Belda was working on her saber and she might come to him for help then I headed off to one of the back cots. Force help me I didn't even manage to kick off my boots but I was asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow.

Til Later
Pho

Celebrations and Departures

2007-03-10T23:22:00.000-05:00

When I woke that morning, he wasn't there of course.. I knew he wouldn't be seeing as how today was our wedding. the thought made me want to get up and just twirl around the room giggling to myself.But I knew I had other things to do. first was.. Oh good lord.. When I took stock of myself in front of the full length mirror I knew I was a mess. I nearly tripped over the sheets that had somehow wrapped themselves around me the previous night as I hurried for the fresher .A little rose oil and lavander bath crystals and I was brand new.. and ready to start a new life with Godfrey.

As I was pulling on the petticoats and such my mind skipped and twirled. Today I would be his.. Today I would finally find love.. forever..Godfrey had told me yesterday to choose anything in the shifrobe for my gown saying that I would look stunning in anything. As I was poking through the dressed hung neatly on the racks my mind drifted to my dream of the previous night.

I was in the room of a thousand fountains.Belda was there, so was Godfrey. 2 children were playing at my feet. I wore a white gown with a white ribbion down the waist and to the floor. The little girl, with brown eyes like mine and blonde hair like Godfrey's came running to me and extended her short little arms towards me and said.. I remember very clearly" Pick me up mamma!"

It was then I woke in a cold sweat.

I came to the last dress in the cabniet and I nearly fainted from suprise.. No.. how.. how could this be? My hands gently lifted the same dress from my dream out from the dark shifrobe and spread it out on the bed.. This was my wedding gown.. I was sure of it.I dressed quickly and sat in front of the vanity, brushing my hair carefully until it coiled at my shoulders.my shoes , white with golden trimsat by the vanity as I applied small doses of makeup. I could feel the force charged, electric around me , telling me this was right.. this was where I was meant to be. There was a knock at the door which I went to answer. There stood anakin, a white shirt and black pants. His lightsaber was nowhere in sight, but I had a pretty good idea he had it on him anyway.

" Pho I just came by to check on you.. Godfrey is a nervous wreck and.. wow.. you look amazing.." he said grinning at me as he took a step back to take me in fully. the only thing I was missing were the white roses that sat on the table which I had to twine into a wreath for my hair and my shoes.

As I pulled on my shoes I began talking , maybe it was just a rambling.. or something more" you have no idea how happy I am right now Anakin.. You being here means the world to me , more than the world.. everything.. you know when I was little I always dreamed of a great big wedding with everyone I knew there and we were all happy. "

My fingers worked the vines as I continued to talk

" But then my master woke me up to what the truth of the Jedi was. I would never have a big wedding. In fact we are not permitted to marry. Though many Jedi masters married and had children the law camwe down we were forbidden from marrying alltogether . though they forget we are human , we are falliable. I fear for the order Anakin, I fear for it's future. They do not or will not see that we are mere humans. And like mere humans we have a right to be happy. to love, to marry. It tears at my heart that such a great order will one day fall , that all we have worked for will turn to dust."

I looked up from my work, the wine half completed . Anakin's face was tight, his lips drawn into a half scowl. " The order won't end, not so long as I am around"

My fingers wove seamlessly through the greenery and my next reply tumbled from my lips like water" Anakin, someone has to make them see. But not by the sword either, but through diplomacy, thorugh understanding and trust. The sword is not the way to make people see reason. No matter what happens. I will tell you something I have never told anyone.. "

I stopped and let the wreath fall into my lap. " When diplomacy fails, when people must resort to weapons and viloence to make others see their point, or more to it, force it on them, it makes me die in my heart.. For every soul ripped from it's mortal confines.. for every child without a father, for every ..." My throat closed like a vice and refused to let me speak anymore. I began crying..

I could hear his bootsteps on the floor before I felt his durasteel hand grasp my shoulder with the infintie gentleeness he had withhin him, though at times he chose not to show it" Pho.. no crying.. please.. Even though many have died, maybe.. just maybe with the happiness you have, you can help save others..show others the right way.. without a lightsaber"

My head turned and I looked up at him with bleary eyes. " You're right.. oh force you're right.. Thank you Ani.. thank you so much."

He smiled" No problem, now hurry and finish getting ready, Godfrey would have my head if you were late" he said laughing at the last part.

Nodding I hurried and re applied my makeup . My little crying jag had messed up my work.I stood a few minutes later and took Anakin's extended arm.The chapel was down the main hall and through small walk over an outside balcony.

Just before the chapel doors opened,, Anakin arranged my veil for me since any movement I made would have messed up my dress. " Pho.. I know you would have liked to have everyone here, but know they are.. if not in body but in spirit. We're all here for you sister.." He looked like he was about ready to cry a little bit as well but was trying his damndest not to. Wordlessly I handed him a hankie I had found on my way out and as soon as he was ready, the doors opened.

Step by step I made my way down the isle towards Godfrey. Black pants, cream silk tunic and a velvet hunter green vest with silver trim.. My world narrowed to just him. I felt Anakin somewhere nearby, but Godfrey held me spellbound. I heard the buzzing words of the priest and I flowed through the answers esaily. Then the next thing I knew Godfrey was kissing me and my world stopped. My knees were about to collapse under me whenever I heard Anakin shouting over the cheering" Get a room you two!"

I broke away from Godfrey long enough to bat Anakin alongside the head with my boquet before I tossed it into the chapel where a young woman with blonde hair and blue eyes caught it. She looked at me.. then back down to the boquet and fainted.

At the reception, which ended up comming afterthemandatory corination* rolls eyes* it was time for the garter toss. Here's a funny one for you.. You'll never believe who caught my garter..

Yes ladies and gentlemen the chosen one himself Anakin Skywalker. He wasn't even trying. He just stood there and when I looked back it had wound itse'f around Anakin's lightsaber. to his credit he didn't make a crack about it but turned every shade of red possible . the middle was red and the lace.. black.. Oh lord.. I hope someone got a holo of the look on his face..
There were many holos taken that day most of which will end up back with us when we return home.. But for now.. I was catching a quick bite whenever Anakin mmotioned for me to follow him into the hall

" Pho I'm sorry but I have to leave.." he said looking slightly pissed off and sad all at once" I loved being here with everyone, but I need to get back.. They will be searching for me soon"I wanted to cry.. the damn council was runing everything as usual

" Your place is here Pho.. and besides" he smirked a little " you have someone in there who is very anxious for this party to be over.. Take it easy on him huh? "
He always made me laugh" Of course.. I promise"

He hugged me" Be safe Pho, be happy. You've fufilled one of my wishes today.. To see you happy with a man who cares for you..Not someone who didn't know what in his right mind he was missing. he smiled knowingly and then turning, he walked off into the night, his Jedi robes blending in perfectly with the darkness. The moon was the only thing I was able to follow him by until the dark swallowed him up completly.. The only thing that I could see was a certain scrap of red and black..

I went back in the hall , alone and returned to Godfrey's side. After I explained what had happened, he nodded and after a while , with the party and all, we retired to bed for the night.I relished in that electic feeling of the force.. The one that showed me that I was following the force and my heart.
Til Later
Pho

A final goodbye

2007-03-08T03:46:00.000-05:00

When I woke again it was twilight and the sun was beaming through the curtains. I reached for Godfrey and found him gone. I got up from bed and looked around the room barefoot. My mouth dropped open when I saw the dress he had hung up for me . It was a shining velvet black dress with a celtic knotwork down the waist. With it was a set of golden combs with rubies and black shoes set in silver. With it , a note

Phobia
The funeral is set for sunset tonight I was able to find clothes for you for the service. meet me downstairs for dinner then we can go shopping if you want
With love
Godfrey

I dressed quickly in my usual clothes and hurried downstairs where Godfrey was just finishing grilled cheese sandwiches and some light munchies . I ate like I was a famished woman with a banquet set before her. In truth my energy had been dipping rather low and it made me tired more easily. Once we were done He gathered up a coat for me and he pulled on his denim hacket and guided me out into the bustling bazar, one arm protectively at my waist. There were hundreds of shops all around I couldn't pick what to get and what to save.. I eventually settled on some of the prettiest stuff I could find including a whole arabian dancer's jewelry set, and well just about everything there I could think of that wasn't too terribly expensive

The one thing that I did sort of splurg on was this beautiful crystal bracelet. In one of the others shops there was a stunning silver and onyx necklace but I didn't get it because it was too expensive.. though I figured it would look lovely with the black dress. We returned to the manor and I managed to find my way up to my room to get ready. After a quick bath and letting my hair air dry by the big french vernanda windows I proceeded to get myself dressed, which was easier than it sounded.

The first thing was the.. you guessed it.. corset.. ugh.. After the party at Sky city I made sure to keep the laces loose, but after about 10 minutes of trying to figure it out, I managed to get laced correctly with no help thanks much* grins* .. The dress was easy , but the last few laces were refusing to cooperate . I was seriously about to have a hissy fit whenever Godfrey knocked at the door. I told him to come in as I sat down on the bench in front of the vanity, the dress slipping around my shoulders and pooling just below my diphragm.

I could hear him snickering at my obvious predicment and I turned a frustrated eye on him" and what pray tell is so bloody amusing ?"

He said nothing but guided me up off the bench and with a ease I had no idea he possessed laced up the back of my dress for me When he turned me around I just stared like a karp out of water.

" how did you learn to do that?"

At my look he laughed outright. " I've had a lot of pratice"

A devilish gleam was hiding just beneath those cerulan orbs but I didn't question it knowing I would just give myself a headache.Passing me the combs I pulled up my hair so it was in an elgant french bun. it was just then I noticed his reflection in the miror. He too was dressed all in black, tunic, undertunics,pants and boots. He took my breath away. I reached for my boots and laced them up quickly.

We would be late if I didn't hurry. Arton was to be buried on the rocky cliffs overlooking the Asheria Sea. The place where he had met Godfrey's mother. Who I found out from a few questions at last, her name was Aurora.

Just before we left he pulled a box from behind his back with a flourish . When I just sat there he laughed and said " go on open it! I got it for you today at the bazar.. "
When I undid the green ribbion and lifted the lid I let out a little peal of suprise. There sat the black and silver onyx necklace i had been eyeing in the bazar. " Godfrey.. how.. how did you know? "

He gave me a knowing glance. " I know the shopkeeper and she has been around for a long time.. She took an instant liking to you the second she saw you.. When I asked her if you had gotten anything she tells me"Ouch nay.. but she was eyeing the Hecate necklace there in the window.. She didn't get it though.. Probably feared you'd reprimand her for buing something so expensive"

I threw my arms around him and hugged him tightly. It was beautiful! i had a feeling that if Obi Wan could see me his reaction would be the same as Anakin' ss slackjawed one when we met him in the grand hall.. amazement.

Kneeling behind me, he undid the clasp and draped it around my neck smiling at my reflection in the window. " C'mon..beautiful.. We need to get going" He pulled me up and kissed my cheek as we headed for our ride.

We walked arm and arm down to where there was one of the waiting charriots to take us to the cliffs. A team of four magnificent black stallions pulled us along. A haunting song could be heard getting louder and louder as we got closer to the shoreline. When the coach pulled to a stop I stepepd out and my eyes could not take in the beauty fast enough.

I will try my best to describe the beauty of the Asheria sea in a few short sentances though it will no wear near do it justice. It was truly the work of a master artist. The cliffs were as though sculpted from the chisel of Gastsburo Da Volvie of Naboo. As we approached the assembled group of people, I saw that Arton had been dressed in his best clothes and was lying in a boat with what looked to be an ancient broadsword in his hands.I understood then. He would be sent unto the force like Master Qui Gon had been.

As Godfrey spoke to the assembled throng gathered at the shoreline I gripped his arm and sent him as much support as I possibly could.Finally when his voice faltered, I found mine. " Though I only met King Arton once, he was a kind and good man who accepted me for who I was. " I saw men gathering on the edges of the wood behind us and I instantly recgonized them as trouble and I raised my voice so I could be heard even by them. " And I beg you, do not let this world Arton fought so hard to protect and love fall into the cluctches of civil war. We all will pass on sometime. Why litter this world, a place of beauty and tranquility with blood? Do you want to see your parents ,your children, those you love here? Then if you say nay. I ask you, no I implore you, help us bring this world back into one united place where we might all live in peace.."

Most fell back but one stupid one remained. " who are you to tell us what to do? What reason do you have to speak? you are not of this world!"

Though the insult hurt Godfrey and Anakin; who stood nearby the two of us, a somber expression on his face, I drew in a deep breath and pulled my answer straight from the force." All worlds are one, we are all bothers and sisters here. As for who I am? I am simply a woman who wishes to live in peace with the man she loves. Free from war, free from death and pain, both of the mental and physical persusaion. We suffer enough. why bring more?"
He stood there, as though not used to being spoken to like an equal then nodded respectfully and withdrew.

Godfrey looked at me in suprise and I nudged him to get on with the cermony. It was getting late and some of the children who were there with their mothers were begining to shiver with the evening cold. I could see Anakin smiling slightly out of the corner of my eye.

" Now as my father gave unto this planet, let it recieve him into it's loving embrace. One journey ends, another beigns"

He took hold of one strong longbow , black and fitted a white arrow to it. He passed the other to me and both were lit aflame.

Following his lead, mine ironically enough white with a black arrow, we fired the first two arrows towards the boat where Arton lay. Then at a guard's command another batallion of archers fired off another volley of arrows and the boat burst into a blossoming fireball.

As I stood there, watching Arton's remains being burnt to ash to give back to the planet he so loved, a glimmer of light caught on my conciousness. I turned just slightly to see a man and woman embracing much like Godfrey and I were.The woman had blonde hair, a cascade of curls falling to her waist, a white rose wreath crowning her head. She had blue eyes. The man standing next to her I recgonized instantly though he was much much younger..
I bowed my head smiling to both and Aurora bowed her head to me and I heard her voice in my head.

" You have given me back the man I love and saved the planet I loved.. Bless you Phobia.. and may you and my son find much happiness together.. You both have our blessings.Farewell"

They vanished as quickly as they came and I hugged Godfrey's waist as the last embers of the boat diminished and the group started to disperse. I shivered reflexevly as the cold air bit across my neck. He looked down at me through his glasses with a half stern half bemused expression. Gus Talon , Corellia's moon rising high above us in the dark night. " Cold much?" I saw he was concerned so I shook my head. Please I'd been to Hoth .. I could handle this.Though he was nearby I heard Anakin say he would meet us back at the house whenever we were ready.He would walk the cold night air doing him well.

"Something else?" Godfrey asked me . The set of his face had changed slightly.. I didn't quite understand it.. I wasn't frigthened by it .. I was.. excited I didn't know what it meant but I was willing to learn.. He lead me back to the coach, but when I caught a glimpse of his eyes, they were a deep jade.. I reached through the force towards him and felt love and something else.. wild and feral.. It shuddered through me like a tidal storm. By the time I got to the carrage to take us back to the manor my knees were so weak Godfrey had to lift me inside.

As the coach lurched I explained to him breathlessly what had struck me dumb and why.He was gentle with me as he pulled me into his lap and explained a few things that in my years I had never had to know and also promised me that when our wedding night came that he would be as gentle and as careful as he could with me. I leaned against him and sighed happily. I had the best of it all.. A man who cared for me enough not to simply take what he wanted and leave.. He would make sure we shared it..

When the coach pulled up in front of the house I was near falling asleep on my feet.All I knew was ghosting hands as they gently removed my clothes and helped me dress for bed. Nothing happened for all you hentais who would be dying to know. Soon as I was in bed, he joined me a few minutes later for a while.. but he was up by sunrise, running through his katas in the morning's light in the garden alongside Anakin who for some reason unknown to heaven had chosen to join him ..

I watched them from the balcony as they moved from the meidocore ones all the way up to the top level black belt katas. Force I was drooling over Godfrey like an idiot and frankly I really didn't care. I saw Anakin glance up at me once and smirk.. Figures .. I think maybe I might see if we can go dancing today.. there is a festival in town of Telosian gypsies.

Til Later
Phobia

Meetings and Partings

2007-03-05T01:43:00.000-05:00

The trip was actually peaceful. No worrying about the council suspecting something and rushing after us, nothing. We are staying in a grand manor house in Coronet. This is where Godfrey lived before he was sent to train with the Jedi.

This place is simply beautiful. It's a cross between a victorian manor and a medeval castle.. Hundreds of rooms, .. It's a dream. His father is ill and from what he speaks of, it's one of the main reason why we've come here . He wanted me to meet his father Arton before he pased into the force. His mother died years ago, and he doesn't speak of it much, but tells me that I would've made her quite happy.

When we entered the house, someone rushed up to Godfrey and whispered something to him and immeditly his expression became very somber. He took my hand and led me down the hall towards a sprawling room that seemed to go on forever . In it was one single bed and in that bed was a man in his 90's I would guess . " is that?" my question died in my throat as he riased his head and looked at me. They were the same color as Godfrey's, sea green.

I left his side and approached the bed carefully then kneeling I let my hand rest on his forehead sending calming waves of the force to him. " you.. you're the one my s-son spoke of? Phobia?"
I nodded" Yes Arton, I'm Phobia.. Rest.. please.. save your strength"

A shaky gnarled hand tocuhed my cheek and his eyes locked with mine for the briefest moment " They will adore you.. you will be a good queen.. "

His head fell back, eyes closed and the hand fell back to the bed . I looked to Godfrey who stood just behind me , his eyes full of sorrow. The last family member he had.. gone.. I rose and after kissing Arton's forehead in a final means of love and respect I went to his side and brought his face down to meet mine.. " You still have me, you will ALWAYS have me.. this I promise you.... Now why don't we go for a walk? maybe get settled in? Help you clear you thoughts.. Let's just get out of here for now.. let them do their job?"

A thin smile crossed his features and he nodded, guiding me out of the room an arm around my waist. I wanted to take this pain away from .. somehow. I knew the pain of loosing family.. but I didn't..The glass doors swished open with the force and suddenly I found myself standing in a HUGE garden ,roses of every sort surrounding me and.. I walked closer to the tree in the center of the garden ..I knew this tree.. barely from my childhood in Spirit World.. " Godfrey.. how.. I.. " Words would not form in my throat.. this was one of the holiest trees known to man kind.. and demon kind.. the crystals that grew from this tree were sacred.. and helped prevent nightmares.
Godfrey reached up and plucked off one of the crystals and threaded it on a black leather rope and he placed it around my neck.. " To help with your nightmares love" I could feel the crystal's magic working on me and brining me closer to inner calm than I have ever been. I rose from the bench and wrapped my arms around his neck. " You are the most loving, caring man I have ever met. How can I ever show you how I feel?"

Smiling he placed both hands on my head and his voice dropped to a whisper" Open your mind to me.. show me.. "

I let every last one of my mental shields drop like glass, I could feel his mind wrapping around mine like a warm blanket healing the cracks, healing the scars. I could feel Catia's suprise as he even accepted her, his love embraced us both. Tears fell as I let myself fall against him, overcome by weariness and well.. just plain emotional breakdown.

He lifted me to my feet, my body was pretty much incapable of supporting itself and led me back into the house, but not before plucking a red rose and tucking it just behind my ear. Up a set of stairs and a smaller door was pushed open.

The room was bedecked in dark blue and silver. Bookshelves lined the walls and above them several weapons hung as ortamental pieces on the walls. Both new and old. I gazed in wonderment at the set of sais hanging above the second bookcase as Godfrey laid me down gently on the bed . " Sleep now my love. please.. you need your strength"

I nodded drowsily" Only if you'll lay here with me.. just or a bit.. "

I could see he was debating to give in or not, and I gazed at him pleadingly" Please? I can't sleep well without knowing your rested too"

A smile twitched at the corners of his lips and a moment later I could feel him pressed agianst my back, heat warming and comforting me like a gentle furnace.. " Now sleep.. we'll go out shopping later.. and head to the docks.. remember Anakin should be here soon"

With that thought on my mind I dropped off to sleep, drifitng on peace and serenity, two emotions the force has not seen fit to grant me until now.

When I woke sometime later it was Godfrey shaking me. " Pho? Pho? c'mon we're late.. and your com is ringing dear. " I woke groggily trying to reorient myself with the waking world. I picked up my com and answered sleepily" Deimos.. what's up?"

I could hear fighter engines in the background and a familiar voice that brought me back fully awake in a matter of seconds. " Skywalker and Pho where the heck are you? You said to meet you at the space dock at 3 it's 430 now !"

A few muttered cuss words and I shot up out of bed , searching for a dress and running a brush through my as usual* snort* unruly hair" Ani I'm sorry there's things that had came up and I slept in.. We'll be right there I promise.. I'll fill you in there."

" Alright Pho but this better be good.Skywalker out"

I dressed in a hurry, a white toga with purple shoulder drapes and a simple sapphire necklace which Godfrey had found for me and brown sandals. We pretty much looked like something out of an old story. He was dressed in brown pants and a poets shirt due to the heat. No wonder why Anakin was grumpy.The robes weighed a ton.

I raced down the stairs and outside where I jumped in my fighter, and Godfrey followed, at a much more slow pace. Too much like Obi Wan he was.. The Star Light space dock wasn't far and I made it with in about five minutes . Grinning from ear to ear i landed my fighter at the other end of the dock and snuck up behind Anakin dampening my force signature . I brought a hand up to cover his eyes" Guess who?"

He nearly jumped a half mile off the floor.

" Jeezus Pho! Don't do that! " He ran a hand through his hair sheepishly, probably embarassed that I had bene able to sneak up on the chosen one. " Don't worry Ani, no one wil lhear about this.. " I said with a chuckle. He stepped back to get a good look at me. it wasn't often that we were able to ditch our robes. " Pho you look amazing.. " he said grinning from what I suspected, pride.

" Ani I have to fill you in on a thing or two.. There's another thing I need your help with.."

His face fell"What'd you do now.. Don't tell me I have to pull your hide out of the frying pan"

I knew he hated having to clean up everyone else's messes. " no no nothing like that.. It's like this.. Godfrey's father Arton just passed away. The funeral is tonight and the wedding is the day after tomorrow. Could you be there please? Both factions I was telling you about will be present and I am hoping for Godfrey's sake there will be no trouble. I 've given him as much support as I know how, but he's hurting a lot.. That was the last of his family. "

Anakin smiled a little and nodded" Sure.. by the way where are you staying at anyway?"

I pointed to the manor on the hill" up there, there's hundreds of rooms.. You can come stay with us if you like.. "

He grinned" yeah.. if you guys don't mind. I'm bushed "

I gestured for him to follow me back to my fighter where I could see Godfrey had already landed and was waiting for us. " I was wondering what was keeping you Pho." he said a brief smirk tugging at his lips.I laughed aloud" you know I had to fill him in on what excactly was going on hon.. Anakin.. this is my fiance, soon to be husband.. Godfrey .. Godfrey you allready know who this but for the sake of formality.. this is Anakin. I have to go and check something on the fighter.. you guys talk for a minute k?"

I hurried back over to the engine which for some reason had decided to belch smoke .A little tinekring and it was fixed . As i made my way back over to them I could see they were getting along like old freinds. " Ready to go? " I asked,grinning . " There's some food back at the house.. and Anakin you don't need to play mr hero jedi here.. please.. not on my part at all.. or anyone else's.. I guess this is sort of a vacation for you.. "

A laugh in his his eyes Anakin nodded . Godfrey headed back to his ship and I turned to Anakin" you can either bring your fighter over to the house or ride with me.. there's a private dock closer to the house which I had no clue of til today. "

" I'll bring mine over thanks"

Nodding I got in my fighter and took off back to the house. When we landed I could tell Anakin was tired . Really tired . Despite his protests to the contrary I steered him into the one of many rooms and pointed to the bed. " you sleep .. now.. that's elderdown Alderanian goose feather. When do you think you'll get a chance like this again. I know your tense so shut up and quit yuor manly complaining. It will help"

He didn't need to be told twice. I closed the door and I could hear him sigh in contentment like a cat being given salmon.Chuckling to myself I headed up to the room I shared with Godfrey. I was dead on my feet too but I did a better job of shielding it from him than one would think . not Godfrey though.

The second I showed back in our room he guided me to the bed and said " I don't need to repeat the same speech you gave Anakin, you rest too. I have a few things to attend to . I'll join you shortly okay?."

I had dozed off almost fully before he was back. I moved over to let him lie down with me. Whenever his arms wrapped around my waist , I let out a little contented sigh and finally.. I was able to sleep.. maybe it was the air or what.. but no nightamres.. for once...A luxury I don't often have anymore and I would make the most of it.
Til later
Pho

A com call and sharing the news

2007-03-01T12:59:00.000-05:00

So .. we're set and ready to leave for Corellia tomorrow. Belda is staying with some of her freinds while I'm away and I left her instructions that she is not to go wandering by herself and if possible stay within the temple walls. I sort of feel guilty about leaving her by herself for a full week , but I need the break for heaven's sakes..

The pups were staying at the temple as well as Odi.. Lisette was the only one comming with me thank the force.. I was pratically floating in all my excitement. We'd went shopping the previous evening and had managed to almost wipe out my petty cash from my sabbac games .. New clothes and also books and .. some other things which he isn't privvy to and won't be until I'm ready to show him* winks*
I

had comed Anakin last night and left him a short message of" If I'm not here just so you don't worry I'm on Correllia" I'm pretty much guessing he thought I had went off the deep end.. It was just then my com beeped.. I recgonized the number.. I gulped.. here we go..

" Pho , Skywalker.. Please tell me why you are going to Correllia of all places?" he sounded tired ,I hoped the council wasn't running him raggad again

I took a deep breath and said .. " Anakin.. you're the only one I'd trust with this.. but.. I'm getting married!" I was grinning from ear to ear as Godfrey came out of the other room and looked at me questioningly.

I gestured for him to be quiet as I listened to Anakin's reply.

" Your what? Repeat that!" Okay.. someone needed blood pressure meds..

" Anakin.. I.. I'm getting married.. " was he going to fly off the handle too?

A long pause followed.. Man this was not good then.. "Wow have I went nuts finally? or did the order change that fast?"

I chuckled at his very good attempt at dry humor and responded as I started throwing things into a suitcase" No Anakin.. the circumstances are diffrent.. much diffrent.. you see the guy I'm marrying.. the attachment bit has been waved for him . You remember the royal family of Correllia? I'm marrying Godfrey Zebulon ,Anakin.. the prince of Correllia" .. My voice was about to crack I was so nervous..

Another small pause then "How did you manage to pull that off? I'm happy for you he must be some man to win your heart"

I was near to tears I was so happy, Godfrey hugged me tightly then went to double check things as I spoke" he is Anakin.. the best man I have ever met.. 1 look that's all I needed .. I mean after everything that happened with Mace.. I didn't know if I culd fall in love.." I trailed off with a smile then " If you can, do you think you can come to Correllia .. we're leaving tomorrow for a week straight.. the council thinks it's a diplomatic mission, it technically is.. Godfrey is the negoaatior for the two factions on planet.. it's close to Civil War Ani.. "

Oh please.. let him be able to come! I didn't want to be by myself with none of my freinds around on the happiest day of my life!

"I can try, Pho. I'm allmost done with this menial grunt work Obi Wan set me to before he left.." I could hear a snort in the background ". I might have to met you whereever you are going. I have one more thing to take care of here"A sigh," And it'll take me a while, even with my expertiece"

I breathed a sigh of relief" You are the absoulete best jedi, friend and brother I could have.. You have no idea how much it means to me.. I only trust you with this.. If Obi Wan were to find out, he'd hit the roof.. " My voice faded a bit as I took a drink of water.. " We're going to be at the Star Light space dock, I'll meet you in the grand library if you can come okay? Thank you so much Anakin"

I could almost feel him smiling through the force " I wouldn't let you down. I'll be there as fast as I can. Don't worry your secret is safe with me"

If I could have hugged him I would have. " Thanks Ani.. And don't worry about Belda.. I've already left her instructions and such.. she's staying with freinds.. and I have Cin watching over her. Deimos out.. I'll see you soon"

After our coms clicked out I turned to Godfrey who was watching me with a bemused expression .. " What was that all about?" he asked me dropping the bag in his hands and taking me in his arms. Isighed resting my cheek on his chest. " Anakin agreed to come to the ceremony.. What day do you think maybe?"

He looked thoughtful for a moment then looked down at me, a smile on his face" Well I was thinking we could have 4 days to get settled in have the wedding on the fifth day which leaves us 2 days give or take for our honeymoon.." I looked up at him questioningly.. " Why do we need 2 days for our honeymoon hon?"

He chuckled and for the next minute or so I was being soundly deprived of air . When he finally let me up he grinned wickedly and whispered" I want to make sure we have all the time in the world.. So you can take your time.. I plan to with you.. "

My stomach was all knotty and jumpy but I just hugged him and kissed his nose beofre slipping away to gather the last of the bags " I have no idea what you're talking about but I'm sure you'll show me when you're ready.. "

Just then his com beeped.

He answered, a few choice words under his breath and I had to stifle a giggle. " Yes? oh.. okay I'll be right there.. "

He hung up and hugged me quickly" I have to go, one of the padawans got a broken arm in combat pratice.. see what happens when I have to get a sub?" he chuckled and hurried out the door" Love you! I'll be back later"

I smiled and collapsed onto the couch idly stroking Lisette. I was going to be married in less than a week to the best man in the whole world.. The sith were leaving me be.. Life was good.. it wasn't going to last for too long, I knew..

Til Later
Pho

A fairytale comming true..

2007-02-26T16:11:00.000-05:00

I was paging through the grimorie looking for anything related to incubi and succubi whenever my com beeped. It was Bail Organa. I had called him earlier that day and told him about the puppies. He had agreed to come and see them at the temple later that afternoon, and he would bring Mon Mothma with him. His ship had just landed at the spaceport and he would arrive at the temple in 20 minutes. One look at my appreance, a tank top and a set of black silk boxers* coughs* don'task* I knew I needed a change and quickly.

As I was changing clothes to go meet Bail at the docks I realizied I hadn't seen Godfrey in about a week almost. Ever since he'd kissed me goodnight it was like he'd vanished like a dream.. HAD I been dreaming? The thought mulled over in my head as I yanked the black sweater over my head that read" Don't cross my path" put Odi's leash on her and led her down to the docks . The one thing I will say about the Viceroy is that he is one of the funniest men I have ever met, and also a very good listener.

When I made it to the docks he was dressed in the clothing of the royal house of Alderann and behind him stood Mon Mothma.. Smiling Bail knelt down and patted Odi's head and she promptly licked his hand panting up at him with big doe brown eyes. It made me laugh a bit, but
I felt a pang of regret in my heart. Sooner or later I would be alone again and it hurt a good deal. Mon Mothma saw the hurt in my eyes and she smiled gently and placed a hand on my shoulder.

" I see it in your eyes.. who's the lucky man?" she asked with a giggle as we walked back towards the temple, Odi pulling on the leash ,anxious to get back to her puppies.
I grinned , my heart dancing" This stays between us Mon Mothma?" she nodded and I continued" Somehow.. another Jedi.. his name is Godfrey Zebulon"

Mon Mothma's eyes went wide for a moment then she smiled knowingly then fell instep by Bail and whispered something in his ear and he chuckled as we turned the corner to the temple.. My arm was nearly yanked out of it's socket and we walked( or in Odi's case ran) into the temple .

She began whining and huffing trying to break free of me to get to her pups. When we got close to my room she broke loose and ran ahead,Belda following on her heels. I had to run after them, narrowly missing running headlong into a few others including Gar Gar who decided to get under my feet and almost tripped me. I was flying towards the floor whenever suddenly a familiar force presence flared to life next to me and I was narrowly saved from busting my nose on the floor. Whenever he pulled me back to my feet my forehead barely graced his nose.

" You allright?" he asked me, breath ghosting across my bangs making them flutter. My ears were turning pink because I knew Bail and Mon Mothma were watching this whole display.. " Yeah.. um I think so I.. " I tried to take a step and I crashed into Godfrey and we both went tumbling onto the floor, me landing on top of him and Mon Mothma burst out laughing closely followed by Bail.

I scrambled to my feet like I had touched a hot pan blushing badly.. Why did it feel so good to be lying like that? why did I want him to kiss me? Boy was I confused..
Finally thank the force we got to my room and Odi ran to her pups whining and yipping. Bail and Mon Mothma were utterly enchanted with the little ones They both agreed to take one puppy each and would also speak to some of their freinds in the Senate to see about adopting the others.

It was then that Godfrey had suggested taking Odi for a walk in the park.. Before we left he told me to change into cilvillan clothes and asked if Bail and Mon Mothma would like to come with us.. Offering a knowing smile Bail declined saying he needed to get back to his senatoral quaters and go out to purchase some things for the little boy, whom he decided to name.. of all things.. Onyx..

Once I had gotten changed we decided to leave the pups there for the present, come back and take them later once Odi was tired out.. it was a race to see who could get to the big tree under the park bench first.. He beat me by a half inch to be honest.. But.. oh force.. he kissed me.. for real.. gentle.. caring.. I could feel his emotions through the force and it was nothing but pure love.. I wanted to be close to him.. so it didnt matter where ended and I began.. Then he pulled back for a moment to look at me, his eyes were swirling with love.. oh.. I'm getting all mushy just writing about this.. But anyway, he slipped a claudaugh ring on my wedding finger and asked me if I would be his, forever and always.. if I would be his wife

What suprised me is how fast I said yes.

He was so happy! He pulled me up from the bench and kissed me, stealing any of my breath from my lungs. I don't know how I managed, but a whimper escaped my throat and I clutched his shoulders , my knees were wobbling like sticks in a storm. The park had built in sound system.. A guitar melody struck up, and he started singing.. since my brain turned to mush.. here's the lyrics.

Earth angel,Earth angel
Will you be mine
My darling dear
Love you all the time
Im just a fool,
A fool in love, with you
Earth angel Earth angelThe one I adore

Love you forever
And ever more
Im just a fool,
A fool in-love with you
I fell for you
And I knew
The vision of your lovliness
I hope and I pray,
That someday,
Ill be the vision of yourHappiness
Earth angel,
Earth angel
Please you be mine
My darling dearLove you all the time
Im just a fool,A fool in love, with you
I fell for you And I knewThe vision of your lovliness
I hope and I pray,That someday,Ill be the vision of yourHappiness
Earth angel,
Earth angel
Please you be mine
My darling dearLove you all the time
Im just a fool,A fool in love, with you

He treats me so well, I can't fathom how lucky I am to have him.. I don't care about tomorrow, I don't care about yesterday.. all I care about is the time I have with him.. He's asked me to come visit his home planet of Corellia and I gladly accepted .We're leaving next week on the pretesne of a diplomatic mission . I want to tell someone this wonderful news.. but who? My mind instantly set on Anakin.. I knew he could keep my secret.. and he would understand too .it would be risky because if the council tried to get ahold of him for a mission and all.. But I knew we could pull it off...

We're going shopping tomorrow for some new civillian clothes and I am pikcing up a copy of Reclamation and Cycle of time for Godfrey.. He still doesn't know who the author is.. and I'll tell him, but in my way.

I'll have Cin keep Odi and the pups while I'm gone. The fighter is small and it only fits us and Lisette. The 2 for Mon Mothma and Bail would go to them later this week . .. Nothing worries me right now, and that's unusal.. espically for me.
Til Later* giggles*
Pho

Helping and Healing

2007-02-23T23:57:00.000-05:00

I haven't been the same for weeks now.. I am always looking over my shoulder, not knowing weather I will be attacked whenever I turn a corner or walk through a doorway. My nerves were a mess. I even jumped half a mile whenever Obi Wan came to check on me. I rursted no one, not even really Belda I am deeply ashamed to say. The only ones I trusted were Odi and Lisette.

I could feel Belda's worry and confusion that she did not understand why I was frightened. The information Jocasta gave me was most helpful and later that evening I consulted the grimorie for more information on how to excorsise crossbreed demons.

Catia was guiding me step by step as I reformed my lightsaber for just such a special puprose. The gateway ws only partway constructed in the archives , but the synth crystal I had found in Bane's hoocron was a force send. It is a special crystal that not only can cut through mortal foes but also those of the spiritual nature. I stuided religiously for another week it seemed though I knew it was only a few days before I sent the message to Mace.. That we needed to talk.. to meet me in the training room..

The air was like ice around me the moment I stepped through those doors. The room was dark, illiminated by the eerie glow of Mace's saber , which cast shadows off the walls of the room. his voice.. it was not his own as he spoke to me..
" Lovely.. your swordmaster will not save you this time.. you'll be mine my dear.. "

I said nothing but activated my black blade which caused him to take a step back. " How.. that is the synth crystal of Anubis!"

I gave him no leway but attacked head on, taking him down to the floor . He grinned then flipped me over , this time I was ready and kicked out with my feet sending him flying back into the wall. I was so focused on the battle before me I did not hear the door open. My saber was raised for the killing strike and I was bringing it down on his arm when a strong hand closed over my upper arm and dragged me back away from him as I was about to do something I knew I would regret..

"He's no threat now! stop!"

I turned about ready to kill whoever had stopped me then.. my heart nearly stopped..
I was looking into the eyes of someone very familiar.. but foregin at the same time.. " Ivan?"
He smiled gently " not anymore.. My name is Godfrey.. Godfrey Zebulon .. Through the nightmare you have survived you changed it all.. for the better or worse I don't know.. but what matters is now I'm here and I can help you through this.. You know.. I can help you.. let me protect you .. Let me help you heal.. "

Our eyes met for an instant and I knew.. it was like all of those years I had spent for pining over someone I could not have.. they all went up in flames.. I saw my destiny sitting in front of my eyes before me.. It was then I noticed the saber at his hip. He was not dressed in tunics and robes.. Instewad he was dressed in a simple civillan outfit of a red sweater, black jeans which clung VERY nicely may I add and black shoes.

" You're a Jedi?"

He chuckled and I could've melted right then and there.. " Just recently.. time space stuff.. I don't want to give you a headache"

Mace was rising from where I had knocked him out. I could feel and see it.. The energy of the incubi and succubi crossbreed was gone.. he was himself again.

Godfrey helped me to my feet and Mace was just about to come over whenever an image of what happened at the vaults flashed before my eyes.. " no! Mace.. stay away from me!" I backed up until I was back to chest with Godfrey who wrapped an arm around me protectively. Mace looked at me wide eyed and then he bakceed away slowly.. " Phobia.. I'm so sorry.. Oh force.. how blind have I been? Can you ever forgive me?"

I nodded " I can forgive you, but I don't know if I can trust you again"

He nodded briefly and left us in peace.. I turned to Godfrey,who gazed at me from behind a pair of geek glasses which I found utterly adorable. I felt safe, protected.. I collapsed in his arms and he picked me up off the mats and carried me clear back to my rooms. I drifted in and out for a time..

When I woke I was tucked into my bed in my room and Godfrey sat by my bedside stroking my forehead . I felt sort of like I had fever but it felt good. I wanted him next to me.. I wanted him to hold me but I was afraid to ask.. afraid where it might lead.. could I handle something like this so soon?

In response to my unspoken question he stood, kissed my forehead, my nose and briefly.. just ever so briefly my lips before using the force sleep suggestion on me and I fell into a dream like abyss.When I woke and he wasn't there I cried despretly like my heart had been broken but I saw the rose on my bedside table and the note

Meet you at breakfast.. then walk with me in the gardens?
Godfrey

I dressed in a whirlwind and pratically ran up the stairs to the cafeteria . There he sat waiting for me at my favroite table by the window the biggest smile on his face. I swear I was walking on air the whole morning..

We walked in the gardens after breakfast before I had to teach classes and he even danced with me.. Force he has the voice of an angel.. 9 am came too soon and I had to go teach the morning saber class since Cin was under the weather with a cold.

He was teaching the morning hand to hand combat class 1 floor down from me. My senses hummed and most of the knights noticed the change in me.. at one point one of them puleld me aside and warned me I was a little too excited and needed to calm down.Ii tried force I tried.. but I was so happy.. I wanted to float on a clooud.. I was in love.. despretly.. truly.. and completly in love
Til later
Pho

A chill to freeze my blood

2007-02-21T00:23:00.000-05:00

I had to teach a few classes that afternoon so it was about somewhere after 6th chime before I was free. Belda was spending the evening with some of her freinds so for once in a while I was free. It was a relief actually . I had been juggling so many things I just needed to sit down and take stock of what had happened. In a matter of a few short days I had went from anomyus knight to keeper of one of the most sweetest, and sometimes puzzling padawans around. Not to mention there was the matter of the puppies who were currently sleeping.

I scratched Lisette's head and she purred" Remember when it was just us girl ? I know it seems a lot, but bear with me.. Soon it'll just be you me,Belda and Odi.." She curled herself into a ball and went to sleep. just then a message scrolled acorss my datapad. My heart jumped in my chest when I saw who it was from. Warning bells went off in my head. Mace wanted to meet me by the vaults downstairs to talk. He said he wanted to apologize for all he had done, that he'd come to his senses..

I grabbed my robe and headed downstairs, locking up after me. I knew it was vital I not be seen otherwise I could land us in a lot of trouble. After he had risked everything to bring the holocrons to me, I figured I could at least hear him out.
Arriving downstiars I saw the vault door standing open and swallowing slightly I walked inside.

All of a sudden I couldn't hear Catia, and I couldn't feel the force either. It was then I remembered that this vault was sealed off to keep the darkside aura away from the rest of the temple. I was turned towards the door and was about to run whenever I felt a hand close over my wrist. I turned and saw it was Mace" Your not going anywhere Phobia" he hissed pulling me to him. I tried kicking him but his grip tightened to the point I knew I would have brusies. He kissed me harshly and as I heard the sound of tearing fabric of my outer tunics a chill of fear raced through my veins.

" Mace please! NO! Don't do this! let me go!"I struggled to free myself from his ironlike grip. I knew if this continued.. I didn't want to think about it.. In desperation I fumbled for something I could hit him with to get away.. My hands fell on a miror and I shined it in his face. For a moment I saw what was truly the matter. He was under a curse.. His eyes in the miror were sith evil. He tossed it away before I could say a word. I was just about to give myself up for lost the panic growing inside of me my waves a moment.. The chill of the air hit my now nearly bare skin at the same instant as I heard footsteps down the corridor. .

I was crying and I didn't know what else to do.. I screamed aloud for someone.. anyone to help me.. I heard the hum of a lightsaber and I turned to see that my savior was the temple swordmaster Cin Draling. His face was the last thing I saw before I passed out

When I woke I was in the healer's ward. Cin was standing on one side of me watching over me worriedly. I tired to sit up but he gestured for me to lie still . I was still shaking when the healer came in to give the report. Master Draling had got there in time before anything had happened.

I was bruised all over and I felt sore all over The healer told me I could leave tonight if I wished but I was expected to go before the council in the morning to give my account of the event.She squeezed my hand gently" Phobia.. who.. who did this to you?"

Looking to make sure Cin was not within sight, I whispered" Tell no one of this but it was Mace.. he's .. not himself.. I can't explain it.. but he's being controlled. I need to find out who and what . I beg you keep this secret. I can't face the council. Not now.. not yet. Mace would never do this as his normal self.. please"
She nodded" Of course,anything you ask.. "

I felt the brief tap of Cin's hand on my shoulder letting me know he had returned" you going to be okay?" he asked" If you want to talk I'm here" .. I nodded" I'll be fine.. I'm sure Belda is wondering what's happened to me."

I rose sitffly from the bed and Cin handed me my boots. " In fact".. he never got to finish his sentance for right then Belda ran right in and hugged my knees, crying her little eyes out. " I heard what they said! Master! Please be okay!" I dropped to my knees and hugged her tight" I'll be okay Belda, I promise.. But remember one thing.. I always care for you.. no matter what. .You gave me a reason to fight, a reason to keep going.. Thank you Belda"

I picked her up and carried her back to our quaters. Tomorrow well tomorrow I didn't know what would happen. but I prepared myself for the absoulete worst. But I knew I would face it the best I knew how. I was hurt.. and scared. Dollie had scheduled me with the mind healer for the next month to try and help me get over this.

There was only one way for me to forget.. and that was to throw myself into my work.. Once I had put Belda to bedand after assuring her everything would be okay, I left the door open and went into the living room and poured out the sack onto the living room rug. Lisette tiptoed up to me and when she snifed my robes she arched her back and hissed. The intellegence of cats never ceased to amaze me. She knew.. and knew that I was hurt. She's very mellow but I get hurt and she will become your worst nightmare.

I made a mental note to keep her locked in my room for a while

One of the pups jumped onto my shoulder and started washing my face. I started to giggle a bit, then my giggles disolved into tears as I held the puppy close. My fingers traced the runes and one of the holocrons, Bane's actually sprang out of it. Out of it fell a synth crystal, black with silver veins. It was then I saw.. the begining of the gate...
Til Later
Pho

Shadows and Vapors, all the same

2007-02-18T19:05:00.000-05:00

Late, very late that same evening I headed back to our rooms. Belda was dillegently working on her homework, which I have to say I was suprised she did so without a fuss. But then again, I saw the split eared grin on her face earlier that afternoon whenever the backs of my ears had decided to turn a very dark shade of pink whenever I missed a step in the current set I was working on and Obi Wan had to correct me.. Sometimes I am begining to wonder if Belda is too smart for her own good..

"She is.. now about our other problem..."

I wanted to scream and split my head in 2! " your not helping right now Catia and it's not OUR problem, it's MY problem. I will deal with this. I don't need your help.!" I was snappish, hungry and exhausted.

Belda looked up from her work, thinking I might be angry at her and a few well placed words had her set back on her work as I headed to the cooking area to make a light dinner for us.

" Look, Catia I'm sorry as much as I do appreciate the help, I want to be able to be able to stand on my own without help from you. There might come a time when you are no longer around and then what would I do huh? Sit and cry like a baby?"

" I'm sorry , your right. it's just I don't want to see what we have crash through the floor like a glass bowl."

I nodded mentally and while I was cooking dinner Belda kept casting glances over in my direction, probably wondering if all the stress had finally made me go off my rocker or if she had done something wrong.

Once dinner was finished, I brought a plate over to Belda and she looked up at me curiously.. " Master Deimos, who was that you were talking to ? "
She caught me by suprise, a good bit.. The only other person who had bee nable to see Catia was..

" I heard another lady's voice in the kitchen with you.. is she a freind of yours?"

I explained who Catia was over dinner. The expression on poor Belda's face was more so wide eyed shock than anything else. Then the topic turned to something even more intresting.. cake..
It seems that Belda's last class right before lunch was halfway across the temple And by the time she could get there, with all the no running rules and all there was hardly any desert left for her!.. Well this simply would not do..

I remembered very distinctly whenever I was younger I would have kp duty once a month.. and somehow Anakin always managed to get into trouble with Obi Wan that day.. of course me being my sympathetic self.. he helps me with dishes, I saved him a good centerpiece of the cake that yes.. I cooked. In my teens I became famous for my triple decker chocolate cake with fudge filling. I would make about 10 of those a month for the temple, and let me tell you one is a lot of work as it was..

So we pretty much came to a soulition. I would make 2 cakes a month for just us to share.. ( and of course if we had company and they were hungry, namely Anakin) so she wouldn't have to worry about it.. And from what I heard from Cin, they were skimping on the filling anyway.
I was just setting the dishes in the rack whenever I heard the doorchime. I went to answer it and I found no one standing there, but there was a sack on the mat. When I looked inside I paled and took into the apartment quickly, stashing it under my bed.

It wasn't until later I was able to see what it was in earnest. Someone had left me all of the holocrons in the vaults, save the Great Holocron which resided in the archives, which was where I would begin my work on the gate. I knew who had done this.. it was as plain as the note inside.. Mace.. in a pathetic attempt to win me over.. Well it wasn't going to work because I wouldn't let him be fooled by his own dilusions. When I reached for the nearest one an image of a crossbreed flashed across my mind.. Something was off..

I called Ms .Nu on my com and asked her to pull up whatever reasearch she could find on succubi and incubi and that I would come see her in the morning.Whenever she asked why I told her straight forward" I believe there may be a danger loose in the temple ..That the council knows and I'm only trying to help.." Satisfied she left and I climbed into bed with a weary mind. But not before locking the holocrons in the chest for safekeeping. I didn't need Belda getting her hands on one of those..

Still my dreams were tormented by nightmares... I find I am getting very little sleep these days and it's showing . But a little makeup never killed anyone, which I'd put some on to cover the dark circles under my eyes.. last thing I need is for someone to give me flack about sleeping enough.. I am doing all I can though I feel like I am being stretched like a ballon . Both mind and body. I really don't feel like I have recovered from that bout of sickness just yet.. Even his grave my brother still makes my life horrid.. huttslime..
Til Later
Pho

A wolf in sheep's clothing or is it?

2007-02-15T14:11:00.000-05:00

It's late evening, 3 days after I got back from Korriban. The momma dog who I have named" Odyssia" or Odi for short is resting comfortably in her next with her pups. They are all allright and Belda is asleep quietly in the other room . For some reason I cannot sleep. A restless has taken hold of my mind and I cannot even meditate it is so bad. I pace from one end of the sitting area to the other, my hands behind my back trying to calm my racing nerves. I look at the crono on the wall. 3 AM.. why can't I seem to sleep?

All of a sudden there is a soft knock at my door.

Puzzled I throw on a fluffy robe over my cream silk nightgown before I answer the door. There stands Mace Windu and he seems rather.. nervous.. " Master Windu, what's the matter? it's past 3!" He's sweating slightly as he replies" It's a matter of utmost importance.. May I come in?" I invite him inside and gesture for him to take a seat, a finger pressed to my lips to indicate we should be quiet because of the little ones.

He took a seat on the couch and I headed over barefoot to thechair across from him. " I know it would be important for you to come.. what's wrong? you can tell me .. " He looks up at me , a fixed stare, a bold one. I can hear Catia angrily trying to break free. She does not trust him, never has. " Phobia.. I .. " his voice breaks.. " I care for you , more than I should.. In fact.. I love you.. I always have."

I stared open mouthed at him. what was he saying? The wind seemed to whistle through my ears and my heart pounding drowned out all conversation. Gasps left my mouth and my throat tightened. Mace love me? NO! the man was incapable of love, he never let anyone close to him ever! I saw him kneeling before me, taking my hands in his. I at last found my voice" Love me? you lie!"

He let me go and fell back apparently hurt. " I am a Jedi , I do not lie"

My eyes hardened and I rose from my chair" You DO lie I see it in your eyes. You only think you are in love with me. you are in love with a dead woman.. You love Depa! You only think to use me as a replacement! I know you never got over loosing her Mace, but this is not the way."
His voice was hard as steel" you sound EXCACTLY like him.. you know that?"
Heart was kicking madly in my chest. I did not want to betray any emotion for fear he would run to the council and it would be over right then, so I played dumb" Why whoever do you mean Mace?"

A stormy look crossed his features" Obi Wan.. I see the looks Phobia, don't play coy.. I know you love him.."

I could feel lightning gathering around my right hand, Mace was about to be a dead Jedi if he did not stop this.

He continued" Kenobi is a fool! He would have to be blind not to see how lucky he is! You are a beautiful woman, intellegent, loving, kind and loyal. Why he cannot see that is beyond me, but please give me a chance?"

I shook my head" If you were truthful I would, but you have lied to me thus far. you love a woman who is in another words dead. I will not play a replacement. "

" Replacement? I love you damnit! why can't you see? I always have!. Ever since you came here!"

Vocies were rising, but I was so angry I did not care " where were you whenever I needed someone to turn to? Someone who knew the darkness and could have helped me? Sitting on your damn council chair that's where! You didn't give a hutt underbelly what happened to me you nerf herder! you have no right to come in here and lay sweet lies at my feet whenever I have sturggled and scraped for every piece, every honor, everything I have made."

My heart was pounding so loud it was like a drum. Tears blinded my eyes but I would not give him the plesure of seeing them. I blinked them away I caught my reflection in the window. My eyes were no longer the soft brown they usually were. They were red.. sith red. All of my rage gathered into a spearhead and before I could stop myself I found my voice rising to a scream loud enough to wake the dead.

" Don't you DARE come here and try and tell me you speak the truth. You are a liar and the lowest piece of filth Mace Windu. Go back to where you were. I will bow to no one. I know why the council will not make a master! It is because I am too powerful! you fear me! Well you espically have damn good reason to fear me. I warn you now, cross my path again and it will NOT be pretty now GET OUT!"

Lightning was gathering until things started gathering around me. Mace's eyes grew wide and he stumbled backwards fumbling for the door.I was hurt, damn hurt. I knew all it would take is for Mace to say one word to Yoda and I would be out of the order. but I would not live in fear of him or anyone. I had fought too long , too hard to let someone trample on me now. Mace turned and ran out the door, scared. I could feel he was scared.. and I didn't care in fact I enjoyed it.. every last second of it.

The moment the door slammed Belda came out of her room in her pj's with her blanket . She was crying bitterly. I immeditly regretted raising my voice to Mace. I should have known better. I knelt down and ruffled her hair slightly. " I'm sorry about all of the noise Belda.. the ah.. " Force how was I going to explain screaming at a council member?

I just hugged her tightly, trying to hold back a tornado of tears and broken sobs that threatened to escape me. She wouldn't understand what was going on, nor did I expect her to. I wondered briefly if anyone else had heard the argument.. I doubted it considering the VERY obscure location of my room .I reached for a hankcherief and wiped away her tears. " shh It's okay.. " I whispered pulling her close as i got to my feet and took a seat where Mace had bee not five minutes beofre

" Master? are you okay? what happened? I heard shouting.. ". I barely noticed my eyes were back to normal, but I didn't feel like they were. I couldn't let her get involved in this . I shook my head" it's okay, let's go check on the pups and the mother, then you need to get back to bed "

Nodding, we checked on the pups, they were all okay.

It took me nearly an hour and a half to get her back to sleep. I told her at least three stories , and by the third she had dropped off to sleep , her small hand in mine. Every time I tried to get up, she refused to let me go. Finally about 430 or 5 in the morning she let my hand go and rolled over in her sleep. I gestured for Lisette to keep a watch on her. Leaving the door open I padded to the sitting area, the emotional damn I had constructd about to burst

I went over to the cushioned window ledge. I shrugged the robe off my shoulders and force help me I broke into a million tiny pieces. I cried until tears wouldn't come anymore. My red puffy eyes met the crono.. It was now almost 6.. I had to be up at 7.. Sighing I tucked my knees under me, pulled my robe up for a blanket and went to sleep.. for a little while, maybe sleep could ease the new troubles on my mind.. Though I did feel like I was being watched..
Til later
Pho

The Curse of my Family part 6( Escape from Korriban and a new discovery)

2007-02-12T16:06:00.000-05:00

As the morning sunlight first woke me, I could feel the force humming around me like a bee's nest.I had finally been healed. So before Belda awoke I headed back to the canyon cave where my brother's fighter was stored. With some good fortune he had steel trunks with locks in the back, all the keys present. So my first order of buisness was to start loading the bigger artifacts into the cases and moving them over by the far wall.

Swords, statues, you name it it was there. I could feel Catia astral projecting herself to work side by side with me. It was like a sort of rubbery shield around my psyche and my body to protect me from the darkness of the artifacts. One by one the trunks were sealed and placed into the far corner where I woud place them in the cargo hold of my fighter later on.

I did find some intresting things though.. A staff . It was polished ivory and was coated in ancient runes. Images flashed before my eyes of great wars in years past. I was so startled I almost dropped the staff . I must have hit a sort of secret compartment because a piece of parchment.. yes you heard me right.. parchment tumbled out from the hiding place. I unfolded it carefully not wanting to rip it.

Across the top was scrawled in hasty writing" The nexus gate" . As I kept reading my hands began to shake. It seemed too good to be true.. This could solve all of the problems of what was going to happen.. No one's life would have to be sacrificed for peace to be brought to the galaxy.. all it took was a simple matter of gathering the holocrons..

I was near to tears in my joy as I kept loading things into the chests.. 7 chests worth of artifacts already.. sheesh.. I pocketed the holocrons in a sperate bag.. as well as the star map.. and the sword I wrapped in my outer robe. I could not let the council have these.. not now.. not yet. Not when a soulition was soo close. I highly considered speaking with Kurama but decided against it. He would be as bad as Obi Wan .. I had to smile at that.. Those two were so much alike, I don't think they even realizied it.Same thing with Yusuke and Anakin.

I shook my head clearing it of fond memories for the present.. too many distractions and I could get myself killed. Yama wouldn't be happy with me. . I packed up what was left and moved the trunks to my fighter. I was actually wondering where Anakin was.. if he got back yet and if I could smack his sorry head in when I got back for causing me this much mess.. But then again, it was benifical.. so I could let him off .. maybe.

Once everything was ready I wen back to find Belda. She was packing everything up whenever I heard a low whining from somewhere nearby. I whispered for her to be silent and I went along the cave wall , listening intently. I found a small pit, about as big as Belda was and in it.. you won't believe this.. was a dog.. poor gal was scared to death and to make matters even more complicated, she was a mother.. the whining I had heard was comming from a litter of puppies.. a big litter too at that.. I counted at least 9 if not more. They were cold.. the mom was hungry and we neded to get back to Coruscant so I could get them all to the veternary clinic. I would not leave them here to fend for themselves and die.

" Belda come over here and help me !" I called to her. She was standing on the outside of the pit peering in curiously. Hopping in next to me she brought down the spare blankets and other materials we'd need. The mother watched as I gently wrapped her babies up in a big blue fuzzy blanket before lifting her herself out and getting them situated in the back of the fighter.. at this rate it'd be a mriacle if Belda and I would fit.

Somehow we managed to and we took off for home at last.. On the way there Belda asked me" What do you think the council is going to say to you bringing a litter of pups home with seven trunkfuls of sith artifacts? "

I blinked.. " truthfully I 've got no clue. but I won't let them turn thse pups up to an animal shelter.. not yet.. I know I can find them good homes.. in fact.. I think I know of a few senators who have been speaking of wanting a dog.. " I remembered Senator Organa and Senator Mon Mothma were two of them.. I know they would treat these darlings well. until then they'll stay with me.

". Belda I warn you.. it might seem a tad crowded in my rooms for a bit til we get these little guys homes, but it's quite comfortable there.. if a little hard to remember. First thing we need to do once we land is get these artifacts inside to the council at once.. they are too dangerous to be kept out in the open. then as soon as everything is over .. We need to get these little ones to the clinic. They need to be checked over and so does the mother.. "
Belda nodded smiling" They are adorable aren't they? why would someone leave them out in the cold like that Master Phobia?:

I swallowed.. For the first time.. I saw red.. not just ticked off red.. but sith red. and it was all me, not Catia.. I could feel her suprise and I answered thinly" People are cruel Belda.. they give no thought for life, human or animal.. It's sick and disgusting that they throw away a perfectly loving animal just because she was going to have puppies. They should have taken the precautions, not abondened her for something she did not cause!" My fist hit the control panel and sparks flew but we remained aloft.

I couldn't believe I had just done that.. didn't want to see the dent I had made in the nearly unbendable durasteel. Belda scooted a little closer to where I was sitting. Her voice was low and quiet, but thoughtful" you feel very strongly about this don't you Master Phobia?"
I nodded" Yes Belda I do.. It's not right tp punish someone, be it human or animal for a crime they did not commit. The real crimnal here is ignorance and stupidity. " I shook my head. We were comming in on Coruscant. I radioed down to get the landing clearences and once we were all clear I steered my fighter for the temple.

It felt ood to be home.. no matter the unrest I could feel growing, even in the place I called home.As soon as we were back I told Belda to stay with the puppies and I went to find Master Yoda. I would need him to open the doors to the vault where the artifacts were kept, since he was the only one who I could trust to do this without questions, at least for the present.
His suprise was imense whenever I found him heading down to the cafeteria.

Whenever I explained that I had brought back things that needed to be locked away in the vault below the 2 basement level he agreed and followed me back to the fighter. Belda had hopped down to bring the momma and her babies a little closer so she could make sure all of them were okay.. What followed next has to be one of the reasons why I adore Yoda.

He saw the momma and her pups and he hobbled over , grimer stick and all . he reaches out to the mother, such a warm smile on his face and pats her head, then smiles down at the pups.. They didn't know it , their eyes were still closed. " A good thing you have done Phobia.. hope and light you have brought to the temple.. "

I explained to him that I was thinking of seeing if any of the senators would like to have a dog, that I knew at least Mon Mothma and Bail were speaking of it at one point and he nodded his head smiling, eyes closed. " Best plan this is.. when they mature, they will go to their famlies. For now the temple shall be their home. Maybe adopt one of them I will."

With a wave of his hand all seven trunks flew to him and he nodded, which I meant I knew I had been dismissed for now. I got back in my fighter and asked Belda if she wanted to come along. She was more than happy to. After I had changed into civillian clothes from my room and picked up some credits to pay the veternarian, who I had run into a few weeks prior( which was how I knew where the clinic was) we were off. Little did I know what I was getting myself in for...

Til Later
Pho

The curse of my family pt 5 ( words of wisdom,confusion of the mind)

2007-02-07T02:26:00.000-05:00

" More news we have for you concerning your brother.. "

I sat indian style by firelight and nodded" Yes Master? The battle came out as expected.. I buried him under the cliffs. Though he caused us trouble.. He's still my brother. It's the one kindness I could do for him"

Yoda nodded" A kind heart you have. Much to learn from you a padawan would"
My eyes got big as saucers. A padawan? He was joking right? I had of course considered it but it really hadn't come up..

" Joking I am not.. Did you know about the dissapearance of Belda's Master CeCe Denowai ?"
I nodded " Yes Belda had told me of what she knew .. She is very upset by her disaperance. Master Yoda.. I know I should not pry.. but do you know where she is? I would like to be able to give Belda something of a straight answer"

Yoda chuckled and his grimer stick tapped on the floor" You see? a kind loving heart you have. Wanting to help Belda yes?"

I nodded ,a wry smile crossing my face. After all these years, Yoda could read me like a book. Well most of the time..

" Then I have a suggestion for you.. Belda is in need of a Master, at least temporarily until CeCe Denowai is found.. Would you like to become her master? "

I had to say, I was speechless. " Master Yoda, I do not know what to say.. Might I have some time to think on this? "

He nodded" The council will expect an answer upon your return then." The holo clicked out.
You're probably wondering ho this could happen since I have not been elavated to the rank of master yet. Well it's in truth because of the war. The masters are fighting and dying out in the field. For every one sepratist they loose 50 take his place, for every Jedi master we loose, no one take their place.

So now I had heard rumors of the council waving the requirment in some special cases that a knight had to be a master before they could take on a padawan. A surplus of knights and a shortage of masters.. It was the only reasonable soulition.And besides this would only be temporary until her master was found and returned safely. Maybe Yoda wanted to test me.. maybe this was all a big joke.. I really didn't know what to think..

I sat back on my hands by the fire, my head spinning.. ME becoem a master? Even temporarily? I had to admit.. The idea did sound appealing to me.. In just 2 short days Belda had become like a daughter to me.. though I didn't want to admit it. I looked over t her sleeping figure curled up near the cave wall . I wouldn't give my answer to Yoda and the others without speaking to her first. She had as much of a say in this as I did. I figured I would speak to her in the morning.

I was just about to dirft off whenever a cold wind blew the fire out and a darkside presence filled the cave. I was on my feet, my saber ignited in a few short seconds. I could make out a ghostly figure by the light and it's hands were reaching out for Belda!. Remembering the few short lessons I had learned in astral casting I brought my saber down on the ghoul ansd it dissapeared. I hurriedly reignited the fire and I was able to see Belda. Her knees were curled to her chest and her eyes were wide in fear. " i-is he gone?" she asked me, her lower lip trembling slightly.

" Yes he's gone.. That was Phantom Evil I take it?"

She nodded, and then burst into tears. All that night until she finally fell asleep, I cradled her in my arms, doing what I could to comfort her. She was scared and rightfully so, it takes a lot of power in general to be able to astral project. This was one powerful sith.. and then a thought occured to me.. could it be.. Darth Sidious?

All that night I stayed awake, I turned this condrum over and over in my head. by morning's light I had decided that yes .. If Belda would have me as her master, I would take the council's offer. If she would not, then I would still help her defeat Phantom Evil, but I would tell the council no.

Just then Belda stirred from her pillow, which happened to be my shoulder. " Morning Belda.. You feeling better? "She seemed a tad bit confused then nodded. " Belda.. you know Master Yoda called last night right? Well he had a question for me .. and it concerns you.. would you like to know what he asked me?"
As she rose and began making things for breakfast I stopped her" Let me.. go grab a seat and I'll tell you what he asked me"

She headed back over and took a seat on the blanket that had been abondened sometime before.. I think she had thrown it off whenever she got up that morning." What Master Yoda called me about is .. well you" I really wasn't sure how to say this, because I could feel that she missed CeCe geatly. It had caught me off guard too when I had first heard to be truthful." He asked me if I would like to become your temporary master.. At least until CeCe returns.. "

I stopped working and I turned to look her straight in the eye" The decesion is yours Belda. I wwill not force this on you. if you say no then my answer is no. If you agree then I will tell the council yes. The only thing is, Master Yoda expects an answer upon our return to the temple. We are leaving possibly later today. I need to test my strength to see if I am ready to go back. or not. There are some things that the council wants brought back that I found from Granta's collection.They are dangerous artifacts and I will not leave here until I am strong enough to transport them on my own"

Belda nodded solemly and I turned to watch the skies for a while. A tightening in my heart and suddenly my thoughts were pulled down a most unexpected path.. I was wondering if he was okay.. if the council was giving him grief. I hated to admit it.. I really did.. but I missed him.. I missed the temple.. I just wanted life to go back to normal.. Hey waitaminute! Who was I kidding.. life was never normal for me. I heard Catia chuckle in my head " You got that right.. Force Pho, I wish I could make things diffrent for you.. If I could , I would do it in a heartbeat.. No spells, no enchantments.. I'm sorry..I'm not much of a freind am I?"

A single tear slipped down my cheek" It's not you Catia.. I know you would if you could.. But some things just are not meant to be. i just have to content myself with being a freind. No matter my own personal feelings on the matter.. Simply put, Jedi do not have feelings like that..

"I will not , can not admit my feelings. They are foolish and besides.. He's much too good for me"
I could hear Belda padding up behind me. " Are you allright Master Deimos?" she asked, sitting down next to me. Not even looking at her I nodded. She would not understand what I was feeling. In fact I half expected her to crinkle her nose in utter disgust at such an idea.I removed a small holo clip from my belt and pressed the activation button.

It was from when I was younger.. I think maybe 15.. As a reward for our great work rewiring the temple computers and redoing the plumbing( Mace was too cheap to hire pros) Obi wan had taken Anakin and I to the carnival. It was one of the happiest days of my life. The sun was shining and the mantle of darkness that had ensnared us all in it's grip was millenia away, or so it seemed.

Force I could even recall the taste of the cotton candy I had that day.. It was lime flavored. I remember Anakin trying to steal it and I sent him flying into the dunktank. I'm not sure who laughed harder, me or Obi Wan. A time I miss, when we were happy, when we were free. I still carry one trinket besides this holo clip from that perfect afternoon. A simple necklace. No inscription. Silver with an emerald and a sapphire in each end. it held a pciture of him.. I know I should have gotten rid of it long ago, but I didn't have the heart. I still don't to be frank.

I turned to Belda and looked upon her with semi sad eyes" You have such beautiful light Belda.. So bright it almost blinds me.. you remind me why I still fight..I am tired Belda.. tired of fighting.. I have fought all these years for peace for everyone.. but I have not been able to find peace for myself. I hear the screams of those who have fallen under my saber. The stench of blood permeates my clothes, my skin, my mind..The screams of the dying haunt my dreams.. Glowing green eyes of fire, darkness all around me closing in.. A small jewel of light I hang onto.. but sooner or later that jewel will turn to blackness and all will be lost."

My mind is haunted by images of the future of what will become of my brother.. I do not know what I should do. So many choices.. It's like I am being blown like a leaf in the wind. I will not lie.. I crave his smile, his nearness, his presence like I crave nothing else. So much so it has become a drug to me.

I know I will not be able to keep it hidden for much longer. When that time comes.. I have made my choice.. I will travel through the portal one last time.. .. Sequester myself in the future where this secret cannot reach me. Take what I treasure most with me and never return. Even if I must live apart from Ivan.. I will.. I cannot let this touch those who I care for.. Wait! Leaving would hurt them just as bad if not worse.. I do not know what is right and what is wrong anymore..

Oh force help me.. please.. if I don't figure this out soon, this might prove to be the path of my ultimite destruction.. like it almsot destroyed Erifia...I know I am stronger.. or am I?
Til Later
Phobia

The curse of my family pt 4 ( An unexpected call)

2007-02-04T18:36:00.000-05:00

It was early whenever I woke. Belda had been watching over me while I had slept it seemed because she was sprawled out on the cave floor asleep. Smiling I rose and tucked the blanket over her before moving off into the morning fog that rolled into the planet.
I had things to do.

The first thing I did was.. as much trouble as he caused me and the Jedi, I gave my brother a respectable burial. He was family and I would have liked to think dad would've wanted it that way.

Once that was done, I hunted down my brother's fighter and found something rather unexpected..

A treasure trove of sith artifacts.. There were no less than 4 holocrons, a star map.. the sword which I recgonized as Naga Sadow's ,and a staff.. which I didn't quite recgonize.. but I knew was important.

I pounded my head angrily against the durasteel door. It would take me another day to retrieve these and get them safely stored in the fight for the transport trip back to Coruscant.

And I would have to have up powerful shields around them to keep Belda from sensing them and getting spooked. The fighter was hidden in an alcove which I made sure was inaccessible to other beings before I left..

So I made sure they were well hidden and decided to explore the valley more in depth. I spent the whole day, climbing exploring caves and meditating to regain my strength.

I always kept a watchful eye on Belda with the force to make sure she was safe and sound. She encountered no trouble during the day. At sunset I went back to camp and found her kneeling by a small fire. When she saw me return she ran up and greeted me with a fierce hug. " Master Deimos! your feeling better?"

I hugged her back and nodded" Yes I am feeling a lot better, but I 'm really tired, but I would like to hear about your day very much Belda" Smiling she proceeded to tell me about her day in great length about all the places she'd been to , what she had done, what sort of animals she had met..I had asked her if she felt any other dark presences in the Valley.

She said she hadn't felt anything there except for a twinge from Phantom Evil..

She explained to me about Phantom Evil in great detail. His nightly visits.. How he terrified her into not seeking help from anyone.. it seemed I was one of the few who even KNEW about Phantom Evil's presence.

The first thing I was going to do when I got back my strength and got back home was consult the grimorie for a spell to banish astral projections and one to battle in the astral world. If I needed to I would fight this demon to protect belda.. Now don't get me wrong I love kids to death, but I felt some sort of special connection with Belda that I have never felt with any other child.. and I could tell, she could feel it too.

She told me of her family, what she knew and I told her of mine of what I knew. We were 2 peas in a pod Belda and I , and to be honest I was sorry to see our time on Korriban come to an end , but it was going to have to sooner or later. As the moon rose over the planet, the projector went off by firelight and I answered.

It was Master Yoda.. whatever it was.. it was very important for him to be calling himself..
TBC
Phobia

The Curse of my Family pt 3

2007-01-29T12:10:00.000-05:00

Cold feelings shot up and down my spine. I knew this was not good, not good at all. I could hear Omega calling out to the spirits of the graveyard.. Wait.. graveyeard? A sudden shock of horror made me realize he had dictated this fight all along, where it would be what terms, all of it. it made me sick.

I moved in front of the cave where Belda was , as a means of protection. There was no way that girl would be hurt so long as I still drew breath in my body. I reached for Catia and found her waiting and eager to fight. " Cut loose with all of your power.. hold nothing back. Omega does not deserve that sort of pity" An evil smile was etched on my face.. I hoped Belda was not watching this.. Wave after wave of dark power rolled off of me.. and I notced a change. .my hair was becoming darker and my eyes.. in the lake I could see.. they were blue now..

" So it seems I am in the presence of my old master" the voice of my brother sounded over the valley like a sonic boom.. That was not Omega.. A force presence similar to Catia's was in his place. One saber near the shoulder the other dragging slightly she locked eyes with him . " well I didn't think I would see you again still in the land of the living Master Ravenstone.. but I see you have become weak"

We circled each other" That makes two of us Bane, but I am not the one who is weak"

" Oh really? then what are you doing with a Jedi? Take over her body and follow me so we can rule together as it should have been!"

A cold icy glare stopped him dead in his tracks. " No Bane, I have my own design and you are not part of of it. Now stop this foolishness and come with me. I do not want to fight you.. "

" NEVER!"

Darkside energy was so thick you could cut it with a hundred sabers. Wave after continious wave. The valley was soon pitch black with energy. In the nearby cave I could feel Belda's fear through the force. I knew better than to reach out to her now. I could infect her with the dark.. Ghosts of numerous dead sith swirled around us and the only lights were from our sabers as we dueled . There were some torches lit. That was all the light we had.

I could retell the fight blow by blow but that'd take all week. Hours later, omega had given up on Bane and sent him back to the Netherworld. Next he called upon an evne older sith.. Naga Sadow. He was even before Catia's time, being the cause of the Great Hyperspace Wars. Omega began calling fourth ghouls to go after Belda.. He had found her!

I did a backflip over Omega's head and landed next to Belda who had powered up the light whip but was not using it. She stood there shaking in fear. My sabers swung in a powerful harmonizing movement and I called out to her through the howling winds" They only have power over you if you let them Belda! fight! You must fight to overcome your fear!" I was tiring.. this much was certain .. " Please.. Belda I need your help! I can't do this alone! " too much more and Catia wouldn't be able to sustain this form and I would be on my own.. if she couldn't sustain it.. I was as good as dead.

More and more spirits poured around us. I swung my sabers wildly, trying to fend them all off.My arms were growing heavier and heavier. It was all I could do to hold myself upright now.. any second this form would be snuffed out.. Then Belda began to glow. I could tell she was tapping into the force , calling for aid.

Whenever I thought I could bear no more I felt someone guiding my arms, like I was a padawan just learning my first movmeents with a saber again. I knew those ghostly hands as well as I knew myself.. I wanted to turn but the voice spoke to me" do not turn around whatever you do. He would take the chance to strike you down." The voice was female. Belda didn't quite know what was going on I don't think.. But all of a sudden she elt out an exicted cry.. " Master Qui Gon!": I caught a glimpse of him out of the corner of my eye. Just as I remembered him that day in the archive.

" Join your power with ours. together we can defeat this demon!" my master said to me and I did as instructed and suddely I felt like I could fight like this for years.. eons.. "You don't have that long.. only until sunrise.. then we must leave you.. " Qui Gon said, looking sad for the first time in.. many many years.

Together I fought off the ghouls easily. Time passed and soon it was sunrise. Just as my master and Qui Gon departed the living world I struck down my brother. I collapsed to the ground , exhausted and depelated of almost all of my force strength. There was no way I could reach out to let anyone know I was allright. So I weakly motioned for Belda to come over to me. Patting the ground next to where I was . She knelt down and in a hoarse and raspy voice I told her to go back to the fighter and bring me the holorpojector .

Once she came back with that and some blankets and supplies for camp I set the projector up and wearily realyed my story to the council . I told them that if they wanted Belda back there right away someone would have to come to Korriban because I would be in no condition to travel for at least 2 days while my force strength recovered . Once I had sent my message to the council, I leaned back on the makeshift cot Belda had made for me. Since we had no where to go for a while I began telling her my story in between getting drinks of water. Then she told me her story.. Her new master recently going missing.. her trying to fit in..

What troubled me the most was about this Phantom Evil that kept haunting Belda.. He didn't sound like a ghost , because she tried telling him he had no power and he just laughed. normally with 99.9 perent of ghosts.. that works.. To me it sounded like an astral projection.. I told Belda to sleep for now. I placed some candles that warded off darkside energy by the cave just in case until dawn. then I ended up droopping off like a lead brick.

TBC
Phobia

The curse of my family part 2

2007-01-23T22:44:00.000-05:00

Ctd from last post

Chills raced through my body as I stared in utter horror at the image before me. I recgonzied those eyes. So like my father's, but they were not. These eyes belonged to those of a madman." Hello Omega..to what do I owe the displeasure of this call?"

At this his face scoweled and it looked like he would have used force lightning on me if he could have. But he calmed himself in a hurry and placed his hands behind his back in a true CEO fashion" simple sister. I want to see if you are Jedi enough to meet me somehwere for a duel"

I snorted and began pacing slightly" And what makes you think I would do that?"

He sounded smug.. too smug " Simple.. The lives of all of all Coruscant are in your hands. Will you let yourself be responsible for the deaths of millions?!"

Okay I was getting pissed, and fast. Ripping his throat out sounded pretty fun right now.. " Allright spill it, what did you do?"

He smiled. .the rat bastard smiled at me then continued" Simple, my workers have planted 2 bombs, one inside your precaious temple down in the basement.. I believe right where that machiene is.. "

I was just about to run out of the room and go take a look to see if it was true, whenever the sound of his voice stopped me.

"ah ah.. I'm not done yet, the second is planted at the core of Coruscant. These bombs are specially made that if they are tampered with using the force, wires cut, or fiddled with in any way, they will go off. And each bomb has enough power to blow up several planets. So think carefully sister. Here are my terms. you fly to the Valley of the Sith Lords on Korriban. There you and I will battle to determine who is better. Once your ship reaches the sector I will raido the codes to disarm the bomb to the council .Once your ship touches down, you must cut all transmissions.you have one hour to decide":

His hologram clicked off and I turned to the council members, all wore grave and worried expressions. " Let me see the bomb, I might be able to disarm it!" Yoda's head shook in disagreement" Too dangerous it is for you.. Also we must worry about the safety of all the citizens."

In utter desperation, I turned to Obi Wan.. "I'm about the only person here who could even stand a chance at disarming it.. let me at least try.. I didn't hang around with Anakin for nothing you know.."

Ever so reluctently, he nodded and I was lead downstairs to the basement of the temple where the machiene had been kept.More like the pieces that was.. Sure enough, right where the holocron would have been there was this gigantic bomb.. wires all over the place and it looked like a big steel lunchbox to be honest. I looked it over.. " Type A class 66 bomb, thermal detnator.. crap.. " I turned back to Yoda..

" I'm sorry.. I can't dismantle it on my own I would need help , and not to be rude to anyone present, and forgive me if this does sound rude, but I would only trust Anakin with something like this. Any chance he got back yet? "

Master Kenobi shook his head negative.

I stalked back up the stairs, infuraiated. I tried hailing anakin on my com.. Nothing.. tired getting R2 to relay him a 911 to get back here immeditly.. Nothing..

I rubbed my temples with my free hand.. He had me backed into a corner and he knew it. Damnit Anakin why did you have to pick NOW to leave?

------------------ An hour later

" Omega I agree to all of your terms, but if you do not keep your word, there is no rock that will hide you from my wrath. I will be there in a few hours"

" Good then sister I shall see you soon" the holo went dead

I turned to the assembled council " Look to be frank I know you don't want me going. But I did not ask for this.. I did not seek him out to antagonize him. He found me. Okay? But I will be damned if I stand by and let him wipe out millions of lives. "

Before I left the council room I said to Obi Wan" If my bastard of a brother ends up killing me, do me a favor, kill Anakin .. please"

He didn't say anything but he looked at me worriedly and said" Please, be careful. I don't know why but if Omega is anything like his father he will pull any trick in the book. Expect the unexpected."

That remark rather ticked me off but I realizied that he was only worried about me but kept my mouth shut for the sake of time and just replied" Look, the real reason why Xanatos turned wasn't because of power. I don't have time to go into details, but I will explain it when I get back okay and for future refrence I am NOTHING like him got it?" I ran out of the room leaving a stunned and probably a rather angry Obi Wan.

I went back to my room long enough to feed Lisette and set out a few things before I headed to my fighter. I spared a passing glance to the kitchens as I passed . My stomach rumbled angrily at having been denied lunch.I wanted to get something to take with me to eat on the way but I checked my crono and realizied I didn't have enough time . Seeing the same padawan I had seen a while ago hurrying past I stopped her and asked her what her name was. .

" Oh.. my name is Belda Pinik.. You must be Master Deimos aren't you? The council is talking about you.. " she looked down at her feet, seemingly overcome by a bout of shyness.

" Belda.. that's a very pretty name.. can you do me a fast favor Belda? Can you run to the kitchens and get one of the small packs that they leave for knights and padawans who are departing and don't have time for a proper meal? I will write you a note in case this makes you late for classes"

" Of course Master Deimos I 'll be right back ! " she took off running and I reached to make sure I had my spare lightsaber. Crap! I didn't have it.. So that meant a fast trip back to my room. By then I was running so late I didn't have the time to wait for Belda. My stomach was going to hate me later but I had to go.

I got in my fighter which was detailed with rosevines on the wings and took off.Korriban was in the Outer Rim territory so I had a bit to go , even with the hyperdrive engines. Just as I was leaning back in the seat, my foot bumped the blanket I kept in the back which was strangely rumpled. I lifted and found... BELDA? My forehead hit my hand .. Gods I couldn't believe it..

As my fighter drifted closer to Korriban I knew what needed to be done. I shook Belda awake. at first she looked calm but then when she realizied where she was she cringed and looked down at the floor, wise enough to try not to make any excuses but she asked" what's going to happen to me now?"

I sighed running a hand through my hair. " It's too late to take you back to the temple Belda, you are going to have to come with me to Korriban . Listen" I rummaged in my robes and pulled out the lightsaber whip I had made . I handed it to her with a stern look." This is a lightsaber whip. It's more versatile and more dangerous than a regular saber.This is the only spare weapon I can afford to give you since your saber is not completed yet. Do not use it unless you must."

I showed her how it worked. She seemed awed and glad that I trusted her with such an important weapon. We were in the planet's atmosphere before my computer clicked on. I had instructed Belda to hide.. I didn't need Omega finding out I had a passenger.

" Allright. I am here.. now give me the codes"

" Of course dear sister.. but land the ship first."

I had no choice but to do as I was told . Once my ship touched down I told Belda to "stay hidden and do not come out unless you are in grave danger" The codes ran across the computer and I transmitted them to the council and then closed down all comminucations. I gave belda my spare com and told her if I fell in battle that she was to punch in code 211 to the council directly and tell them what had happened.

After making sure she was well hidden I followed Omega's lifeforce signature to a circle of caves. there was only one way in and one way out. One of us would never walk out of here.. and it was going to be him.

Igniting the blue and green blades I crossed them and waited, my hair whipping in the breeze. Omega ignited his lightsaber and reached for another sword on his back. then a dark presence swept the valley. I knew in the pit of my stomach what he was planning to do, but I couldn't fathom it. That power had not existed for millenia. The power to call ghosts..

Omega.. he was .. a shaman

TBC
Pho

The curse of my family part 1

2007-01-20T23:24:00.000-05:00

I had been sick for about a week straight now.. Anakin was still not back and I could tell those who normally see me mostly everyday were begining to worry. So it wasn't like I had much of a choice. I had to go the healer's. Barriss wasstill missing so I was with Dollie as usual. She was not frightened of me as she once had been whenever Catia had awoken from her 300 year sleep. needless to say I thought by the time Dollie was through with me, I was going to be dead.

Blood tests upon blood tests. By the time she was done I felt like a pin cushion. Medicine after medicine and hours of force trances to try and heal myself. Nothing worked. Dollie was just about to call for Master Yoda and a few of the others whenever she reached for a small flask on her belt and handed it to me" You better hope this works honey.. or else you're in for a worse road than you just were over."

I shrugged and took the flask. What did I have to loose?

A warmth spread over me as soon as I ingested it and a black smoke began to rise from my skin and cloud the whole ward. Dollie ran to open the windows and the more smoke left me, the better I felt. It was like a demon had possessed me and pratically drained all of my strength.

Finally oh force finally I felt like I could actually to move. I got up from the cot and walked around stretching trying to get feeling back into my limbs. I still felt weak, but I could function and my stomach didn't feel like it was on a constant roller coaster.

Patting me on the shoulder Dollie said" I am sure you have a lot of important thigns to catch up on darling.. I will get this blood to the lab as soon as I can okay? I'll call you whenever I get the results" Wrapping a thick robe around my nightgown i headed back to my room. My feet were bare, pretty much ensuring I would end up with a cold sometime soon.

I was stopped by a few of the masters, asking after me, wondering if I was feeling better. Heck even Master Yoda asked if I was feeling better. That made me feel really good.. I didn't think many really cared all that much. I just felt like I was a nameless face in the crowd.. It gave me a whole new respect for Yoda .

As soon as I got back to my room, I dressed and headed straight for the archives. The whole scenario with Omega was burning in my mind like a warning bell. I could not put my finger on it, but something was going to happen and soon . VERY soon.

It was almost early the next morning whenever the archivist Jocasta Nu found me, curled up on the couch reading.. Again.. You see when I was very little.. I would come in here and read and read.. hours and hours on end. I would read anything I could get my little hands on. By the time i was 9 I had read almost half of the archives. Even the most boring books to most were fascinating to me.

From the archives comes a special memory of mine, I should share it with you. It's funny in a way.But also really sad.. You'll see why..

You see, there was this one book on datapad I was looking for. It was high high up on the topmost shelf . All of the archivists were busy and didn't have time to climb up and get it for me. So me being my curious self.. I climbed up to get it . My little fingers had just managed to grab it when the whole bookcase tilted and I went crashing head first to the ground. . At that moment Qui Gon and Obi Wan had just walked in.

I remembered seeing a huge bookcase falling towards me and the next thing I knew Qui Gon had snatched me out of the way and had set me upright on my feet. Jocasta Nu and about 2 other archivists came running over to see what had happened.

I distinctly remember it was all Obi Wan could do not to burst out laughing .. Ms. Nu was livid.. but after much apologizing and explaining what had happened she did not ban me from the archives , but instead made me resort and refile all of the archives systems. It proved to be a valuable lesson for me, and also I pretty much knew where everything was from that day forward. And when I was pulled out of the pile of books, I still had my datapad.

That was 2 weeks before Qui Gon and Obi Wan were deployed to Naboo.. I never got to say thank you, or goodbye.. Force I miss him.. But back to my story.

Jocasta pretty much knows that if I am in the archives late I would be there all night. So whenever I dozed off with a datapad in my hands and woke at 3 am with a blanket around my shoulders, I wasn't really suprised. I kept reading.. I found all I could about my brother..

His full name was Granta Omega and he was born on the moon of Neirport VII.. His mother worked at a refuling station,well at least it was a step up from a paid call girl house...He left Nierport VII whenever he was about 15 to attend the All Sciences Research Academy on Yerphonia sponsered by senator Sano Saruo.. My skin was crawling at the mere mention of the Senator.. A number of times I had been present during diplomatic meetings and I noticed the senator watching me a tad closer than I would have liked . Thank the force Anakin had been quick to put a stop to his unwaranted advances.. I made sure to treat Anakin to an an you can eat dinner at Dex's just for that I was so grateful.

I was no ways near looking forward to having to even possibly deal with him.. he reminded me a lot of Darth Sidious.. Creepy? Yes.Ragoon VI was another time I remembered hearing of him.. He had tried to use bounty hunters to capture Obi Wan and Anakin, but they had escaped from his grasp.. Dear brother also had a knack for collecting Sith artifacts.. So one way or another he would come after me, because he would come after the artifacts and the trunk. if he figured out how to work the portal, we were in for trouble.

I remembered seeing a padawan early that morning before I had to leave for breakfast. There was an intresting light surrounding her, but she seemed sad over something. I didn't have the chance to ask her what though because after breakfast my com beeped and I was called to the council room . When I knocked I was given permission to enter and I waited for someone to speak. It is not good ettiquite to speak in the council room when the masters are assembled before being spoken to. It was Master Windu who spoke

" Knight Deimos, we have a situation, it involves your half brother, Granta Omega"

My stomach plumetted as Mace gestured to the lifesize holo standing in the middle of the room.

His eyes opened and he smiled.

" Hello sister"

TBC
Phobia

Confusion, Mishaps, and the call of the Siren

2007-01-15T22:22:00.000-05:00

For three days now I have done nothing but run tothe fresher and sleep.. My stomach cannot hold anything down, and I am weak enough to the point I can't even hold up my saber in both hands.. It feels like a lead brick. But if there is one good thing about being sick, it gives one time to think.

Early this afternoon I had a lit candle sitting by the Grimorie, and the window was open. A very stupid mistake on my part, but the Grimorie caught fire. Now you might be saying it's just a book right? No it's not just a book as I found out. When it caught alight, I .. I began to fade..

My spirit was leaving my body and my force signature was fading quickly. I thought I wwas going to ie, for real this tiem. But it seems fate had other plans in store for me because before too muchdamage was done, the wind from the open window snuffed out the fire.

Also.. I have tried to deny the call I feel tried oh so very hard.. But It becomes stronger with each passing day, more diffucut to resist. A part of me wishes I would have never went through the portal.

But yet another part of me wonders if I should go and never return. A taste of happiness, no matter how small can be a powerful thing. as more time passes a deeper feeling of dread fills me. I am comming to realize that i might have to do the one thing I would never have dreamed in a million years I would have to do.Force forgive me he is my brother and my freind and I fear that no matter how much love and freindship we offer him, it won't be enough.

I have never backed down from a battle. Not once in my life. Though I know and realize if I must become a reaper, I will not survive it.But if I die I die with honor, knowing that maybe with my death will save some lives.. Even if I only save one, then I will not have died in vain.I will leave the datapad out on the ledge of my room for him. I know the truth though I would give anything for it not to be so.

Not only have I been given a chance to think on those matters, but something a bit more pressing than Lord Vader. I know someone drugged my drink. And it was a powerful drug at that.

Only someone either brave, foolish, or desprete would dare try that with a Jedi. I ran through a list of possibilities.. Anakin knew better, besides.. He would know he would be raked over the coals by Master Kenobi if he dared.

I managed to do a bit of background searching before I became ill. I found out I have a half brother Omega... He is not force sensative.. It seems I inheraited that, but he can call up ghosts.

That does prove intresting since that would explain why I didn't feel any force signature at the cantina. He is a sith, and not like Catia. Evil through and through. He had attacked the temple once before when I was out on a mission. He had rigged a bomb somewhere inside to go off. But he forgot to think ahead. Master Yoda used the force to crush the bomb and Omega was taken into custody.

It suddenly rang clear as crystal. It had to have been. It was Omega who drugged my drink, but the question was why?A million reasons ran through my head each unlikely as the next. To be honest I wished Anakin was back..He was one of the few people who would sit and listen.. and maybe even believe..

I didn't want the past dragging me back into it's grip.. I wanted the chance to be free and move forward. I never looked for trouble, trouble always found me.. Can I help it if I have the uncanny ability to piece things together?

Kriss was missing, and there was no point in trying to talk to Obi Wan, he would just tear down my argument with logic.. i was backed into a corner with pratically no way out. that was the funny thing..

When I was in the future.. I felt Kriss.. It was an echo but it was there. It never occured to me until the other night. Force I am as confused as connfused can get. Two paths are open to me, only one is the right one. And yes .. the thought occured to me to burn the grimorie and take both of us with it..

That is still a possibility, but only as a last choice. If it comes down to either killing him, or burn the grimorie.. I will burn the book. i do not think it is in me to kill the one man who has become like a brother to me.. That may seem selfish, but I cannot do it.

If this is weakness, then I am weak. But if given the chance.. I have 3 words to say to Vader.. " I forgive you"

Chow for the moment
Phobia

The dress...(Catia's POV)

2007-01-14T21:42:00.000-05:00

Okay yeah, Pho was sicker than a bantha to be honest. I found out after a little investagation that at the cantina someone had drugged her drink. Her body was fighting it voraciously as was I.

What disturbs me is who would be either bold or foolish enough to attempt such a thing. I had my suspicions as to whom it was, but something lurked in the back of my mind.. Anyhow that wasn't important.

I had given Phobia the opprtunity to rest whenever a knock sounded at the door. When I opened it I have to admit I was rather suprised to see Erifia standing there. She was wearing what I had to admit was a dazzling dress .

" Something wrong Erifia? " I asked in about as much as a smooth even tone I could. Phobia was not doing any better and soon I feared I would have to go to the healer's . She looked me up and down once , bathrobe on me and all.. " Well I guess you can tell me"

" What are you talking about?"

" The dress. I know you had to have sent it"

What in all korkiba was she talking about? A wave of dizzyness hit me like a tidal wave and I had to hold onto the door frame for support.

" Look Erifia I have no clue what you are talking about but I did not send you that dress! " I was getting really irratated really fast. Add to that my stomach was about to decide it didn't like me again.

" Oh really? It seems like something you would pick out.. But I have to ask, how did you know my dress size?"

I'm pretty sure I was shooting lightning right then.

" Look believe whatever you want, I didn't send you that dress and I would really appreciate it if you'd go hunt elsewhere.. I would love to stand here and chat, but my stomach is about to come back up any second. "

At that moment it did.

I slammed the door in Erifia's face and ran for the fresher. I swear to god if I find out who drugged her drink I will kill them...

Til Later
Au Revoir
Catia Ravenstone

Number guess? 33.. how old I was when I died

Parties, drinks ,dancing and sickness at my 50th

2007-01-12T15:34:00.000-05:00

So to celebrate my 50th I threw a party at Dex's.. Pretty much everyone was there, even Yusuke Kurama and Hiei showed up, which was an absoulete miracle . And for some strange reason Koenma came too, in his cute form for a change.. Reminds me of the time when I first noticed guys.. It was nothing like what happened to Anakin . Believe me, I heard about it from various sources..

But a party for me and where did I find myself? Sitting off in a booth with Lisette curled up in my lap like always... Dex just adores Lisette, she keeps the mice out of the kitchen and gets a salmon all for herself.. but I was pretty much sitting all by myself.. Why I didn't know.. That was til I got yanked over to the bar by Anakin. He passed me a drink" Here sis you look like you could use one" I took it and the contents ofthe glass was gone in about a second. As he signaled Dex for another he let hisvoice drop a bit so no one else but me heard him" Look, I trusted you when you had to do what you needed to, now all I ask is trust me k?"

I felt a familiar tingle creep up my spine.. I didn't know what it was but it was familiar.. I turned and I saw Obi Wan.. I didn't understand.. it was the same feeling I got whenever I was around Ivan.. Ivan! I suddenly remembered what he had told me to tell Obi Wan.. As he took a seat next to the two of us I looked over my shoulder and said " A message from a freind, in the matter of DJK look to a gypsy.. "

I shrugged at his confused expression. " I don't know what it means.. I was told by a freind to tell you that" I held up my hand to cut off any more questioning.. " No it's not a joke, and I know he can be trusted"

The riddle kept playing itself over and over in my mind.. Mynock and Kyrat dragon..form 3 and 5... I used form 3 so half the riddle was solved.. .. I only knew one form 5 user who had a blue blade .. I slowly turned to him.. no.. no it couldn't be.. but in the deepest recesses of my mind the voice whispered that this was indeed the truth. My heart seemed utterly frozen. Like it had been dipped in carbonite.. I had to know the utter truth. I could not swallow the idea that that monster was.. was..

More drinks, more dancing.. I think at one point during the evening I danced with Obi Wan, Anakin and Tak.. Needless to say I was wasted by the time I got back to the temple. I think Catia managed to get us back to my room . Every movement seemed to take an age and a day to complete and bythe time I finally dropped into bed I had to use the force to pull the covers up over me.

Nightmares ripped at my mind the whole night through. of my father, of the future that seemed to be just looming over the horizion to doom us all, and of my own mistakes. I got little to no sleep that night and was awakened bythe sound of a starfighter engine hoovering overhead. I ran , or more like stumbled to the window just in time to see a familiar streak of yellow zip out of the atmosphere. I recalled Anakin's words and bowed my head in resignation. I did trust him.. but I would pray for his safety.. I did not ask him where he was headed , I knew better. Didn't mean I could help but worry though.

I watched him til he dissapeared off the planet. " Be safe bro"I whispered. The sound seemed to catch up with me and I stumbled to the fresher as the drinks , and pretty much everything came back up.. I ended up having to crawl back to bed on my hands and knees like a dog. The room was spinning badly. Something was wrong with me.. I didn't know what it was. I only a drank a bit and it should not be bugging me like this. I caught a glimpse of myself in the miror. I looked like a ghost and my hair was hanging around my face which made me look all the more ghastly.

By mid afternoon I was convinced my stomach hated me . I knew I had a class to teach that afternoon for Master Cin. I reached for my com and left a message for Yoda.. and then realizied in my infinite stupidity he was off planet. I would've called Anakin, but he was gone . I hated to do this to him but I called Obi Wan , who I guessed was in a council meeting.. sith..

" Obi Wan I'm sorry I have to bug you like this, but I'm in no condition to teach Cin's class this afternoon. I'm lower than pudu.. "

At that lovely moment my stomach lurched and I dropped the com as I ran to the fresher again. A few minutes I was back and sprawled across the bed .. I highly doubted I could move again if I needed to for a while. " I'm functioning for now.. Just find a sub for Cin's class okay? Yeah.. door is unlocked.. allright..Thanks.. "

I clicked the com off and tossed it into the small heap of clothes in the basket as Lisette walked up me and decided I would make a good pillow. .. I shoved her off for the moment.. She was too heavy for me to handle and I needed the room to breathe. Finally sleep claimed me , and this time I could sleep with no dreams. force knows I needed it

Chow for the moment( if i live)
Pho

( Catia)* Topic* Whispers in the darkness

2007-01-03T23:11:00.000-05:00

You're probably wondering why I have been silent for a while now, well let me explain.. You see even a Sith needs time to think. All of this has come on me so fast that believe it or not, has shocked me into silence. I don't really know if what I have seen will come to pass or not. To be frank, I was scared, and still am. I pretty much know I abondened Pho when she needed me the most. .. The whole Christmas party affair, that I had to admit, it was funny , but she needed the push in the right direction. She cares for him enough she will not risk way of life and reputation.

Not even to give him a clue..

By the way, you wonder why if you ever saw my pictures in the archives I always had cats by my side? Black cats? Smart creatures they are... let me tell you... I needed to stop off and find a good salmon shop and get Gar Gar a fresh Rylothian Salmon.. he earned it ... But it'd figure.. I have not one, but two lovestruck fools on my hands. I noticed this a few days prior. Lisette had a picture in her room and when I.. or should I say we went to look, it was all i could do not to bust out laughing.

In the little collar locket Pho had gotten for Lisette was a small picture of.. Lord Kittious, Dark Kitten of the Sith.. I heard rumors about this guy.. he was a lady killer to be sure. She was nervous.. When I asked she "said "she was thinking of calling him but was scared she'd stutter and make hersellf sound like an idiot. when I say said, I mean I looked into her head and read her thoughts.. Wait why I am even talking aobut reading a cat's thoughts? anyway.. . I shook my head and walked out of the room Force I could NOT believe this! was I the only sane one around here? I'm begining to think so.

Another call from the publisher's today. Pho was going to have to sneak out of the temple for a raido interview. She was bound to ge herself into trouble with these press junkets. Someone was going to find out.. I didn' think, I KNEW it was bound for disaster. I mean whenever Anakin of all people said he read her books.. She would've been tickled pink if not for her other problem..

The more people who read her stories.. the more famous she became.. And eventually her seceret would be out in the open and she would be devistated.

I admit I enjoy her books, force.. I get to meet some of her charcters in person.. let me say Stephen is one of the few men I can have an intelligent conversation with..

But anyway.. when recent events unfolded..I kind of went into a hibernation sleep. First of all.. I couldn't talk to Pho in the future.. you have no idea how much that unnerved me. and when she fought Vader.. I was scared for her like maybe a mother would be scared for her daughter. I couldn't get out of this cocoon cryscalis thing I was in.. It's hard to explain without seeing it first hand, so I am going to just quit confusing the rest of you.

As for the Sith lightning, that was me, and yet that wasn't me.

I didn't have the strength to tear free of my bonds alone and it takes a lot to hold me. But then there.. I saw him.. he and I shared power.. It was his last act before he moved on into the force at last.. Thanks Xanatos.. You have my respect.

Needless to say , these past few weeks have been an eye opener for not only her, but me as well. it has caused me to rethink a lot of things , and come to terms with what has happened and what might happen. I only pray that the force gives us the strength to see us through.

I saw her in the future you know.. She had aged beyond her years, poor woman.. Both physically and mentally. she had seen horrors no woman should have to face, made choices she should have never been forced to make.. and it's all my fault.. the only good thing about that whole bit is she finally found someone who loves her and she loves in return. I don't know the rhyme or reason of it, but he reminded me of someone.. Ivan.. i knew he did when I first saw that chip..

The only time I ever saw her smile was in his presence.. He lifts a great weight off of her shoulders and heart. She shines when he is with her. the rest of the time.. She is like a machiene.. dull ,lifeless, dead.. Void of all emotion and thought. Just gettingfrom day to day. Perhaps i should finish the job myself. I know the answer to the riddle.. I could finish off Lord Vader in this era easily.. But Phobia would not believe me.. I know she wouldn't. there is an old saying from my late master.. "There is danger for him who taketh the tiger cub,and danger for whoso snatches a delusion from a woman."

Oh my dear sister, daughter.. partner.. if you could only see.. He is not your brother.. He is your greatest enemy.. and I dare not breathe a word until it is too late.. Force forgive me and I pray when the time comes, we can make a quick end to him....
Til Later
Au Voir Catia Ravenstone

( P.S 50th post comming. .. If I get a little weepy.. sorry.. Party at Dex's, if you can make it, drop a comment on this post okie? thanks!)

More nightmares.. Revelations and Pain

2006-12-28T15:28:00.000-05:00

As she escorted me down the halls of the ancient ruin; which is the only way I can think of to describe it, I thought for sure I was living a bad dream. Mere ripples of the temple's former glory whispered through the dark halls, calling out to me like a siren's song .I could see the tapestries, which were full of color and life in my time, now dark with decay, and coated in dust hanging from the walls. We passed the hall of the lost 20 and she stopped.

" Come in here first, there is something you MUST know. " I followed albeit hesitantly. She pressed the button which activated the holo pictures of the faces of the lost 20, the 20 jedi who had been knights, some revered and then turned to the darkside, like Count Dooku. " you do know what this is don't you?" she asked me, her eyes fixed on mine.

I could feel there was some terrible truth she was about to reveal.Something I didn't want to hear but must hear for the greater good.

" Yes this is the hall of the lost 20, or now the lost 21"

" Wrong, it's now the hall of the lost 23"

" WHAT?"

She smiled and shushed me" Catia counts for 22.. the 23rd was her apprentice.. Lord Vader"
I nodded, the bile rising in my throat.. Why wouldn't she tell me who it was? I could goback and kill the person before this acrocity ever happened!

"why I brought you here is not because of Vader or Catia, but because of your father. He is one of the lost 23"

My eyes widened with shock. No! it simply couldn't be! My father one of the lost 23? No!

" It can't be!"

" Oh but it is.. you get your force sensatitivy from him. he died about 20 years ago give or take.. just before you were born.. Phobia.. Our father.. he was apprenticed to Qui Gon Jinn"

The world suddenly spun and I fell flat on my butt in the hall.. There was no utter way.. but somehwere in my heart I have always known it was true.. Every tiem I saw his holo I felt a special connection to him. I didn't know why.. I rose and slowly made my way over to the holo picture of my father.. The apprentice of Qui Gon Jinn.. fallen to the darkside, and his death watched by the man I care most about in this world: it was Xanatos.
My hand rose to the holo and it flickerd before comming back into place." Who.. who was my mother?"

" Your mother was a call girl in the Blue Rose bar.. When you were born, she wanted nothing to do with you.. she dumped you as soon as she could. Xanatos wanted to take responsibility for his mistake, by finding you and bringing you to the temple if nothing else; but Qui Gon would not let him search for you. In his diary Xanatos thought that Qui Gon was jealous of you and was afraid you would distract him from training."

"The council agreed and forbade Xanatos to search for you. Your own story you know from then on. it was because of the council's denial that caused Xanatos to turn to the darkside. He felt they had betrayed him. when the council teaches patience and tolerance but whenever Xanatos tried to excerise those same virtues he was brought up to being a golden calf of sorts. It would make anyone angry.. some could survive it , others could not. Your father was one of the unfortunates . I believe if he had found you, he might not have turned at all."

Tears were falling from my eyes as she finished the story. Pressing a small button on the bottom of the drawer, she removed a small mahogany chest with the symbol of a raven etched into it via wood burning. She pressed it into my hands. " He was quite good with wood projects. He left a note asking that if you would ever come to the temple that this box finds it 's way into your hands. You can take it back with you to the past"

She pulled me to my feet and we exited the room and kept going down the hall to another door which she knocked and I heard a male voice answer" Come on in dear.. I'm almost done with these old records!" Smiling she tugged me into the room and I nearly dropped the box as the man seated at the computer nearly dropped his glasses.

He was the spitting image of Obi Wan in his younger days, a pair of thick geek glasses perched on his nose, clad in a red sweater and black jeans with black boots. Giggling my future self pinched me and laughed " no your not dreaming. I thought so too the first time I met him.. so to speak.. come on in and sit down.. there's more we need to talk about.. "

The man rose from the computer and extended his hand to me" I'm glad you got that message, you did turn it over to the council though didn't you?" he asked with a look that reminded me of an evening I would love to forget. Embarassment flashed through me and he lifted my hand to his lips and kissed it" There was no need to be embarassed about that night.. but you might want to know that it was Gar Gar who spiked the punch not Anakin. Blasted cat framed him for it. Needless to say, Anakin took his revenge in a very just way."
I

giggled, butterflies fluttering around in my stomach." um okay.. is there anything I shouldn't be asking?"

He nodded gravely" Two things, one who Catia's apprentice was and secondly, about my past.. You know much but you know nothing.. all I will say is I am a Jedi..." A kiss to my forehead.. Hmm maybe I should stay in the future..

The void that had made me felt so restless and alone was filling under his tender care and I sighed relaxing into the couch. He chuckled and ruffled my hair" You can't stay here as much as I would like to let you.. You have to go back before Vader knows your here .. oh and when you see Obi Wan again, tell him in the matter of DJK.. things are not always what they appear to be, look to a gypsy."

My future self sat bolt upright her eyes wide" He's here. Ivan get her to the portal, I will distact him" she raced out of the room headed in one direction, Ivan grabbed me by the arm and took off running for the oppisite end of the hall. I could see the portal shining in the gardens. All of a sudden he doubled over in pain" Keep running, don't stop for anyone or anything. Remember we're always with you GO!"

He ran back down the hall to help his wife.

My feet beat across the stones as I ran for the portal . I was almost to it when a chilling darkside energy made me turn, my hand on my saber there stood the one man who everyone feared.. Darth Vader.

He looked right at me and his eyes seemed to widen in shock.. Well I wouldn't know because they were hidden behind that ugly helmet. He raised my future self from the stones and began to choke her. To my horror I felt my trachea begin to give way under the intense pressure. I unclipped my saber intent on helping them even if I could barely breathe.

Ivan screamed at me to run but I refused and instead went after Vader , using every ounce of strength I possessed.

He had me beaten in 5 moves. As he raised his saber to strike the final blow, a surge of energy whipped through my body, elecricity crackled through my fingertips and I slammed Vader in the chest with force lightning. He was thrown back and I picked up my saber which had fallen to the floor" now tell me who you really were before you became Darth Vader"
He scoffed" you would not believe me if I told you"
My saber inched closer, wanting to stirke the final blow but I could not, my training would not let me, not til I knew the truth.

" Try me"

He remained silent, as though considering my challange and said" Alright, a riddle for you then , the kyrat dragon flies,the mynock sings.Two twists of blue one soon to be red. Disturbed and confused, angry and resentful, one pines for an unrequuited love. Fires of passion burn bright when these two duel. Who are they?"

He chuckled" If and when you figure the answer out, I will tell you my true identity, even let you kill me. For I am sure you will wish to. When you figure it out, type the answer on a blank datapad and leave it on the windowsill of your room. I will find you."

Then he force shoved me through the portal.

I fell on my head in my room , trying to draw air but I found I couldn't. He had crushed my trachea. I stumbled out the hall and to the helaer's ward, praying to the force Obi Wan and Anakin wern't there trying to find me.. I slipped in and saw one of the healers quickly before I passed out and she healed my throat in a matter of seconds.. She warned me not to try to talk til sunriset least, and told me she would keep me hidden from Anakin and Obi Wan for them moment. So now I can sit and think.. and maybe open this box..
More later
Pho

The future.. secrets, and more headaches

2006-12-24T15:39:00.000-05:00

When I woke my head felt like it wanted to split in half the pain was so bad. Stumbling to my feet I made my way to what appeared to be the temple and pushed open the heavy doors. The place was too earily silent.. Somethign was wrong, very wrong... There were limited force presences here and I had no idea why.. for one of the few times in my life, I will admit, I was scared to death. What had happened? Normally the temple was buzzing from day to day and now it was as quiet as a graveyard..

The pain abated as I glimpsed a magazine lying on the floor, Empire Monthly? What in all stars was going on? I picke it up and read it.. then it dropped from my hands like I had touched aheated hyperdrive core.. Oh gods.. no.. no.. it couldn't be! A set of hands landed on my shoulders and spun me around.. It was.. me.. but older.. a lot older.. beyond my years even.. " You came through the chest didn't you?" she asked me.

I could only nod.

She quickly pulled me down familiar yet strange hallways til we reached what was and is my quaters " Take a seat.. We have much to discuss" She siad, her eyes somber as she poured some jawa juice. I took the cup she handed me and began to sip slowly " How far in the past are you from?"

I looked up at her.. over the rim of my glass " Well I can tell you that it's Christmas Eve there.. The party.. "

She gave me a curt nod, " whati s going on in your time?"

I gave her a quick recount, about Barriss, Erfia and what had been happening at the temple.. " .. it might not be too late to reverse what happened.." she muttered thinking aloud.. a bad habbit which I swear I will curb if it kills me

I had enough" Explain to me what happened or I will find my own way back! I'm getting sick and tired of you not telling me things! I am you damnit!" my frustration was building like a pressure cooker and pretty soon I was gonna snap if I didn't get some answers.

She sighed" alright, sit still and I will explain, but listen carefully because I don't repeat myself"

I curled up in the armchair as she went into her tale

" Three months after your fight with Harusame, the council offered a potion to seperate Catia from you and give her a body of her own. you took it.. well at least I did. it split us and fora while things were fine.. but then.. soemthing happened. While on a mission to Endor to bring food and medical supplies to the batallion stationed there a hail came out to all of the Jedi telling them to return to the temple. I went back as comanded , but my sneses were on alert. When I entered the temple the warning of danger screamed through the air and I ran for the council room. There stood Catia, saber in hand , her new apprentice next to her."

"Her apprentice lifted his saber to begin striking down the younglings around him, but I threw myself at their feet, pleading for the children to be spared " sheshivered and looked even more dead than alive as she continued " they agreed on one condition, I had to choose who lived and died on the council and through out the whole temple.. The remaining council membersare Master Yoda, Master Kenobi, Ki Adi Mundi and Adi Gallia. and the others who were killed.. I was forced to watch their excutions.. Later her apprentice became Lord Vader and I the emmisary between the Jedi and the Empire.. We are basically Vader's personal assisians now not much more.. Life continues here, but not without constant reminders of what happened, Espically for me..

"Catia dissapeared into the center of the galaxy and has not been herd from since.. I assume she is still alive and biding her time in case her apprentice should fail. She gave Sidious the title of Emperor and made him Vader's handelr in another words" the last part was spat out hatefully.

My mind was having trouble wrapping itself around all of this, but I knew therewas one thing she kept from me" who was her apprentice ?"

Her eyes flashed and she looked at me strenly" I will not answer that, needless to say his betrayl affected us all ." she sighed and stood" C'mon I think it's time you met theman who sent that chip to you.. "

I followed her out the door " who?"

"My husband , Ivan"

More Later
Phobia
(from Pho's author: Merry Christmas everyone!)

Christmas party woes

2006-12-18T16:46:00.000-05:00

Well believe it or not I made it whole to the night of the party.. how? That part I don't know.. Point was I was at the party and there where whispers and various people pointing to me and whispering .. I shook it off and headed to the punch table..

I saw some sort of row between Padme and Anakin but wansn't paying much attention as my eyes locked on a certain someone across the room. I don't know what it was but the next thing I knew I was being whirled across the floor and a whisper in my ear of " spiked punch"

A very agreeable shiver went up my spine.. I didn't know what I was doing.. It was like I was watching myself . Everything else i knew that told me this was wrong went out the window and it was like as though I was moving on a programmed set of movements.

Just as I was about to betray the one secret I fought so long to keep, lights blared and the song " Rage Against the machiene " . Suddenly I was out on the dance floor alone.

" Catia what is going on with me?" I asked, my body feeling like it was on fire
I got no answer, which scared me.

I headed over for a second drink and it only took about 2 minutes and the same warm feeling returned through my limbs.. i had pratically no control over my body and as I moved closer and closer.

The feeling grew more and more intense until I was sure I would burn up like a piece of paper in the fire.
Whenever I found myself next to him again there were tears squcking from the corners of my eyes and I swore I would kill whoever had spiked that punch.. espically if it was Anakin. all I could manage to make myself say was" Spiked punch.. forgive me.. please" before I had pinned him against the wall ,kissing him like a woman starved for food.

Oh force.. if I must die.. let me die now while I was happy.. The feeling grew and grew until I swas sure I would die from it.. then mercifully.. Oh force mercifully I only saw blackness.. The last thing I remember seeing was a pair of sea green eyes.

When I woke .. I was in the hospital wing, still in my dress, thank god. Voices were comming from behind the closed door next to me. I distinctly heard anakin among them. and did I hear... Gar Gar? Stars I was going to kill someone at any moment...

As the door opened and Obi Wan looked over at me, I buried my head in the pillow and cried my eyes out.. Everything had come back in one, very painful bright rush and I could not bear to look at him .
I heard Anakin as well and one look told me all I needed to know.. He had done it. He had to have.... .

" Don't you even come near me Anakin!" I screamed at him. I'm sure if I could've seen a miror I looked horrible. For a small moment I was caught between lunging for his throat and choking thevery life out of him and jusr running out of there as fast as I could.

I chose the latter.

I force ran out of the hospital ward,clear back to my room . I wanted to die.. to let myself be swallowed up and die utterly.. If Anakin had not spiked the punch, my secret.. the one thing I fought above all to protect.. would not be in such danger. My heart felt like it wanted to be ripped out and stomped on..

I briefly wondered what he must think of me.. Probably thought I was nuts, overreacting or having some allergic reaction to whatever that weasel spiked it with. .. I glanced around my room ,my eyes falling on each of my things in turn..
I considered running from the temple, but that wouldn't do either.. it would just make things worse..

Then my gaze fell on Catia's trunk..
"yes Phobia.. an escape.. that chest can make it so this never happened.. and do a good deed too .. "

I lifted the chest lid open and in it. .was a portal.. A swirling white portal.. all I would have to dowas step through and.. poof.. I knew how portals worked.. but then again I could always go back to the Rekai for a year..

Then I would be free. .but then again.. Kurama and Yusuke would have my head for running then expecting them to protect me.. no this was best..
A quick change of clothes and I headed back looking into the chest.. I would only stay for a few hours.. somehwere where I could think.. unimpeeded and without distraction..

Somehwere I wouldn't have a chur'ell freind trying to wreck my life or a dissapointed Jedi Master.. I briefly wondered what MY master would think of this. She'd probably be ashamed of me too I figure.. .

"Catia.. where does the portal end up?"
"nowhere and everywhere whereever it deems you need to go the most"
Nodding I scribbled a note so no one would worry
Went portal hopping, I'll be back as soon as I can
Phobia

I made sure ot leave the door unlocked.. in case someone would be looking for me.. Which I doubted highly

I stepped into the milky whiteness and all of a sudden it felt like I was on a water slide.. I was going down.. down down.. the next thing I knew I was looking at the outside of the temple before I blacked out

Chow for the moment..
Pho

Stuck in a conundrum

2006-12-09T01:01:00.000-05:00

Well after my visit with the publisher this morning I have super fablous news.. Cycle of Time is the most anticipated book for the Christmas season . Reclamation has hit the top 10 Coruscant list! Whoohoo! After I cahsed the check from the newest bunch of sales made from the first book

I headed downtown for shopping. I had nothing to wear for the Christmas party and I was in desprete need of a dress and yes.. more shoes.. Believe it or not.. I have quite the extensive shoe colection.

I took my speeder into the downtown shopping district dressed in my civvie clothes thankyou muchly.. . I doubtd even Anakin could've found me if he tried for a week I blended in that well . So here I was wandering through the shpping district looking for a dress when I stopped dead at the GryphorMoon shop. Holy Sith! The dress that was in the window.. It was beautiful! I headed inside and about 10 minutes later I exited with a box under one arm .. The dress was a perfect fit. Now for my accessories.. Namely shoes..

Soemthing like maybe four hours later and much hunting( hey I'm picky) I loaded up my speeder and headed back to the temple.. I made sure to pull the speeder right up underneath my window and dump everythign through there.. I didn't want Anakin or anyone asking how I had gotten the money for this expidition. Once I got back to my room I laid the dress out on the bed and smothered out any wrinkles. Lisette purred her approval and proceded to mark the dress as " her's"

I was about halfway into a laughing fit when my holomail went off. It was from the pulbisher saying they had scheduled an appearence for me a week from today.. I checked the calander SITH ! that was the night of the party! I emailed Dortherita back saying it couldn't be that night because I had a party to attend and it was unavoidable , I had to be there. Up til this point I have only done holoraido interviews and even then my voice was changed..Because I know for a fact Mace listens to the holo raido like a religion . I wanted to avoid any " parties " like the plague because once word got out I was a jedi knight.. my carrer as a writer would be tanked for sure. That was problem A. Problem B was that once it got out at the temple.. I would either have a train of fanboys following me everywhere, or worse.. I could be forbidden to continue my wirting.

I know and full well realize that keeping things hidden to oneself emotions speaking can lead to the darkside,but I found an outlet to let that go and actually confess it, through my charcters. it might seem childish and or foolish, but it works for me and that's the only thing I careabout. And besides , it's fun. Like when I am passing someone on a street corner and they are talking about one of the books. That's what I live for.. , that's my true reward to make people happy with my writing.. If I stopped having fun writing, I would stop writing alltogether... Close off the series and be done with it..

Though, even writing helps me let some things go, there are some times when it can make them worse.. I will not lie in that aspect. Some nights I cry myself to sleep because it pains me so much. As much as I give myself to the stories, they give back to me, wether it be in comfort , happiness , or pain; I can't say. it comes with the territory.

Well anyway I kind of got way off subject there, back to the shopping expidition.

I slipped the dress on and laced up the back before fiddling wiht my hair just a little til I found the perfect style for it, a slight french twist leaving some ogf my hair hanging at the back of my neck like a fan almost.. Next came the shoes which were all black with silver ribbinns threaded through them. Finally I slipped on the bracelet and looked at myself in the mirior. I didn't recgonize who that woman was that was standing there. It couldn't have been me.. this woman looked, dare I say it pretty? And that term I use loosely. She.. I mean I looked like a cross between a royal lady and a night creature.. The line between extreamly grey and blurry.

I made some notes as to what makeup I should use and then took everything back off and changed into my black pants and tanktop I needed to go to the training room to pratice , no saber or whip this time, the old fashioned weapons.

I was running through my bo staff kata, Shokon Nidan whenever Anakin made the mistake of comming up behind me and I accidently twacked him in the head.. " Oh Anakin I'm sorry!" I said running over to check on him. After him assuring me he was okay , I set my bo down and asked" Okay I know you wouldn't come down here without a sparring partner without a reason.. So spill what's up?"

" well.. " he looked around to make sure no one was listening and then asked me" You know I 've been kinda reading the Neatherrealm series and I was wondering if you knew when the next book was comming out?"

Folks let me tell you I nearly died of a heartattack right then and there.

Anakin actually read the book? Anakin reading period? Pinch me someone I'm dreaming.. but anywho

" Should be out in another week or so I heard the author met with the publisher a few days ago" okay so I was lying my face off here, it was to protect my own reputation what can I say?
He smiled " Good.. I wanted to get the next one the day it comes out and I was thinking of maybe getting Obi Wan the first one.. He seems to have read through the enitre library in his quaters.. Most of those books are falling apart he's read them so much. "

My eyes were as big as saucers and Catia snickered " Well seems like Anakin has you caught between a rock .. and a Jedi?" She's lucky she's already dead.. I could hear her laughter echoing in my head..

" um , yah sure, try the local B&N I hear they are having a midnight premire.. " I said while trying to regain some sense of bearing.. Thankfully, I NEVER went to midnight premires..general rule type deal.. good lord help me if those two become fans of the series.. This was not the kind of afternoon I was envisioning, not at all. Anakin left a minute or two later and I picked up my kamas spining them in my hands and went into one of the lower belt katas.

How is it my seemingly perfect afternoon comes down around my ears?

Oh before I forget, the above pictures are of the dress, and bracelet as well as my hair comb..

I think I need an asprin, extra strength
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An afternoon demonstration and preparations for Christmas..

2006-12-06T13:21:00.000-05:00

It started snowing after lunch , which is a rare occurnce in itself here on Coruscant. So after a com message from Master Draling, I headed out into the snow covered yard for today's lesson. Yusuke waited for me as did Hiei and Kurama. I looked to Master Draling as he began to speak to the class.

" Today's lesson will be about combat in the elements. Many of you will be sent to inhospitable planets and might be forced to resort to battle to get yourselves out of any number of situations . Against any number of opponents. Now Knight Deimos and her freinds have kindly agreed to help me in my demonstration. She will have her lightsaber, vibroblade, and her lightsaber whip to defend against three opponents. It is higly doubtful you will be so fortuante, but after all this is only a demonstration."

Turning to us he said " I ask you keep in mind this fight is not for real, and exibit some control.You may begin"

No sooner than the words had left his lips, we were all four in motion.Hiei had drawn his katana and was attacking from one side, Yusuke had powered up the spirit punch, and Kurama had his rosewhip out. I took out Yusuke first with a kick to the gut as I raised my own whip to rip through Kurama's. then finally with my other hand I reached for my lightsaber and brought it up, tangeling with Hiei's attack, Sword of the darkness flame.

Kurama stepped back from the fight for a moment, his eyes were flickering.. Oh force if that meant what I thought it did.. I saw Yusuke comming back for me and I ducked and twisted his arm around and pushed him away before turning to face Hiei.he had ripped off his bandana that covered the Jagan eye and I could see.. he was starting to change.
I backed up.. only to have a pair of strong arms wrap around my middle and lift me off the ground.. " Yoko let me down!" I yelled, seeing that indeed , it was Yoko now.. Not Suichi.. " Sith.. "
Muttering under my breath I began to form a quick plan of escape.. If Anakin saw this humilating turn of events.. good giref he'd never let me live it down.. Smiling Ireached up and rubbed the tip of Yoko's ear.. As I expected, he purred and his eyes fell shut before his arms slackened and I kicked him in the chest sending him flying across the lawn.
I brought my saber up to face a fully transformed Hiei. Out of the corner of my one eye I could see Yusuke getting up . his hair was getting longer and tatoos were comming over his face.. Uh oh.. his first form as a battle demon.. I hoped Master Draling would call it here soon because if Yusuke got really mad, there could be some serious collaterial damage.

The next thing I knew I had made a serious mistake.. I had taken my eyes off of Hiei. I was flying through the air and hit the snow with a rather loud thud and there was a small crater sized hole where I had landed .I got up , though a tad stiffly . I climbed out of the hole and in a double attack, I snagged Hiei with the first of the whip tendrils and grabbed Yusuke with the other. I gave a hard yank and both landed on their backsides in the snow.
" Enough!" Master Draling boomed. I stopped and after returning my weapons to their proper places I bowed respectfully motioning for those of them who could still walk to do the same.

" That was quite the demonstration Phobia.. You may go.. Will your freinds be around? I would like to have them demonstrate for some of my more advanced classes, and possibly for the Christmas party.. that was quite the show."
As Hiei walked past he turned to Master Draling and said" hn, that was no show.. anyone else would've been beaten soundly. "

I wanted to smack him so badly for his lack of manners, but .. that was Hiei.. I could hear Yusuke's com going off . " Excuse me Master.. I do not know if that will be possible.. They might be departing . Koenma needs them back there soon"
He nodded understandlingly and turned to address his class as I listened to the todler whining and screaming about something..

After calling Yusuke an incompitent and dundering fool, I snapped and grabbed the com off of him . For the next three minutes I proceeded ot tell that brat what excactly I thought of him in huttenese, using quite a few choice words that would've gotten me into trouble with the council and made Yusuke sit back on his heels laughing his rear end off. . I snorted and finished with" And if you EVER come up with any of that crap again, I WILL come to the Rekai and knock your sorry pathetic babfied rear end from this dimenshion to several others, Makai NOT included!" I threw the com up in the air and sliced in half with my saber. " Shut off the other one Kurama.. the baby can stew in his own bed for a while as far as I care"

Hiei out and out laughed at that and Kurama smirked . I turned and headed back indoors out of the freezing cold that was starting to take a toll on my body. The second I was back in the temple I hunted down a cup of coffee with plenty of sugar and creamer.. Anakin can't figure out how I can drink the stuff, but I love it for some odd reason.
I was soundly bundled up in my robe by Kurama who when I asked why he was being so nice all of a sudden said" anyonewho can make Koenma shut up in the middle of a tirade by calling him no less than 26 diffrent names in huttenese, and some demonic.. deserves to carted to somewhat. "

Had I used some demonic? I had lost track .. I don't get that mad often.. When I do I tend to use demonic.. It's a cross of old Galeic and Drow, the language of the dark elves.. Sighing I took my coffee and headed to thearchives to see if the book I was after was back in.. Yess! The Statship flight chronicles were in! I checked out the whole set and headed back to my room and set them on my desk before I pulled out a datapad I had specifically labeled.

You see.. At one point I had written a book called " Reclmation" it was a fairytale about a princess with a lost kingdom and her fight to reclaim it and the losses she suffers .. It never really sold big but it was enough to give me some substantial pocket change, enough to redo my room and keep Lisette fed and give her toys etc..
It's fun really and now I was currently working on the second one of the series.. "Cycle of Time."
I have to admit I wonder if anyone in the temple reads these..

The younglings aren't allowed to read them for many reasons which I won't go into to not spoil the plotline.needless to say only older padawans and the knights and or masters were allowed in the section my book was in.. Let me say for lack of any social experience I make up for in imagnation.. I have not told a soul I write, not even Anakin.. The monogram I use is P.A .D which meant ;Phobia Auruora Deimos Heck I 'm willing to bet half the world thinks it's Senetor Amidala.... Which I find funny really.
I have a sneaking suspicion Yoda might have an idea though .. He seems to be giving me more and more time off lately and alos encourages me to write.. I swear if he does know and tells ANYONE I will die..

I read through the last scene I had written , and then got up and turned on my saber. The best way to know if you are writing a good fight scene is if you act it out yourself. I made a couple of passes and then sat down and turned off my saber reaching for my data pad. I continued my writing. So far I had written about 290 pages. That was maybe about half of the new book. Something like an hour later I set down the pad, having written about 100 or so more pages. I write fast what can I say?

I got up and after feeding Lisette I headed out the door to the dining hall for some much needed food. I happen to glance at a calander on the way down.. The temple christmas party was less than a week or so away.. I needed a new dress! Which meant heading into the Coruscant shopping district to find one, but even before that I had to finish the book and drop the manuscript at the publisher's place..

Right after dinner I was back at work, writing feversihly into the night. I couldn't stop writing once I sat down.. When I finally ended the book. It was 5 am.. The publisher opened at 8 .. I think I pretty darn near fell onto the bed and was out cold.. I could worry about the manuscript later.. I probably wouldn't have heard my com if it would have went off..
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